Party
Christian & Kikaninchen & Jule Lyrics

I wish that I never met you
Meeting you was a mistake because it led to the pain of saying goodbye.

'Cause I wouldn't have to say goodbye
Had I not met you, I wouldn't have to deal with the difficult farewell.

The first time that I ever met you
Our initial meeting brought forth consequences that were too much to handle.

I should've stayed at home that night
It would have been better if I never went out that night and never crossed paths with you.

Three years of fighting the tension
I spent three years battling with my unresolved feelings for you.

To get your attention off my mind
I struggled to free myself from thinking about you constantly.

Sorry, got your invitation
I received your invitation, but I apologize for not responding.

Thought it would be best to not reply
I believed that not responding to your invitation was the best course of action.

'Cause when you told me New York stole your heart
I was heartbroken when you told me that New York captured your heart instead of me.

it broke mine
Hearing about your love for New York shattered my heart into pieces.

I ignored your text when you said you were leaving
I purposely ignored your message about leaving because I can't handle seeing you.

Cause I can't show up and reverse all this healing
I can't afford to undo all the healing I've experienced by showing up and seeing you leave.

So don't kiss me now, I'm just here to say sorry
I'm apologizing for not being able to be there for you but please don't try to kiss me now.

I love you enough not to come to your goodbye party
I care for you so much that I'll refrain from attending your farewell party.

My hands tracing your body
I remember the feeling of tracing your body with my hands.

My day old coffee, your night stand
I remember the simple moments we shared, like leaving my coffee on your nightstand.

Selfish, maybe it's selfish
It may come across as selfish, but I can't bear to see you go.

I'd cancel your flight, I'd change your plans
If I could, I would do whatever I can to make you stay and not leave.

Cause I know I need you more than New York ever will
I'm aware that I love and need you more than New York ever could.

Don't kiss me now, I'm just here to say sorry
I'm not ready for any intimacy, so I'm apologizing and saying goodbye.

Watching you leave, you know it ain't easy
Seeing you leave is tough for me, and you understand that.

It's not about me, but I want you to need me
I know it's not about me, but I still wish that you'd need me and stay.

Yeah watching you leave, you know it ain't easy
Yes, it's hard for me to watch you go, and you understand that.

It's not about me, but I want you to need me
Even though it's not about me, I still want you to want and need me in your life.