"This Is Your Sign" captures a pivotal moment for Citizen Soldier. The 24-song dual album is an emotional rollercoaster through the shared experiences of the group and its fans. It navigates wide spectrum of emotions, ranging from complete worthlessness to grateful celebration of one's darkest days. After this exploration into a brutally beautiful journey, the song of the same name ends the album as a direct statement to every listener; no matter your nationality, gender, age, sexual orientation or past mistakes - you have found the answers to the questions you have been left alone with far too long.
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Citizen Soldier will always be there for those wondering if they are worth saving. Too many suffer in silence, waiting for a miracle that never comes; so we did our best to create one. We hope "This Is Your Sign" makes you feel the way it made us feel while writing it - because all life is precious and worth fighting for.
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Buried Alive
Citizen Soldier Lyrics
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Shaking hands, cannot catch my breath
It's 3AM and I′m scared to death
My darkest side
Has come alive
Can't hide the hell I live in every day
What you can′t feel
Must not be real
I wear my heart here on my sleeve
But you can′t see, no-one sees
This is killing me
I can barely breathe
No-one knows what's inside of me (still I can′t)
Too late to fit in
Don't you dare pretend
You know what it′s like
To watch the world outside while you're buried alive
Six feet under, still no-one can hear
My cry for help falling on deaf ears
So desperate for
Your attention whore
Tell me why anyone would pretend
And choose a life they would want to end
And ever feel
This anxiety
Here on the surface everything seems fine
But here beneath my skin I′m running out of time
This is killing me
I can barely breathe
No-one knows what's inside of me (still I can't)
Too late to fit in
Don′t you dare pretend
You know what it′s like
To watch the world outside while you're buried alive
Faceless, I′ve been paralyzed
I won't be silent one more day
I′ve come too far to say I'm sorry
I will live to tell my story (I will live to tell my story)
This is killing me
I can barely breathe
No-one knows, no-one knows
Too late to fit in
Don′t you dare pretend
You know what it's like
To watch the world outside while you're buried alive
(Six feet under, still no-one can hear)
(My cry for help falling on deaf ears)
(So desperate for)
(Your attention whore)
(To watch the world outside while you′re buried alive)
This is killing me
I can barely breathe
No-one knows, no-one knows me
(To watch the world outside while you′re buried alive)
(To watch the world outside while you're buried alive)
The lyrics of Citizen Soldier's song Buried Alive describe the feeling of being trapped in a dark room or mental state, unable to escape or communicate with the world outside. The singer portrays his internal struggle with anxiety, depression and desperation, as he feels suffocated by his emotions and unable to reach out for help. His message is clear, that nobody can truly know what someone else is going through or feeling, no matter how much they may try to understand or empathize. The lines "too late to fit in, don't you dare pretend" signify his frustration with societal pressure to conform and hide one's true emotions or struggles, and the feeling of isolation that comes with it.
The chorus, "this is killing me, I can barely breathe, no-one knows what's inside of me" repeats throughout the song, emphasizing the intense pain and isolation that the singer is feeling. He is pleading to be heard and understood, to no avail, as he is trapped in his own mental prison. The lines "I wear my heart here on my sleeve, but you can't see, no-one sees" demonstrate the struggle of being open and vulnerable, but not receiving the validation or support he needs.
The final verse is the most empowering, as the singer vows to break free from his mental state, and live to tell his story. He claims that he will not succumb to his internal struggles and will not apologize for who he is. The lines "I won't be silent one more day, I've come too far to say I'm sorry" signify a turning point in his journey, and a determination to overcome his inner demons.
Overall, Citizen Soldier's song Buried Alive is a powerful message of struggle, isolation, and ultimately, empowerment. It portrays the intense emotions and pain that many people may experience, but may not feel able to communicate with the world outside.
Line by Line Meaning
Shaking hands, cannot catch my breath
I am nervous and having trouble breathing
It's 3AM and I′m scared to death
It is the middle of the night and I am very afraid
My darkest side
The worst part of myself
Has come alive
Has become dominant
Can't hide the hell I live in every day
I can not conceal the terrible things I experience every day
You say its just a phase, I'll be okay
You say it is temporary and that I will recover
What you can′t feel
What you do not experience
Must not be real
Can not be genuine
I wear my heart here on my sleeve
I am very open and honest with my emotions
But you can′t see, no-one sees
But nobody can understand
This is killing me
This is causing me great distress
I can barely breathe
I am struggling to catch my breath
No-one knows what's inside of me (still I can′t)
Nobody understands what I am going through (yet I can not express it)
Too late to fit in
It is now impossible to conform and be accepted
Don't you dare pretend
Do not act like you know what I am experiencing
You know what it′s like
You understand what it is like
To watch the world outside while you're buried alive
To see everyone else in the world while feeling trapped
Six feet under, still no-one can hear
Even though I am buried, nobody can hear me
My cry for help falling on deaf ears
My request for aid is being ignored
So desperate for
So very in need of
Your attention whore
Your need for attention
Tell me why anyone would pretend
Explain why someone would act like there is nothing wrong
And choose a life they would want to end
And select a life that they wish to finish
And ever feel
And experience
This anxiety
This worry and stress
Here on the surface everything seems fine
Outwardly, everything appears okay
But here beneath my skin I′m running out of time
Below the surface, my problems are becoming more urgent
Faceless, I′ve been paralyzed
I have no personal identity, and I am incapable of acting
I won't be silent one more day
I will no longer remain quiet
I′ve come too far to say I'm sorry
I have progressed too much to apologize
I will live to tell my story (I will live to tell my story)
I will survive and be able to share my experience
No-one knows, no-one knows me
Nobody knows me or what I am going through
(To watch the world outside while you're buried alive)
(Seeing the rest of the world while feeling trapped)
Writer(s): Tyler Nichols
Contributed by Isabelle N. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
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Janita
Your music saved me when I was at my lowest. I drank alot of pills with alcohol and was waiting for the effects, while I was waiting I discovered your music on youtube. I listened to it trying to stay awake... thanks it kept me awake while nobody was around me. Big fan of your music
Luka Akio
Me know I Ido come to could /m b y
Citizen Soldier
@ethan medina Sorry to hear that ethan. Hope all is well now. This life has so much to offer you.
ethan medina
I did suffer depression since I was like 6 years old I have been diagnosted with depression my parents were always fighting and my sisters were always the favorite ones within the whole family so I always felt alone....... This song juat literally describes what I felt in those moments of absolute loneliness my family just used to take me to the psychologist but tge psychologist job at that time was mean to teach them how to help me overcome my problems but they just though it was a "phase" with me being introverted, fat, and with not previous experience in anything to do with "friendships" you can imagine what hapened when I got to highschool
Furim Industries
@Citizen Soldier thank you, i dont suffer depression, but i thank you.
We look to learn from the Past.
So that we can better ourselves in the present.
To make a better future that may never exist for those yet to come.
Exist
CelticLion
Depression isn't all smiles and faking it. It's the 3 am mornings where you're tearing yourself apart. It's the silent tears inside because if you let the dams loose you will sob until you pass out. It's wanting to do something but not having the energy. Anxiety isn't all OCD and worry. It's the mornings waking up feeling even more tired because it does not cease during sleep. It's wondering if you did something wrong constantly. Fearing failure. Wanting to do something but fearing the failure and risk of something going wrong. PTSD isn't just flashbacks and horror. It's nightmares, its constant reminders of something that never was, its fear when something you know to be bad experiences comes along with a good experience. Its feeling affection where before affection came like a briar rose. Whether one or combined, end the stigma. It's not "oh it will get better over time just suck it up." or "its nothing its just in your head." end the stigma. Reach out. Always say "I love you" to those you care about. Because one day they may give in to their demons and end it. #RaiseAwareness #EndtheStigma #Depression #PTSDcomplex #Anxiety
Unknown NLN
Honestly only think that still has me here is the fear of the unknown of where I might go if I do pull that trigger.. the movie WristCutters has a place for suicides, it's exactly like here but just worse and no smiling or stars.. that really scares me I couldn't survive even worse forever.. then if you killed yourself again there where do you go? Someplace even worse???
Sienna Larson
Missi Nicoles I am going through the same thing 😔 It’s hell
Ian Widick
2 quotes that hep me stay alive with suicide , “once you do it, there is no turning back” and, “suicide doesn’t get rid of your pain, it just passes it to someone else” first one was from my best friend and the other I forgot where it was originally from