I Rape Myself
Caliban Lyrics


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Now I`m standing here alone at the end of the road
screaming into the emptiness.
Why did we start this way together,
(although) it was clear to me I would end up all alone
(completely) broken and misused by love !?

Ref:
I rape myself and I don't know why,
this whole thing makes no sence, no sence at all!

Have you ever understood me,
Have you ever felt the same,
Have you ever looked in my eyes,
Burry my starving heart…

Ref:
I rape myself and I don't know why,
this whole thing makes no sence, no sence at all!

My heart was a present
But you didn`t understand
You weren`t ready to go until the end together (beside me)
That is why I`m standing here all alone
screaming into the emptiness…

Ref:
I rape myself and I don't know why,
this whole thing makes no sence, no sence at all!

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Caliban's "I Rape Myself" convey deep emotions of heartbreak and betrayal. The song starts with the singer standing alone at the end of the road, screaming into the emptiness, questioning why they started their journey together when it was clear that they would end up alone, broken, and misused by love. The use of rhetorical questions in these lyrics highlights the singer's confusion and desperation in trying to make sense of what went wrong in their relationship.


The chorus, "I rape myself and I don't know why, this whole thing makes no sense, no sense at all" indicates the self-destructive behavior the singer is engaging in. The use of the word "rape" is metaphorical here, representing the deep emotional pain the singer is inflicting upon themselves due to their failed relationship. The lines "Have you ever understood me, felt the same, looked in my eyes, burry my starving heart" further reveal the singer's unmet needs for love and connection.


In the final verse, the singer reflects on their past relationship, where they believed they had given their heart as a present to their partner, but they weren't able to reciprocate the same level of commitment. The singer is left alone, screaming into the emptiness, as they struggle to understand why things didn't work out.


Overall, "I Rape Myself" is a powerful and introspective song that captures the raw emotions of heartbreak and self-blame.


Line by Line Meaning

Now I`m standing here alone at the end of the road screaming into the emptiness.
Caliban is alone and lost, with no clear direction in sight, and is expressing his despair through loud and aimless screams.


Why did we start this way together, (although) it was clear to me I would end up all alone (completely) broken and misused by love !?
Caliban questions why he even started this relationship with someone who he knew would hurt and abandon him, leaving him feeling shattered and used.


I rape myself and I don't know why, this whole thing makes no sence, no sence at all!
Caliban is engaging in self-destructive behavior that he does not understand, and feels that the entire situation is meaningless and senseless.


Have you ever understood me, Have you ever felt the same, Have you ever looked in my eyes, Burry my starving heart…
Caliban wonders if his partner truly understands and empathizes with his feelings and pain, and wants them to see the depth of his emotional suffering.


My heart was a present But you didn't understand You weren't ready to go until the end together (beside me) That is why I'm standing here all alone screaming into the emptiness…
Caliban gave his heart to his partner as a gift, but feels that they did not cherish or appreciate it. He believes that they were not prepared to commit to a lasting relationship, which has left him alone and empty inside.




Lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: ANDREAS DOERNER, DENIS SCHMIDT, MARC GOERTZ

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@melchristelle305

the very first metal song ive heard and became a fan of metal genre since then

@heartstone44

Same!

@LiterarischeAktion

@@heartstone44 same :D

@gitardjija

ihis is not metall--@@LiterarischeAktion

@KampucheanDemon

@@gitardjija "metal"core. still sounds good unlike numetal.

@Halim-yg4gf

real metalcore

@getscared_x3

True.. This djenty sound is absolutely garbage 😅

@KTASpawn

15 years ago now... good old times

@paullnjhc

i'm here trying to find a specific track and this isn't it. This is raping my childhood, though

@TheBFC01

Holy Schmoly i haven't heard
this in SOO long!!! Ahh memories

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