San Diego, CA – August 3rd, 2005 – San Diego based hard rock band Colporter has continued to work with producer Steve Russell, who recently finished production on As I Lay Dying and Mortal Enemy, to complete a follow up EP to their first release Sovereign Mind. The EP is titled Despite the Battle and features a more progressive metal sound than their first LP that garnered the band much success in the past 24 months. The band plans to celebrate the release of the EP at the Roxy Theater in Hollywood, CA on the 23rd of this month.
Colporter has built upon a solid foundation of seven string guitar and five string bass, mystically paired with what a Colporter fan dubbed as “vocals that sound like Tori Amos’ evil twin”. Though a far stretch from pop to Colporter, the comparison to Amos stems from singer Sarah Paolini’s ability to wail into the rafters and reach audiences on an emotional level. Influences that can be heard in the music are Alice In Chains, Megadeth, Sevendust, and Godsmack. The band sees themselves as a perfect fit for the Ozzfest croud and are determined to see female artists making a seriously significant mark in the hard rock and metal genres in the very near future. “There is Evanascense and then there is Kittie…we are filling the void in between,’ says Sarah, also setting herself apart from the norm by dominating on the five-string bass. The other half of what creates such a signature sound with Colporter is the amazing guitar playing by David Paolini, recently endorsed by Randall Amplifiers, Basson Cabinets, Halo Guitars and Coffin Case and surely a future cover model for all the guitar magazines out there.
My Darkest Hour
Colporter Lyrics
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With the light so far off I’m turning hateful
Letting myself down
Where’s the love
where’s the love
Where’s the love gone now
In my darkest hour
who will be my power
quenched with stone
Chronic sarcasm
cuts to the bone
All your intentions
lost in the wind
Try not to hate me
give in to sin
It hurts so bad to love you
It hurts me so bad to love you
Why do I choose to love you
It hurts me so bad I love you
given to pain
The moon the tide shall
wax and wane
Don’t wanna feel this
rejected hate
Don’t wanna be this
weakened state
It hurts so bad to love you
It hurts me so bad to love you
Why do I choose to love you
It hurts me so bad I love you
It hurts so bad to love you
It hurts me so bad to love you
Why do I choose to love you
It hurts me so bad I love you
Each time we meet it’s like starting over
No memories of what was said
Only seeing what I want to see now
Caught blindsided the shame’s on me
It hurts so bad to love you
It hurts me so bad to love you
Why do I choose to love you
It hurts me so bad I love you
It hurts so bad to love you
It hurts me so bad to love you
Why do I choose to love you
It hurts me so bad I love you
The lyrics to Colporter's song My Darkest Hour are a reflection of the struggles we face in relationships. The opening lines indicate a sense of isolation and being lost in the wilderness, as the light is far away. The singer's feelings of hate and disappointment towards themselves and the absence of love are evident. They question the disappearance of love when they needed its presence the most.
The chorus highlights the singer's need for power in their darkest hour and the absence of support. They feel let down by the people they once trusted and the expectations they had. The chronic sarcasm and intention become meaningless when they are lost in the storm of emotions. The hurt of loving someone and the fear of giving in to sin are evident through the lyrics. The chorus is repeated thrice, indicating the intensity of their pain and the questions that remain unanswered.
The bridge continues the hurt and the confusion of the singer. They feel lost, unloved, and rejected. The moon and tides are used as a metaphor for change and the inevitability of ups and downs. The singer does not want to feel the hate and the weakened state. However, the intensity of love makes them choose the pain of loving.
Overall, My Darkest Hour is a powerful song that captures the raw emotions of heartbreak and the pain of loving someone. The absence of love and support, the fear of giving in to sin, and the singer's need for power are well-reflected through the lyrics.
Line by Line Meaning
In my darkest hour buried deep among the wilderness
Feeling lost and alone in a difficult situation, surrounded by chaos and confusion.
With the light so far off I’m turning hateful
Feeling angry and bitter because hope seems out of reach.
Letting myself down
Feeling disappointed in oneself for not being able to handle the situation better.
Where’s the love
Asking why love and support seem to be absent in this difficult time.
where’s the love
Reiterating the question of why love and support are not present.
Where’s the love gone now
Wondering where the love and support that was previously there has disappeared to.
In my darkest hour
Reiterating the feeling of being lost and alone in a difficult situation.
who will be my power
Asking who or what will give the strength to get through the difficult situation.
My expectations
Pretenses for the best planned out.
quenched with stone
Crushed by reality into a pile of rubble.
Chronic sarcasm
Consistent negativity or pessimism used as a coping mechanism.
cuts to the bone
Impactful and deeply hurtful.
All your intentions
All the reasons why someone may have helped or supported are under scrutiny.
lost in the wind
Forgotten or disappeared without any explanation.
Try not to hate me
Don't let the pain and difficult situation turn into self-hatred.
give in to sin
Succumbing to self-destructive behavior as a way to cope with the situation.
It hurts so bad to love you
Loving someone in this situation is causing intense pain and suffering.
It hurts me so bad to love you
Reiterating the pain caused by loving someone in this difficult situation.
Why do I choose to love you
Questioning one's own decisions and motivations for continuing to love someone in this situation.
given to pain
Feeling as though one is destined to experience pain and suffering in this situation.
The moon the tide shall
The natural ebb and flow of life will continue regardless of individual struggles and pain.
wax and wane
Emphasizing the cyclical nature of life and hardships.
Don’t wanna feel this
Expressing a desire to not experience this pain and difficulty.
rejected hate
Feeling hated and rejected by others because of the situation.
Don’t wanna be this
Feeling a desire to not be in this difficult situation.
weakened state
Feeling vulnerable and powerless in this situation.
Each time we meet it’s like starting over
Feeling like no progress has been made in the difficult situation.
No memories of what was said
Forgetting the past attempts made to resolve the situation.
Only seeing what I want to see now
Ignoring reality and only focusing on what one hopes to see in the situation.
Caught blindsided the shame’s on me
Feeling embarrassed and ashamed for not anticipating the difficulties of the situation.
Contributed by Victoria D. Suggest a correction in the comments below.