Steady
Boy Epic Lyrics

Looking at my life through a lens
Reflecting on my life and my choices.

Thinkin about the shit I never did
Contemplating on missed opportunities.

But I woke up next to something beautiful
Finding happiness in a person or thing.

And now I′m sitting here
Currently in a state of reflection.

Asking why I'm so fucking miserable
Questioning my own emotional state.

You see
Introducing a revealing statement.

Fucking anxiety
A condition that affects me.

Gets the best of me
Overpowers me.

I just signed a deal
Recently made a business agreement.

But I still can′t breathe
Feeling suffocated by my own thoughts and feelings.

Fucking stupid lies that I tell myself
Deceiving myself with untrue thoughts and beliefs.

I'm choking
Feeling overwhelmed and stifled.

Smiling on the outside
Presenting a façade of happiness to others.

When inside I need
In need of emotional support.

Help
Assistance from someone else.

I'm sorry
Expressing remorse or regret.

I′m sorry that I
Apologizing for my own shortcomings.

Have to tell you
Feeling obligated to reveal the truth to someone.

That I′m not fine
Admitting to my emotional struggles.

Need a
Requiring something.

Second
A brief period of time.

To catch
To stop and recuperate.

My breathe
To regain control of my respiration.

And Lift
To raise my spirits.

My arms
To feel support and comfort.

We'll be
Everything will be okay or under control.

Alright
Fine or satisfactory.

Now that you know me
After getting to know each other personally.

Lost my father in the middle of a summer
Experiencing the death of a parent at a young age.

But I found my brother and we felt that shit together
Banding together with my sibling to cope with our loss.

That's the glue
The bond or connection that holds me together.

That I need to keep myself together
The support and stability required to maintain emotional health.

Now I′m thinking about old friends
Recollecting memories of past acquaintances.

Wish I still knew them
Feeling nostalgia for relationships that have faded away.

Don't check up
Not keeping in contact with someone.

I hope you're fine
Expressing well wishes to someone that I haven't spoken to in a while.

Summer
The season in which I have fond memories of youth and freedom.

Nights we
Evenings spent with friends that hold sentimental value.

Got drunk
Consuming alcohol to escape reality.

And high
Using drugs as a form of recreation or coping mechanism.

Singin
Engaging in music as a form of expression and bonding.

Fuck love
Disillusionment with romantic relationships.

Yeah I lost that deal
Failing to secure a lucrative opportunity.

Fucking made me ill
The stress and disappointment of losing something important affecting my health.

They say watch out for the holy
Advice to be wary of those who appear to be righteous or virtuous.

Tell me that ain′t real
Expressing skepticism or disbelief in religious or spiritual concepts.

But I fucking hate this act
Disdain for fakeness or pretension.

That's why I move slow
Taking my time and being cautious about people and situations.

Maybe from the knife in my back
Feeling betrayed or hurt by someone I trusted.

From a friend, don′t ask
Betrayal or hurt inflicted by someone who was supposed to be a friend.

I should be in love
Ideally, I should be experiencing romantic affection and happiness.

When I think about it all
Taking time to contemplate on my life and decisions.

I don't really think about the shit that I have lost
Avoiding thoughts of past failures or losses.

When I do I wanna scream
Feeling enraged or upset at myself for past mistakes.

And take these pills and end it
Contemplating or considering suicide as a way out.

But instead I stare at my reflection
Choosing to engage in introspection instead of self-harm.

Tell myself I fucking love it all
Finding gratitude or positivity in my life despite its challenges.

I need you
Requiring emotional support from someone else.