Are You Ready
Citizens! Lyrics

Sometimes I feel like I never knew you
Occasionally, I feel like I never truly knew you

Sometimes I feel you in my blood
Occasionally, I feel your essence in my veins

Sometimes I get home sick and weary
Sometimes I feel tired and homesick because I'm not sure where you are

‘Cause I don't know where you are
I feel this way because I don't know where you are

Sometimes I see the world as a diamond
Occasionally, I view the world as something precious like a diamond

Sometimes a bucket full of shit
Other times, I see it as something terrible like a bucket full of excrement

Sometimes I place us both above it
Occasionally, I put us above it all

Sometimes I feel we drown in it
But at other times, I feel we are drowning in it

And ever since you left the earthly life
Since your passing, I've been searching for signs of your presence

I keep my eyes open for signs
I remain vigilant for any indication that you're near

to see if you ended up in a good place
I want to know if you're in a good afterlife

I keep your picture on the piano
Your photograph is still prominently displayed in my home

My dreams are always open for you, so come on over!
I'm always open to dreams of you appearing to me, so I can see you again

Seconds come, and seconds leave
Time keeps moving forward, second by second

Turning into minutes, days and weeks
Those seconds accumulate into minutes, days, and weeks

The summernight embraces me
The warm summer night envelops me

I'm still standing, I'm still right here
Yet, despite the passage of time, I'm still here

You know your brother talked about you
Your brother mentioned you to me

He said he knew you wanted this
He indicated that he understood what you wanted

I only met him once or twice
I've only had brief encounters with him

He seemed nice, but somewhat distorted
He gave off a friendly vibe, but seemed somewhat off-kilter

And your husband sings about you
Your spouse writes songs about you

In alcoholic melodies
But they are often infused with a boozy melancholy

He comes around here now and then
He makes occasional visits here

But I've slipped away from him
I try to avoid him when possible

There's not much to spin the world around
Since you're gone, there's not much to motivate me

I looked and I found nothing's what it seems
I've searched for meaning, but everything appears to be deceptive

It seems they're building Babylon towers
It seems like we are constructing meaningless towers like the ones in Babylon

Any direction that I turn
No matter where I look

I look and I see the world it scares me
I can't help but be frightened by the state of the world

Was it like this for you? (I'll keep the secret a secret)
Did you experience these same feelings? (I'll never reveal what you shared in confidence)

Did you scream until your face turned blue? (Nothing will reach you)
Did you ever feel so hopeless and alone? (And did it seem like nothing could help you?)

After all you think you got away with it
Despite everything, do you feel like you won in the end?

Second by second, minute by minute
Time continues to tick away

Your'e fading, your'e fading, your'e fading
You are slowly disappearing from my thoughts

and it's such a shame
I regret the fact that you're gone

And ever since you cut the world in two
Ever since you passed away, the world seems divided

One half with, and one without you
It's as if there are two distinct worlds now, one with you and one without

Without you I don't know what to do
I feel lost without you here with me

But I hang on, hang on, hang on
But I continue to hold on, even when it seems impossible