Purpose
Calvin Black Lyrics

Pacing, trying to stay in my station
Struggling to maintain my position in life

Hope and bright opportunities new to me got me elated
Excited about new possibilities and hope in my life

Write my self doubt a eulogy grabbing clay just to shape it
Confronting and overcoming my self-doubt to create a new version of myself

Till I feel more in tune to the man I think I'm creating
Working on becoming a person that aligns with my vision

It's alright if your view of me looks a little bit shaded
Accepting that others may not fully understand or appreciate me

I've dealt with it for ages, ain't no choice but to claim it
Acknowledging and owning my struggles and experiences

All my loves keep on losing me to the pit of my anguish
My pain causes me to push away those who care about me

I thought they'd have no use of me I'm removed from my angels
Believing that my loved ones would be better off without me

Still it's true, I make it do what it do indubitably
Despite challenges, I find a way to keep going

Doing too much, it's only one but need fewer of me
Feeling overwhelmed and needing to simplify my life

The music is rough
Life is difficult and challenging

Wait till I fuse with all my muses till its use is shown beautifully
Seeking inspiration and creativity to express myself artistically

I only seem to be around when people have uses for me
Feeling used and unappreciated in relationships

I wonder if my focus on the 'I' might reduce what I think
Questioning if my self-centeredness limits my perspective

Isolate emotions that I'm failing to use when I think
Neglecting to address and process my emotions

Pains coming through the nerve of you I removed everything
Feeling the emotional pain caused by isolating myself

Couldn't self soothe hand me the juice I'll abuse everything
Turning to unhealthy coping mechanisms to numb the pain

Finally coming to and terrified I might lose everything
Facing my fears of losing what I have left

Tired, refusing to sleep
Exhausted but unable to rest

This beast this dog big bad wolf reduced to a sheep
Feeling weak and vulnerable despite appearing strong

Following steps all of humanity's doomed to repeat
Recognizing the cycle of human mistakes and failures

Winning my game but feel like I'm losing again
Despite success, feeling unfulfilled and defeated

Why am I looping again
Repeating the same patterns and mistakes

Seeing the same flaw in my action then do it again
Being aware of my shortcomings but unable to change

Nothing like gaining hope for the future then losing your friends
Finding hope only to lose valuable relationships

Singing the same songs and psalms I'm due to repent
Repeating the same regrets and seeking forgiveness

Aren't I the cause of my calamity loose in the wind
Realizing my own actions contribute to my misfortunes

Some strange tragedy manifest from my hubris and all the focus I choose not to spend
Experiencing unforeseen consequences due to arrogance and neglect

Instead squandered wish I was laundered renewed once again
Regretting wasted opportunities and desiring a fresh start

These wounds are temporary all just a bruise to the skin
Reminding myself that pain is temporary and will heal

All just a cut to the epidermis
Realizing that emotional wounds are surface-level and will mend

I'm hurt for sure and these crowds make me nervous let's cover up I'm reclusive again
Feeling vulnerable and anxious around others, seeking solace in isolation

Hard to find worth in yourself when you feeling useless again
Struggling to see value in oneself when feeling inadequate

They told me I'm somebody I ask where's the proof of it then
Doubting compliments and struggling to see my own worth

Thought my path was clear and then it took some unusual bends
Believing in a clear direction only to face unexpected challenges

Running past the tears I shed remembering Jo Jo and them
Moving forward despite past pain and loss

Life was speeding fast now I just feel like it's slow-mo again
Life used to be hectic, now it feels stagnant and slow

Gave me perspective to see my loved ones and hold on to them
Finding gratitude and appreciation for those who care about me

You'll never doubt how I felt about you as long as you live
Assuring loved ones of my true feelings for them

Recognizing life ain't really fair but still honor exists
Acknowledging life's challenges but choosing to act with integrity

Rhythm was off for me I feel like I'm back on it again
Regaining balance and stability in my life

I'm feeling stronger again
Gaining strength and resilience in the face of adversity

Playing wholeheartedly 'cause I finally wanted to win
Putting my all into my endeavors with a newfound determination

Feel my ambition helping me reach for what's perfect again
Rekindling my drive to strive for excellence

Promise I'll never stop till the day they won't hurt us again
Vowing to continue fighting until pain and suffering cease

Spirit so close to death in the depths let me surface again
Nearing emotional rock bottom, seeking a way to rise

Got to look further within
Needing to delve deeper into my own thoughts and emotions

I got a job to complete I'm seeing my purpose again
Realizing my mission and finding clarity in my path