Hold the Light
Caedmon's Call Lyrics

It's been a long year
The time has passed slowly, enduring events of sadness or difficulty that makes it feel like an extended period.

Like a sleepless night
It's like a night with no rest or sleep, being unable to find peace and tranquility.

Jacob wrestled the angel
It's a reference to Jacob, who wrestled with an angel at night, symbolizing the struggles and fights that one faces, especially during the darkest periods of life.

But I'm too tired to fight
Despite the struggles, there comes a point when one becomes exhausted and too weak to continue fighting.

Every Wednesday
Refers to a routine weekly meeting on Wednesdays.

For two years we've met
For an extended period of time, two years to be precise, the meeting was a regular occurrence.

I've showed you all my anger,
In these meetings, the singer has displayed all of their frustration and displeasure.

My doubts and bitterness
Additionally, they have expressed doubts and resentment towards something.

There was no judgment in your eyes
The listener was understanding and not harshly scrutinizing, deliberately or not for whatever was being spoken of.

Just the silent peace of God
The listener brought a sense of tranquility and understanding, reminding the artist of a godly sense of patience and acceptance.

That felt so real in you
The sensation of the listener being patient and non-judgmental felt genuinely authentic for the singer.

Will you hold the light for me?
The artist is asking the listener to sustain this patient and empathic position so the artist can be open and honest about their struggles and feelings.

And I stay up late
Due to anxiety or fear, the singer cannot sleep and must wait until it passes.

Because I cannot sleep
The singer is in a state of restlessness, unable to find calming rest or shut off from their anxious thoughts.

I don't want to face the quiet
They avoid the presence of total silence, which would leave room for their thoughts to take over and remain overwhelming.

Where its just God and me
The artist seems to fear the thought of being in isolation where there is no company, but only God to talk to.

I'm waiting for the gavel
The artist plans to accept whatever judgment they will receive, as if from a judge's gavel sound in a courtroom.

Handing me the sentence down
They fear being judged and condemned by others or God, possibly due to a lack of faith or self-forgiveness.

Because I don't believe forgiveness
It seems the singer is skeptical and unable to believe in the power of forgiveness from their wrongdoings.

Or even repentance now
The artist has given up on the idea of seeking remorse or taking action for their sins or errors.

I want to feel redemption
The artist wants to feel the act of being saved, redeemed or forgiven from their misdeeds.

Flowing through my veins
The sensation of the redemption or forgiveness will feel overpowering, like it permeates within them or is a part of them.

I want to see with clear eyes
The singer desires to see with clarity past the veils of confusion or emotions that cloud their perception of life.

Beyond lust and hate
The artist wants to see the world beyond the pull of fierce emotions, like desire or hate, to understand things with a clear and logical mind.

I want the war to be over
The singer wants an end to the constant struggles and conflicts they face, and wishes for resolution enabling them to move on.

And know the good guys won
The singer seeks a clear moral conclusion where the virtuous are victorious and the vices are defeated.

And I want love to hold me
The singer wants to experience the comforting feeling of being enveloped with love, affection and tenderness.

To know I'm not alone
The artist wants to assure themselves and affirm that they are not solitary or abandoned in the world, that there is always someone or something that will be with them.

Standing around a willow weeping
A scene of an event where people were gathering around a tree, being wet with tears.

We were praying in the backyard
People were congregating outside a building or house doing prayer.

In the chill of the night
It's night time when it might be cold outside.

The friendship light reminded me who we are
A feeling of warmth brought from the light of true friendships between these praying people, reminding the artist of who they are in relation to others.