Novocaine
CAELAN Lyrics

You know what's wrong with you, Miss, whoever you are
I can see the flaws within you, unknown woman

You're chicken, you've got no guts
You lack courage and determination

You're afraid to stick out your chin and say 'Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love. People do belong to each other'
You fear expressing acceptance of the truth that love exists and people are meant to be together

Because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness
Because that's the only opportunity for genuine happiness

You call yourself a free spirit, a wild thing
You label yourself as a person who is independent and untamed

And you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage
And you're scared someone will confine you

Baby, you're already in that cage, you built it yourself
Darling, you're already trapped in that enclosure, and you constructed it on your own

And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas
And it's not confined in the western region of Tulip, Texas

Or in the east by Somaliland, it's wherever you go
Or located in the eastern part of Somaliland, it exists wherever you travel

Because no matter where you run, you'll just end up running into yourself
Because regardless of where you escape to, you'll only encounter your own self

I remember nights, every summer at your house
I recall the evenings spent together, every summer at your residence

It was you and me together, was the only time I felt, yeah
Those were the moments when I truly felt alive, just you and me

Now, you're on your own spending time with someone else, yeah
Now, you're alone, investing time with another person

I can't even trip 'cause I did this to myself, yeah
I cannot even blame anyone else because I am the one who caused this situation

You say stupid shit like you wish you never met me
You utter foolish words, claiming that you regret ever meeting me

Gassed up by your friends, they hold everything against me
Influenced by your friends' opinions, they have negative judgments about me

I just need some time, peace of mind, feeling empty
I simply require some time alone, tranquility, feeling emotionally drained

All she ever wanted was a little more attention
Her sole desire was to receive slightly more attention

And was it too much? Probably not
And was it an excessive request? Most likely not

But where I'm at is all I get
However, the current circumstances are all I receive

Now I'm in my bedroom, door locked
Now I'm situated in my bedroom, with the door secured

And I'm doing all I can not to cry
And I'm exerting my utmost effort to abstain from shedding tears

How am I supposed to let you go?
How am I expected to release you?

Someone please let me know
Could someone kindly inform me?

'Cause she was my novocaine
Because she served as the numbing agent in my life

I need you to numb this pain
I require you to alleviate this suffering

I just want this to work even though I know it's hell
I simply desire this relationship to succeed despite being a tormenting experience

But to say I'm not a burden, you'd be lying to yourself, yeah
However, proclaiming that I'm not a weight on your shoulders would be a falsehood, yes

Sick of all the distance and I can't tell
Fed up with the emotional gap between us, and I can't determine

Thinking things will change, but it never will
Believing that circumstances will improve, but they never do

It's too late, I tried, same games, no prize
It's too late, I attempted, engaging in repetitive patterns but gaining no reward

I'm all alone, I want you home
I'm completely isolated, longing for your presence

All I wanted was someone to call my own
All I desired was someone to claim as my own

Baby, come numb up this pain
Darling, come and ease this agony

I think I'm going insane
I believe I'm losing my sanity

Killing me up, beating me down
Causing immense harm to my well-being, relentlessly damaging me

Making me doubt
Inducing doubt within me

I don't know no more (I don't want it anymore)
I am uncertain anymore (I no longer desire it)

How am I supposed to let you go? (Let you go)
How am I expected to release you? (Release you)

Someone please let me know (let me know)
Could someone kindly inform me? (Inform me)

'Cause she was my novocaine (novocaine, novocaine)
Because she served as the numbing agent in my life (numbing agent, numbing agent)

I need you to numb this pain (numb this pain, numb this pain)
I require you to alleviate this suffering (alleviate this suffering, alleviate this suffering)

How am I supposed to let you go? (Let you go)
How am I expected to release you? (Release you)

Someone please let me know (let me know)
Could someone kindly inform me? (Inform me)

'Cause she was my novocaine (ooh)
Because she served as the numbing agent in my life (ooh)

I need you to numb this pain (I need you to numb this pain)
I require you to alleviate this suffering (I require you to alleviate this suffering)