Wasting Time
Connor Gilbert Lyrics

These minutes start to add, as the hour's moving slow
Time is passing slowly and each minute feels longer than it should.

When you were passing by, got to see the whole show
I was able to watch you as you entered my life and saw everything.

I met you with my better half and now you see the demons
I introduced you to my partner, but now you're seeing my flaws and issues.

You wonder why I do these things, well here's the reason
You're curious about my actions, so I'll explain why I behave the way I do.

I can't stand the thought of not being the best
The idea of not being the best at something is unbearable to me.

Had all the confidence but now I seem to second guess
I used to be very self-assured, but now I doubt myself more often.

I ain't ever been depressed I ain't got time on my schedule
I've never been depressed because I'm always busy and don't have time to feel down.

If self-loathing comes, then you pump your head with metal
If I start to hate myself, I listen to heavy metal music to feel better.

For real, I feel for you I really wanna see you there
I genuinely care about you and want to see you succeed.

I'm on the top level, tou climbing down the stairs
I'm at the highest point in my life while you're still struggling to get there.

Treat me as a scapegoat, makes your life easy
You use me as a scapegoat to make your own life easier.

Til the day you look back and see my ass on TV
One day, when I'm famous, you'll regret treating me poorly.

I can't escape the shit that's running through my blood
I can't escape the issues that are inherent in my personality.

Drugs, love, all of the above
I struggle with drug addiction and relationship issues.

What I need for the night, save me from that fucking light
Drugs provide an escape from reality and help me avoid facing my problems.

But when the morning comes I'm clean of everything, in sight
I'm able to stay sober during the day and avoid addiction then.

I hear you talking like, yeah this kid is all right
I overhear you complimenting me to someone else.

Nah I'll give it to him, man this kid's shit is tight
You're acknowledging my talent and admiring my work.

I'll give you what you like, you give me something new
I'm open to trying new things if it means pleasing you.

Anything is possible when you're playing with the truth
The possibilities are endless when you're not constrained by honesty.

Uh, and how the fuck could I forget
I suddenly remember something important.

I ran around the world and I ain't even break a sweat
I accomplished something challenging easily and without exertion.

Weighing out my options 'til the pressure broke my neck
I was considering my choices until the stress became too much to handle.

And say the things you have, you'll lend me your living debt
If you make a promise or offer, it will come at a cost to you.

No shortcuts for anything, especially recoveries
It's important to take things slow and not try to cut corners, especially when recovering from something difficult.

Groundbreaking discoveries you really cannot fuck with me
I've made important, significant discoveries and challenges nobody can surpass.

I kicked him out and it's me and you as company
I removed someone from my life, and now it's just me and you.

Someone's gotta say it, I don't wanna live uncomfortably
I'm going to speak plainly because I don't want to live in discomfort.

The smoke covers my eyes making it hard to drive
My vision is obscured by smoke and it's difficult to focus while driving.

I left you in silence but I know my message has arrived
I ended a conversation abruptly, but my point still got across.

I only wrote this thing 'cos you ran across my mind
I wrote this because you came to mind and I wanted to express myself.

And now I'm sitting here alone, wasting all my time
I'm alone and bored, not using my time productively.