Their first independent release, entitled "Indoor Recess", was released in January of 2004, and was put out on ForaNatioN. The debut featured 10 tracks and was engineered, mixed, and co-produced at Slaughterhouse recording studios by Mark Alan Miller (Out Out, Metropolis Records.)
After an extremely positive reaction from the listening public, they made the crucial decision to form a solid live band and take the music on the road. CODS have now grown into a full lineup of excellent, devoted musicians who are all actively involved with the writing of the songs.
"Outdoor Recess" (the remix album for "Indoor Recess") was released in September of 2005, and features 15 tracks which were all remixed by members of CODS as well as other bands and artists that they have become friends with along the way.
"The Pop Culture Massacre and the End of the World" was released on April 17th, 2007. Since then, an animated music video for the song "Elmo's Last Laugh," a track off of the album, was illustrated by Travis Falligant, who did the artwork for "The Pop Culture Massacre."
CODS temporarily broke up on October 27, 2008, but later announced their reform on January 27, 2009, and are currently working on their upcoming album, "Operation Satan."
Losing Touch
Circus of Dead Squirrels Lyrics
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There's no medication that can save me now
There's no medication that can stop me now
Everyone get the fuck away from me before I fucking snap
I'm the clown shooting people in the face for a laugh
I want my mommy to make you all disappear
Like she said she fucking would
Filthy looks follow me because I'm tattooed and unshaven
I've lost touch with all you fucks
And everything in my life including myself
Chew your mouth until it swallows you
Fuck yourself until you reproduce
Smile swallow
Put on a happy face
Smile twitch put on a happy face motherfucker
In an alternate reality the world is full of harmony
Until the veins pop out of my head
The doctor keeps a safe distance in the room
Prescribing me something brand new
Yet never heard a fucking word that I said
Hear the screams of the lullaby
In the darkest chambers of the tortured mind
Where the saints and sinners show no divide
Where the human race lines up to die
Inside my mind everything dies
Say those words to me over and over again
Things get better but first more shit begins
I don't have the patience to play this fucking game anymore
I think I'd rather slit my throat
It always looks like a rose then starts to stink like a corpse
Then the feeling from a broken heart burning like a blowtorch
I've lost touch with my love
And everything in my life including myself
There's no medication that can stop me now
Maybe I should just kill myself
Spill my brain all over the floor.
The lyrics of Circus of Dead Squirrels' "Losing Touch" depict a person who feels lost and disconnected from the world around them. They feel that no medication or help can save them from their own despair. The singer describes themselves as a clown shooting people for a laugh and feeling like they've lost touch with everything in their life, including themselves. They use violent imagery and language to convey their pain and hopelessness, ultimately expressing a desire to end their life and spill their brains on the floor.
The lyrics address themes of mental illness and alienation, and reveal the singer's struggle to connect with others and find meaning in their life. The use of aggressive language and violent imagery convey the singer's intense emotions, while also highlighting the destructive nature of their thoughts and feelings. The recurring theme of medication suggests the singer has tried to seek help for their struggles, but feels that nothing can truly alleviate their pain.
Line by Line Meaning
There's no medication that can help me now
I am beyond the point of being able to be helped by medication.
There's no medication that can save me now
I cannot be saved by any medication.
There's no medication that can stop me now
Medication cannot stop me from my destructive behavior.
Everyone get the fuck away from me before I fucking snap
I am about to lose control, so everyone should stay away from me.
I'm the clown shooting people in the face for a laugh
I am causing harm to others for my own enjoyment.
I want my mommy to make you all disappear
I wish for someone to make all of my problems and those around me go away.
Like she said she fucking would
My mother promised to protect me, but she never did.
Filthy looks follow me because I'm tattooed and unshaven
People judge me based on my appearance.
But all you heathens look so pretty to me
I find those who are considered immoral or non-religious to be attractive.
I've lost touch with all you fucks
I no longer have any connection or empathy towards those around me.
And everything in my life including myself
I no longer feel connected or in control of my own life.
Chew your mouth until it swallows you
People should keep their opinions to themselves.
Fuck yourself until you reproduce
I am angry and expressing it in a vulgar and aggressive manner.
Smile swallow
I am feeling overwhelmed and forcing myself to remain calm and composed.
Put on a happy face
I am trying to portray a happy or content demeanor to hide my true emotions.
Smile twitch put on a happy face motherfucker
I am expressing that others should pretend to be happy even if they are not.
In an alternate reality the world is full of harmony
In a different reality or mindset, everything is peaceful and harmonious.
Until the veins pop out of my head
My thoughts and emotions become so overwhelming that it physically affects me.
The doctor keeps a safe distance in the room
Even medical professionals are scared or hesitant to approach me.
Prescribing me something brand new
Trying different medication to treat my condition or behavior.
Yet never heard a fucking word that I said
I feel unheard or misunderstood by others, including doctors or therapists.
Hear the screams of the lullaby
The pleasant or soothing sound of a lullaby becomes distorted or unpleasant to me.
In the darkest chambers of the tortured mind
When my thoughts become too overwhelming, it feels like I am in a dark and painful place.
Where the saints and sinners show no divide
In this state, good and bad or moral and immoral become indistinguishable.
Where the human race lines up to die
In this mindset, life seems pointless and everyone is just waiting for death.
Inside my mind everything dies
My thoughts and emotions become too much to handle and every positive or hopeful feeling fades away.
Say those words to me over and over again
I am fixated on a particular thought or idea, causing me distress.
Things get better but first more shit begins
In order to improve my situation, things may get worse before they get better.
I don't have the patience to play this fucking game anymore
I am tired of pretending or hiding my true self or emotions.
I think I'd rather slit my throat
I am considering taking drastic action in order to end my pain and suffering.
It always looks like a rose then starts to stink like a corpse
Things that initially seem good or promising can quickly turn sour or negative.
Then the feeling from a broken heart burning like a blowtorch
Emotional pain can be intense and overwhelming.
I've lost touch with my love
I am no longer connected or able to love or feel loved.
And everything in my life including myself
I feel disconnected or unattached to aspects of my life, including my own sense of self.
Maybe I should just kill myself
I am considering ending my life as a solution to my struggles.
Spill my brain all over the floor
This is a violent and graphic expression of my pain and suffering.
Contributed by Colton R. Suggest a correction in the comments below.