Reflections
City State Lyrics

Just tell me this,
Please be honest and straightforward with me,

Are we living for the feeling?
Are we merely seeking momentary satisfaction?

Or is there something more
Is there a deeper purpose or fulfillment

To the emptiness I long for?
To the void within me that yearns to be filled?

I can't wait for you
I can no longer tolerate waiting for you

I can't wait for you anymore
I have lost my patience in waiting for you

But the feeling we have
But the emotional connection we share

I couldn't give it up for anything
I am unwilling to let go of it, no matter the cost

And the times that we've shared
And the moments of companionship we have experienced

The memories will never leave my head
The recollections will forever remain etched in my mind

And fall if we may
And even if we stumble or fail

Wouldn't give up a single moment to wash my pain away
I would not relinquish any experience, regardless of the pain it may bring, just to forget my suffering

So why do I feel like we already lost it along the way
So why do I have this impression that we have already lost our way and connection

I can't get enough of the mess we made
I am addicted to the chaos and complications we have created

As it all goes up in flames
As everything deteriorates and falls apart

You're the reason I can't sleep at night
You are the cause of my sleepless nights

But it's not love if you don't want the best for us
But this cannot be love if you do not desire the best for our relationship

I should've known i'm better off alone
I should have realized that I am happier and better without you

And that feeling I had
And the emotions I once had

I should've known you didn't feel the same
I should have recognized that you did not reciprocate those same feelings

I miss the way we used to fight
I long for the intensity and passion we had in our arguments

Now you couldn't be bothered to care most nights
Now you are indifferent and unconcerned most evenings

The light in your eyes has burned away
The spark and happiness in your eyes have faded

Your silent turmoil screams at my face
Your internal struggle silently expresses itself and confronts me

And I can't bear to watch it unfold
And I cannot endure witnessing its unfolding and progression

So I hold onto a piece of you when you need it the most
So I cling onto a fragment of you during your moments of vulnerability and need

Give back the life you took from me
Return the vitality and happiness that you have stolen from me

(I can't get enough of the mess we made
(I am addicted to the chaos and complications we have created

As it all goes up in flames
As everything deteriorates and falls apart

You're the reason I can't sleep at night)
You are the cause of my sleepless nights)

I can't get enough of the mess we made
I am addicted to the chaos and complications we have created

As it all goes up in flames
As everything deteriorates and falls apart

You're the reason I can't sleep at night
You are the cause of my sleepless nights

But it's not love if you don't want the best for us
But this cannot be love if you do not desire the best for our relationship

I should've known i'm better off alone
I should have realized that I am happier and better without you