Good Enough
Carlie Hanson Lyrics

Out of focus, out of focus
My mind feels scattered and unfocused, like I can't seem to get a clear picture of anything.

I don't call nobody notice, nobody know this
I feel like nobody pays attention to me or notices when I'm struggling.

I'm invisible (I'm invisible) even to myself (even to myself)
I feel like I don't even know who I am or what I'm capable of. I'm just going through the motions.

On my mattress, on my mattress
I spend a lot of time isolating myself and lying in bed, trying to drown out my thoughts and feelings.

My only friends are dust and ashes, blunts and matches
I resort to unhealthy coping mechanisms like smoking and ignoring my problems, because it feels like I have no one else to turn to.

It's a ritual (it's a ritual) but it don't help (but it don't help)
I know these habits aren't good for me, but I feel stuck in this cycle and don't know how to break it.

I push everyone away
I don't want to let anyone get close to me, because I'm afraid of getting hurt or rejected.

Before they can runaway
I reject people before they have the chance to reject me.

I'm not gonna let you see
I'm afraid to show people my true self because I'm ashamed of who I am or what I'm feeling.

Everything underneath
I feel like there's a lot of pain and darkness inside of me that I can't express or share with anyone.

I put up a thousand walls
I've built up so many emotional barriers that it's hard for anyone to break through and connect with me.

So I don't get hurt no more
I've been hurt so many times in the past that I don't want to risk putting myself in that vulnerable position again.

All you get is what you see
I'm not going to pretend or fake anything to make myself seem more appealing to others. What you see is what you get.

This ain't no apology
I'm not trying to justify my behavior or make excuses. I just want to be honest about where I'm at.

Don't you leave me alone
I need someone to be there for me, to show me that I'm not completely worthless and that my feelings matter.

Won't you carry me home
I need someone to help me through this difficult time, and to be a safe haven for me to land in when things feel too hard to handle on my own.

Voices in my head wish I could turn 'em off
I struggle with intrusive and negative thoughts that make it hard for me to see myself in a positive light or believe that things will ever get better.

With the lights off, with the lights off
It's easier for me to cope with my problems when I'm in the dark and can't see or think too much.

I'm invisible (I'm invisible) keep it to myself
I don't want to burden anyone else with my problems, so I keep them hidden and don't share them with others.

TV's on but I ain't watching
I distract myself with mindless activities to avoid facing my problems or emotions.

I just tryna to fill the silence while I lie here
I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin that I try to distract myself from my inner turmoil instead of confronting it head-on.

Please don't leave me alone
I'm terrified of being abandoned or left behind by the people I care about and who I hope care about me.

Leave me alone
I'm afraid of getting hurt by others, so I push them away and try to deal with things on my own, even if it's not really helping.