Suicide
C.H.A.N.G.E.S. Records Lyrics
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'Cause I'm a piece of shit
It ain't hard to fuckin' tell
It don't make sense
Goin' to heaven with the goodie-goodies
Dressed in white
I like black Timbs and black hoodies
Some real strict shit no sleepin' all day
No gettin' my dick licked
Hangin' with the goodie-goodies
Loungin' in paradise fuck that shit
I wanna tote guns and shoot dice
All my life I been considered as the worst
Lyin' to my mother
Even stealin' out her purse
Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion
I know my mother wish she
Got a fuckin' abortion
She don't even love me like she
Did when I was younger
Suckin' on her chest just to
Stop my fuckin' hunger i wonder: if I died
Would tears come to her eyes?
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my lies
My baby mother's eight months
Her little sister's two
Who's to blame for both of them?
I swear to God I want to just
Slit my wrists and end this bullshit
Throw the Magnum to my head
Threaten to pull shit
And squeeze until the bed's completely red
I'm glad I'm dead
A worthless fuckin' buddha head
The stress is buildin' up
I can't I can't believe
Suicide's on my fuckin' mind, I wanna leave
I swear to God I feel like
Death is fuckin' callin' me
But nah, you wouldn't understand
You see it's kinda like the crack
Did to Pookie in New Jack
Except when I cross over
There ain't no comin' back
Should I die on the train track
Like Ramo in Beat Street
People at the funeral frontin'
Like they miss me
My baby mama kiss me, but she glad I'm gone
She know me and her sister
Had somethin' goin' on
I reach my peak, I can't speak
Call my nigga Chic
Tell him that my will is weak
I'm sick of niggas lyin'
I'm sick of bitches hawkin'
Matter of fact, I'm sick of talkin
The lyrics to C.H.A.N.G.E.S. Records's song Suicide is a heavy exploration of the complex emotional state of a person who is struggling with mental illness and thoughts of ending their life. The opening lines set the tone, describing the singer's feeling of being trapped "slave to the organization of thoughts". They acknowledge their attempt to fight this feeling but feeling helpless in the "undertow", eventually leading to a feeling of being "condemned to a lost soul". The lyrics go on to describe the isolating nature of mental illness, with the singer feeling alone and grieving.
The lyrics are raw and evoke a true sense of despair, with the singer saying they deserve to die and expressing a sense of hopelessness. The use of metaphors throughout the song adds depth to the lyrics, with the "hole" in the singer's soul feeling particularly poignant. The repetition of the word "sleepless" throughout the song adds to the sense of restlessness and unease that the singer feels.
Overall, the lyrics to Suicide are a haunting exploration of mental illness, particularly the complex emotions associated with suicidal ideation. The lyrics are evocative and demonstrate the power of music to express emotions that are difficult to put into words.
Line by Line Meaning
Slave to the organization of thoughts
I feel trapped by my own mind and the way I think about things.
With wrought I say I fought
I tried to resist and overcome my negative thoughts and emotions.
But caught in the undertow
Despite my efforts, I still feel overwhelmed by my negative thoughts and emotions.
Never relinquish control
I feel like I can't let go of my negative thoughts and emotions or I will lose control of myself completely.
Condemned to a lost soul
I feel like I am doomed to be lost and disconnected from myself.
Left with a hole all alone so forlorn
I feel empty and alone, and it makes me sad and hopeless.
I mourn
I am grieving for the things I have lost and the pain I feel.
Apologetic for the hectic rambling but my brains scrambling
I'm sorry for talking incoherently, but my mind is racing and I can't control it.
Cease handling
I can't handle this anymore.
Not a fan of me, who you?
I don't like myself, why should anyone else?
No I he who resides inside but I never cry
I am the one who lives inside my own head, but I don't show my emotions to others.
Thats he whos grazing the edge longing to never think freely again
I am on the brink of losing control and want to shut down my mind completely.
Is this a sin?
I wonder if it's wrong or bad to feel this way.
End it all final grasp
I want to end everything and take control of my own life.
I’ve meet my haps but that was all in the past
I have gone through many struggles, but I feel like I can't go on anymore.
Young never thought life would end this fast
I didn't realize how quickly life can change and how fragile it can be.
But never thought bout that in mass with the masses
I never considered my own mortality because I was too focused on fitting in with others.
But now im facetious
Now I act insincere and flippant because I don't know how to deal with my emotions.
Call me a genius
I may seem smart and capable on the outside, but I feel empty and worthless inside.
But im hollow and grievous
I feel empty and sad all the time, even though I may seem successful or happy to others.
Needless to say arrays of illness and diseases left me speechless
I have gone through many health problems that have made me feel helpless and overwhelmed.
It’s this deepness bleakness that is my weakness
My profound sadness and hopelessness is what makes me feel weak and powerless.
That’s why I’m sleepless
My emotions keep me up at night and I can't rest or find peace.
Just leave me be in this constant nightmare that would scare
I want to be left alone in my own personal hell because I know it would frighten others.
If I dared to care
If I allowed myself to care about others or the world around me, it would only make me feel more sad and hopeless.
But my fate is fair for I am a man
I believe that my struggles are fair and deserved because I am a flawed human being.
That deserves to die
I feel like I am so flawed and worthless that I should not even exist.
With no one by my side
I feel completely alone and unsupported in my struggles.
Except isolated souls captured within
The only people who can understand me are those who are also struggling with their own problems.
Some twins that happened to break in
These people are like me, and we have found each other by chance or fate.
Can’t feel alone in my skin until everything ceases within
I can't find peace or comfort in my own body and mind until I am completely gone and everything has ended.
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@TheHyenaKill
awesome song, awesome video. quite frankly, awesome, cant wait to play with you guys next week
@shawnimhoff8062
Great song
@VoodooSoulMusic
Awesome!
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Niice guitar solo
@Fledermaus1212
TOP!!! :-)))
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@daiselol
this is decent
@daturarhythm
dont like the song itself much, but the video is goood, and your old school style and a T-shirt makes me remember the days when i was a huge GNR fan, thumb up !