Current members of Blue October include Justin Furstenfeld (lead vocals), Ryan Delahoussaye (violin/viola, mandolin, keyboards, and vocals), Jeremy Furstenfeld (drums, percussion), Matt Noveskey (bass guitar) and Will Knaak (guitar).
Popularized by their platinum-certified album Foiled (2006), which features the hit singles “Hate Me” and “Into the Ocean,” the group has continued to evolve… shifting from a far more pensive sound to one that is more optimistic and reflective of lead singer/songwriter/guitarist Justin Furstenfeld’s transformation—which will also be the focus of his soon-to-be-released documentary film, I Want It.
Once known for their stormy dynamic and self-destructive tendencies, Blue October couldn’t be more distinct from the band it once was, which is why their latest studio album, I Hope You’re Happy, looks to push the envelope even further with a whole new approach. Justin Furstenfeld is quoted as saying "I think Blue October should never be limited to the instruments we have in the band. I’m always about bringing in whoever can play what’s best for the song in. I’m also a huge fan of Peter Gabriel, and if you were to him all you can have is a guitarist a bassist and a drummer, he’d go “what?!” That’s how I feel. We took all the tools we had gotten from working all these kinds of people over the twenty-year span and made a really good album and we’re super proud of it. It’s nice and colorful and positive and universally themed. It’s something you can really sink your teeth into and not get sick of. You can always discover little new secrets about it along the way."
Their latest album, I Hope You're Happy, was released on August 17, 2018 on the band's own Up/Down Records label and was produced by Justin Furstenfeld and engineer Eric Holtz.
Previous band members have included Liz Mulally, Brant Coulter, Dwayne Casey, Piper Dagnino, Julian Mandrake, CB Hudson and Matthew Ostrander.
Blue October has an official site www.blueoctober.com/.
For the British band, please see Blue October UK
It's Just Me
Blue October Lyrics
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I think I left it in your arms
I forget the reasons I got scared
But remember that I cared quite a lot
You see but lately I've been on my own
Yeah one, but one by choice
You see, that's a first for me
And now I realize for once
It's just me
It's just me
It's just me
And I'll find a way to make it
There's no one left to stop me
Here I go
Can we take it from the top?
So what so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong
Don't try to take this from me
I'm already spent living half my life undone
So what so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong
Don't try to take this from me
I've already spent my life living half undone
I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again
I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends
I've tried to push them all away
They push me back and wanna stay
And that's one good thing I have
I'm gonna feel a peace in me
I'm gonna feel at home
I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone
I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor
I don't wanna hurt no more
Yeah it's just me
It's just me
And I'll find a way to make it
There's no one left to stop me
Here i go, can we take it from the top?
So what so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong
Don't try to take her from me
I've already spent my life living half undone
So what so long?
So sad, i wanna be strong
Don't try to take her from me
I've already spent my life living half undone
It's me the one who won before
I used to smile but don't no more
I'm living just to watch it all go by
The lyrics of Blue October's song "It's Just Me" portray a personal journey of self-discovery and acceptance. The opening line, "I lost a piece of me in you, I think I left it in your arms," suggests that the singer has experienced heartbreak and has struggled to move on. Though they "forget the reasons [they] got scared" in the past, they still "cared quite a lot." Yet, the singer has come to a realization that they have never experienced before: being alone by choice. Despite the fear it may bring, the singer wants to face this new aspect of life and find a way to make it work. In the chorus, the repetition of "It's just me" emphasizes the newfound sense of independence and individualism that the singer has discovered.
Further into the song, the singer reveals their past attempts to isolate themselves from the world, but they have come to appreciate those who care for them. They acknowledge their own role in pushing people away, but ultimately recognize the value of the caring friends and family they have. The song ends with the singer's resolution to find peace, make the "cloud above me disappear," and not "hurt no more." The repetition of the phrase "So what so long?" suggests that the singer is ready to let go of the past and move forward with a newfound sense of inner strength.
Line by Line Meaning
I lost a piece of me in you
I lost a part of myself in the person I was with
I think I left it in your arms
I remember feeling safe with you and it's where I believe I left that piece of me
I forget the reasons I got scared
I can't recall why I got scared, but to me it was valid at the time
But remember that I cared quite a lot
Despite everything, I loved and cared for you deeply
You see but lately I've been on my own
Recently, I have been alone
Yeah one, but one by choice
I made the conscious decision to be alone
You see, that's a first for me
Being alone is not something I am used to
There's only me, yeah there's only me
There is no one else around, it is just me
And now I realize for once
I have come to the realization that
It's just me
I am alone and that is okay
And I'll find a way to make it
I will find a way to cope with being alone
There's no one left to stop me
There is no one to tell me that I can't do it
Here I go
I am about to take on this challenge of being alone
Can we take it from the top?
Can we start over again?
So what so long?
What's taking so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong
I am feeling sad, but I want to be strong
Don't try to take this from me
Don't try to take away my newfound strength
I'm already spent living half my life undone
I have wasted so much of my life feeling incomplete
I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again
I have been reconnecting with my family
I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends
I am discovering that I have true friends
I've tried to push them all away
I attempted to distance myself from the people who care about me
They push me back and wanna stay
They refuse to let me isolate myself
And that's one good thing I have
I am grateful for having people in my life that care enough to fight for me
I'm gonna feel a peace in me
I am going to achieve inner peace
I'm gonna feel at home
I am going to feel content and at ease in my own skin
I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone
I am going to overcome my struggles and be happy
I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor
I want to feel alive and passionate again
I don't wanna hurt no more
I don't want to feel pain anymore
It's me the one who won before
I am the person who has prevailed in the past
I used to smile but don't no more
I used to be happy, but I am not anymore
I'm living just to watch it all go by
I feel like I'm just existing to watch life pass me by
Contributed by Scarlett N. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
David Longcore
So sad I wanna be strong...
I'm gonna feel a peace in me,
I'm gonna feel at home.
I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone.
I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor.
I don't wanna hurt no more.
Makes me cry everytime.
alien jess
Heard it on repeat at 15 years old and now I am 29. For some reason I remembered it, searched and found it here and it still made me cry. And I related to the song even more now.
Johnny Marvelous
I’m 29 now and feel the exact same way
Ness. Zden
Thanks for sharing. Caring xx🙏❤️ from Australia
Ruby Ramirez
I was only 9 or 10 when my depression started..this band is everything to me. Justin's lyrics really made me feel like I wasn't alone.
Michael Corrado
I know this is an old comment, but what went wrong at such a young age?
Isiah Gilbert
Michael Corrado alot can happen to kids at this age and younger my 1st grade I had to help take care of my dad wipe his but carry him to restroom nd cook for my ma but they hardly shown appreciation I couldn't go to sleep wondering if they were gonna go in and bust my butt for something I didn't do and school well heh u know its shit in a town of pop. 300 music is ur only friend and this band had played an important roll in my life as well
CONNIE JOHNSON
hey micheal:) a lot of the time we are born this way. we have low coping skills and are usually very sweet, sensitive people that just react badly when we hurt. i have been this way since i can remember. it just got worse when hormones kicked in around 11. yes, i had an abusive dad but he didn't cause the depression...he did however pass in on to me in his genes. i still have pain at 48 but i have learned to cope a LITTLE better. we are very reactive to others and need a lot of acceptance and understanding:) thank you for asking. education is the key. and LOVE!!! love rules the world!
conjured_up_skeletons
I'm glad depression is not a part of my life. Ain't dumb enough to have kids.
Zackary Hilf
Sometimes trauma happens when you're so young you don't even truly know why you're just like this and don't know any different
Rika Stone
One night just left the CD playing after 18th floor balcony and like 4 minutes later i herd this song and fell in love with it