Addicted
Cheryl Wheeler Lyrics

She says she hates to sleep alone but she'll do it tonight
Although she hates sleeping alone, she has no other option but to do so tonight.

She wants to grab her telephone but she knows it ain't right
She wants to call him but knows deep down that calling him is not the right thing to do.

So if he won't call she'll survive
She knows that if he doesn't call, she'll survive on her own without him.

And if he don't care she'll get by
She thinks that even if he doesn't care, she will still survive without him.

Climb into bed bury her head and cry, cry
She feels sad and lonely, but she hides her feelings and cries silently.

From the beginning he was all anyone could have been
At the start of their relationship, he was the perfect partner anyone could have wished for.

They were delirious with love, they were certain to win
They were madly in love and believed that they were a perfect match who would conquer everything together.

Now he's breaking plans more and more
Currently, he cancels their plans frequently.

And he's leaving notes on her door
He's now leaving her rather than staying with her while she sleeps.

'took a trip out of town, couldn't turn this one down'
He says that he had to go out of town and he couldn't resist going.

He said 'I guess I should have told you before'
He says that he probably should have told her before leaving.

She says she feels like she's addicted to a real bad thing
She is confessing that she is addicted to him although he is not good for her.

She's always sitting, waiting wondering if the phone will ring
She waits for him to call and is always anxious and nervous when waiting.

She knows she bounces like a yo-yo when he pulls her string
She is aware that her behavior is like a yo-yo, and she always goes back to him every time he calls her.

It hurts to feel like such a fool
She feels foolish and stupid for letting herself be addicted to him.

She wants to tell him not to call or come around again
She has thought about telling him not to contact or see her again.

He doesn't need her now at all the way that she needs him
She realizes that he does not require her in his life, while she cannot live without him.

She's on the edge about to fall from leaning out and in
She is teetering between staying with him and leaving him.

And she don't know which way to move
She is unsure which direction to take with him.

She wants to be fair, she couldn't say he was ever unkind
Although she wants to be fair, she cannot deny that he has never been unkind to her.

But if she could bear to walk away, she thinks he wouldn't mind
If she decides to leave him, she believes he would not be affected by her departure at all.

'cause he just keeps himself so apart
He is self-contained and never opens up to her.

And there's no one else in her heart
She only loves him, and there is no space for anyone else in her heart.

So she's taking a dive from an emotional high
She is taking a risk by falling for him emotionally knowing that he might take advantage of her.

And coming down hard
She is prepared for a harsh landing while falling for him.

She's determined to try, but she'll still give in when he gives her a call
She intends to stay strong, but she knows that she will cave in if he contacts her.

And She'll ask herself why, but in the end it won't matter at all
She'll ask herself why she goes back to him, but in the end, it won't matter to her feelings for him.

Sure she could sit at home, stay inside
She knows that she could stay at home and not go out to meet him.

And sleep alone with her pride
She could preserve her self-respect by sleeping alone at home.

And as she walks out her door, she feels as weak as before
She knows that despite walking away from him, she still feels just as vulnerable and weak as ever.

With nothing to hide
She has nothing to hide from him or anybody else.