lush2
Boylife Lyrics

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but maybe just tonight i been drinking too much
maybe just tonight i been drinking too much

hurry grow up
too slow, too slow
you gon be alright
i know, i know
couldn't see past my hell right now

really don't like myself right now
i been off my meds
i really wanna try
thinking on my parents makes me cry
i ain't been to church in two or three years but
right hand up like god if you hear me now

but maybe just tonight i been drinking too much
maybe just tonight i been drinking too much

think i might hurt myself, myself
no i would never hurt myself, myself
think i might off myself, myself
why should i stop myself, myself
think i might hurt myself, myself
i love my mom and dad, i could never think of that
think i might off myself, myself
heaven

why should i stop myself
drinking too much

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Boylife's song "lush2" depict a moment of emotional vulnerability and inner struggle. The repeated lines "maybe just tonight I've been drinking too much" suggest that the singer is using alcohol as a coping mechanism, possibly to numb pain or escape their current reality. The urgency to "hurry grow up" paired with the feeling of being "too slow" suggests a pressure to mature and overcome personal challenges. The reassurance that "you gon be alright, I know" implies a sense of self-assurance despite the difficult emotions.

The lyrics also touch upon the singer's internal turmoil. They mention being unable to see beyond their personal hell, expressing dislike for themselves in the present moment. The line "I've been off my meds, I really wanna try" hints at a struggle with mental health and the desire to explore alternate paths or find a sense of stability. The mention of crying when thinking about parents suggests unresolved emotions or a longing for connection. The reference to God with the line "right hand up like God if you hear me now" expresses a plea for guidance and support in a time of distress.

Line by Line Meaning

but maybe just tonight i been drinking too much
However, tonight I find myself consuming excessive amounts of alcohol.

hurry grow up
Time is passing by quickly, urging me to mature and take responsibility.

too slow, too slow
But I feel like I am progressing at a sluggish pace.

you gon be alright
Rest assured, things will eventually turn out fine for you.

i know, i know
I am confident in this belief.

couldn't see past my hell right now
Presently, I am unable to envision anything beyond my personal anguish.

really don't like myself right now
At this moment, I have a strong dislike for who I am.

i been off my meds
I have discontinued taking my prescribed medications.

i really wanna try
I possess a genuine desire to make an effort.

thinking on my parents makes me cry
Contemplating about my parents leads me to tears.

i ain't been to church in two or three years but
Although it has been a considerable period of time since I last attended church,

right hand up like god if you hear me now
I raise my right hand as a symbol of reaching out to God, hoping for a response.

think i might hurt myself, myself
I am experiencing thoughts of potential self-inflicted harm.

no i would never hurt myself, myself
However, I assure you that I would never act upon those thoughts.

think i might off myself, myself
I am contemplating the idea of ending my own life.

why should i stop myself, myself
What reason do I have to prevent myself from doing so?

i love my mom and dad, i could never think of that
Despite everything, I possess deep love for my parents and could never envision causing them such pain.

think i might off myself, myself
Once again, I find myself considering the possibility of suicide.

heaven
Yearning for a place of eternal peace and happiness.

why should i stop myself
Questioning the rationale behind restraining myself.

drinking too much
Engaging in excessive alcohol consumption.

Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Nick Velez, Ryan Yoo

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