Breakeven
Boyce Avenue (Schräglage Remix) Lyrics

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
I am physically alive, but emotionally, I feel like I am suffocating.

Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
I'm desperate and grasping at anything to help me through this pain.

'Coz I got time while she got freedom
I have free time, but she's moved on and has the freedom to do whatever she wants without me.

'Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even
When a heart breaks, it's not a fair or equal split. One person is left to suffer more than the other.

Her best days will be some of my worst
She's moving on and having great days, while I'm stuck in misery.

She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
She's found someone who will prioritize her needs over everything else.

While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
I am struggling to sleep while she is effortlessly able to rest.

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you?
My happiness and fulfillment revolved around you, so what am I supposed to do now that you're gone?

What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok?
I can't even speak when I think about how much I'm hurting, but you seem to be doing just fine without me.

I'm falling to pieces yeah
I am completely breaking down and losing myself.

They say bad things happen for a reason
People try to make sense of tragedy and pain by finding a silver lining or explanation for why it happened.

But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Despite people's efforts to offer comfort or advice, nothing can stop the intense emotional pain I am feeling.

'Coz she moved on while I'm still grieving
She's moved on with her life while I am still stuck in the grief and heartbreak.

'Coz you left me with no love, and no love to my name
I am now devoid of love, both in terms of not receiving it from her and not feeling it for myself.

Oh, you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You're able to move on and be happy with someone else, while I'm left with a broken heart.

You took your suitcase, I took the blame
You left, and I was left to blame myself and try to understand why you left.

Now I'm trying to make sense of what little remains, oh
I'm trying to find meaning and purpose in my life now that you're gone.

Oh it don't break even, no
I'm realizing how unfair it is that heartbreak is so imbalanced and one person must suffer more than the other.