Soldier
Client Lyrics


Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴  Line by Line Meaning ↴

Get drunk, I get high
Get home, I wonder why
Get lost, get high
Coming down, I get why
Going fast, going small
I just don't know where to go
Going down, gonna be the best
Bad dreams in my head

I'm a soldier

Can't find, confused
Get a grip on what to choose
Can't strain, restrained
I'm aware of this problem now
True nature, feeling pain
Bad (fighting), ...
Brainwashed and brain-dead
Lot of words in my head





I'm a soldier

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Client's song Soldier explore the inner turmoil and confusion of a person who is struggling with addiction and a sense of purposelessness. The opening lines "Get drunk, I get high // Get home, I wonder why" suggest a cycle of self-destructive behavior that leads to regret and questioning. The lines "Can't find, confused // Get a grip on what to choose" highlight the confusion and indecision that often accompany addiction as one struggles to find a way out.


The chorus, which simply states "I'm a soldier," can be interpreted in a number of ways. On one level, it may refer to the idea that the person is fighting a battle with their addiction and other demons, and that they are determined to soldier on no matter what. On a deeper level, it may allude to the idea that addiction and self-destructive behavior can be seen as a kind of war, one that is waged within oneself.


The final lines "Brainwashed and brain-dead // Lot of words in my head" point to the profound psychological impact of addiction, which can cause a person to feel trapped, unable to think clearly or make sound decisions.


Overall, this song is a powerful exploration of addiction and its effects on the human psyche. By delving into the thoughts and emotions of a struggling individual, Client sheds light on the complex nature of addiction and the challenges that those who suffer from it must face.


Line by Line Meaning

Get drunk, I get high
I consume substances to escape reality


Get home, I wonder why
I question my actions and decisions when I return to a sober state


Get lost, get high
I continue to engage in self-destructive behavior


Coming down, I get why
I gain clarity and understanding when the effects of the substances wear off


Going fast, going small
I feel lost and directionless


I just don't know where to go
I lack a sense of purpose or direction in life


Going down, gonna be the best
I have accepted my impending downfall and believe it will be triumphant


Bad dreams in my head
I am haunted by negative thoughts and experiences that impact my mental health


I'm a soldier
Despite my struggles and challenges, I am determined to persevere


Can't find, confused
I struggle to make sense of my surroundings and emotions


Get a grip on what to choose
I am attempting to gain control and make positive choices in my life


Can't strain, restrained
I am limited by external forces beyond my control


I'm aware of this problem now
I recognize the issues I am facing and am actively working towards resolving them


True nature, feeling pain
I am struggling to reconcile my authentic self with my experiences and emotions


Bad (fighting), ...
I am fighting internal battles that are impacting my well-being


Brainwashed and brain-dead
I have been influenced by external factors that have negatively impacted my mental state


Lot of words in my head
I am overwhelmed by my thoughts and emotions


I'm a soldier
Despite my struggles and challenges, I am determined to persevere




Contributed by David Y. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
To comment on or correct specific content, highlight it

Genre not found
Artist not found
Album not found
Song not found

More Versions