Disappear
City-X Lyrics

To the deep end, to the heart line
Taking the plunge into deep emotions and staying connected to one's feelings.

Hold it straight together, man
Maintain composure and keep oneself composed, despite challenges.

Hold it straight together, if you can
Encouraging resilience and determination in facing difficulties head-on.

Little fevers wrapped in medication
Temporary relief from emotional pain through the use of medication.

All strung out on novelty
Being overwhelmed by the excitement or newness of a situation or experience.

Collapse yourself and try to comprehend
Becoming introspective and trying to understand oneself better by breaking down and examining personal experiences.

An angry island, a bitter bee sting
Feeling isolated and hurt, similar to the pain caused by a bee sting.

Severing and shattering
Breaking apart and fragmenting, both physically and emotionally.

Free the self and fix the in between
Liberating oneself from internal conflicts and striving to find balance and resolution.

It's isolation, mark the earth around you
The feeling of loneliness and detachment, leaving a noticeable impact on one's surroundings.

Guess who's on the waiting list
Hinting at the singer's knowledge of someone who is longing for something or feeling left out.

I'll let you in on something secret
Preparing the listener for a hidden truth or revelation.

I can disappear
Having the ability to detach oneself from a situation or fade into the background.

Anytime I want to, time I feel you
Exercising control over one's presence and connections based on personal feelings and desires.

Shuffle through my skin
Exploring one's own identity and emotions on a deep level.

I am with you til the end
Promising loyalty and support, remaining connected to someone despite challenges.

First you breathe out
Releasing pent-up emotions or tension.

Then you have to breathe in
Taking in new experiences and opportunities for growth after letting go of the past.

Lash yourself repeatedly
Punishing oneself emotionally, perhaps through self-criticism or feelings of guilt.

Until it sticks, until it sticks
Persistently striving for personal growth and improvement until the efforts become ingrained and successful.

Under the eyelids, carry on cadaver
Continuing to function or go through the motions of life while feeling emotionally dead inside.

Festering interiors
Internal emotional turmoil and unresolved conflicts that continue to worsen over time.

All hollow breach and vapor silhouette
Feeling empty and lacking substance, appearing as a vague and insubstantial presence.

Need medication, more medication
Seeking further relief from emotional pain through an intensified use of medication.

Coursing through your interstates
The medication flowing through one's veins, affecting the emotional state deeply.

All mad and great, confused and counterfeit
Feeling both overwhelmed and powerful, but also lacking true authenticity and clarity.

Kamikaze, sear the blood inside me
Taking extreme measures or risks to numb or destroy the inner emotions and pain.

Guess who's got it figured out
Implying that the artist knows someone who pretends to have everything under control.

I'll let you in on something secret
Reaffirming the intention to share a hidden truth or revelation with the listener.

And I can decompose
Having the ability to break down and let go of personal burdens and attachments.

When it suits me I accelerate it
Choosing when to undergo personal growth or the process of letting go, accelerating the timing based on personal preferences.

Wicked on all fours
Embracing a state of vulnerability and submission, accepting the challenges that arise.

I surrender to the storm
Accepting and embracing the chaos and turbulence in one's life, surrendering to the challenges and allowing them to shape personal growth.

You'll never know how it feels
Expressing that the listener will never truly understand or empathize with the artist's experiences or emotions.

Can you feel it?
Questioning the listener's ability to empathize or connect with intense emotions.

I'm with you til the end
Reaffirming commitment and loyalty, remaining by someone's side through thick and thin.