His brand of genuine song writing coupled with his compelling live show, never fails to leave an impression on an audience. He surrounds himself on stage with an array of instrumentation, from loop machines, sequencers, effect pedals, and drums to the acoustic guitar that sits at the heart of his songs. His sound is compared by listeners to such artists as The Cure, Joseph Arthur, and The Honorary Title. His story telling and dead pan humor continue to endear him to audiences of all demographics.
Cary was born and raised in the town of Thousand Oaks, California, the once rural town just north of Los Angeles. He now lives in the mountains just north of Jackson Hole, Wyoming where he spends his time off the road wandering through the alpine forests, snowboarding, and communing with nature.
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Fade to Grey
Cary Judd Lyrics
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I don't know where this is coming from
And I don't want to watch you bleed, dealing with the things I've seen
Help me find a way to overcome
It's a terrible thing to say, when you lie, saying everythings ok. Ok.
It's a terrible thing to say when you lie, saying everythings ok, we're not ok
Statistics always have a way of telling us we're not ok, that our chances here are slim to none
I will cross my broken heart, you saw me here right from the start, I'm gonna change this world or watch it burn
Cause I don't want to feel this way, I don't want to feel this way
The lyrics of Cary Judd's song Fade to Grey address the difficult emotions and experiences that come with anxiety and depression. The phrase "fade to grey" represents the loss of color and vibrancy that can occur when struggling with mental health issues. The singer acknowledges the feeling of being triggered and losing control of their emotions, and they don't understand why they are feeling this way. They also express the desire to not contribute to other people's pain or discomfort, but they struggle to deal with the trauma of what they have seen.
As the song continues, the singer reflects on the challenging nature of mental illness, and how difficult it is to pretend that everything is okay when it's not. The lyrics reveal the internal struggle of wanting to give everything they have but feeling like they can't, and the pain of constantly being told that they are not okay. However, the song ends on a hopeful note, with the singer expressing their intention to change the world or watch it burn - indicating a deep desire for positive change and a refusal to give up.
Line by Line Meaning
I don't want to feel this way, a trigger click and I fade to grey
I want to escape the pain and numbness that overwhelms me, and sends me into a state of sadness and emptiness.
I don't know where this is coming from
I'm unsure of what's causing my emotional turmoil and confusion.
And I don't want to watch you bleed, dealing with the things I've seen
I can't bear to see you suffer the way I have, and struggle to cope with the harsh realities of life.
Help me find a way to overcome
I need guidance and support to move beyond my pain and find a way to heal.
It's a terrible thing to say, when you lie, saying everythings ok. Ok.
It's hurtful to pretend that things are fine when they're not, and lying to oneself and others will only make things worse in the long run.
It's a miserable way to live, when you keep everything that you have to give, so give.
It's a sad and lonely existence when you hold back your true feelings and talents, but finding the courage to share them can lead to growth and connection.
It's a terrible thing to say when you lie, saying everythings ok, we're not ok
Denying our struggles and fears won't make them go away, and acknowledging them is the first step towards healing and growth.
Statistics always have a way of telling us we're not ok, that our chances here are slim to none
The odds may seem stacked against us, and we may feel like we're doomed to fail, but we have the power to defy expectations and create our own destiny.
I will cross my broken heart, you saw me here right from the start, I'm gonna change this world or watch it burn
Despite my pain and struggles, I'm determined to make a positive impact on the world, and won't give up until I've achieved my goals.
Cause I don't want to feel this way, I don't want to feel this way
I refuse to be defined by my pain and sadness, and will do whatever it takes to break free from its grip and find happiness and fulfillment.
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