My Old Flame
Conte Candoli and Friends Lyrics
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And telling myself that everything's going to work out
I keep kicking myself in the mouth
Opening up every cut that should be a scar by now
I need the hope I always tell my friends about
I need the hope I always tell my friends about
Here I am lying awake thinking about how things used to be
I'm sick and tired
I'm sick and tired of being at the same old place in my head
Give me peace of mind
I always backtrack to my old self
When I'm holding on to despair and cracks in my life
I'm holding when I need to let go
I sleep with the TV on, it covers up my feelings about the past
Here I am lying awake thinking about how things used to be
Doubt is the soil that fear grows in
I'm dirty from head to toe
Doubt is the soil that fear grows in
I'm dirty from head to toe
Doubt is the story of how fear grows in
I'm dirty from head to toe
I'm dirty from head to toe
I'm dirty from head to toe
The lyrics to Conte Candoli and Friends' song "My Old Flame" speak to the internal turmoil and struggle experienced by the singer. The opening lines "I spend my nights thinking the worst / And telling myself that everything's going to work out" suggests that the singer is struggling with negative thoughts and self-doubt, a sentiment that is reinforced throughout the song. The next line "I keep kicking myself in the mouth / Opening up every cut that should be a scar by now" speaks to the idea that the singer is re-opening emotional wounds, rather than allowing them to heal.
As the song progresses, the singer expresses a desire for hope and peace of mind, but feels stuck in a negative cycle. The line "I always backtrack to my old self / When I'm holding on to despair and cracks in my life / I'm holding when I need to let go" speaks to the idea that the singer is aware of their negative patterns, but feels powerless to change them. The repeated reference to being "dirty from head to toe" suggests a sense of shame and self-loathing.
Overall, the lyrics to "My Old Flame" are powerful and poignant, conveying a sense of intense internal struggle and the desire for hope and peace.
Line by Line Meaning
I spend my nights thinking the worst
I often dwell on negative thoughts in the dark of night
And telling myself that everything's going to work out
Despite my negative thoughts, I still try to convince myself that things will improve
I keep kicking myself in the mouth
I repeatedly criticize and blame myself for my problems
Opening up every cut that should be a scar by now
I continue to dwell on past wounds that I should have healed from by now
I need the hope I always tell my friends about
Although I try to be optimistic for my friends, I truly need hope for myself
I sleep with the TV on, it covers up my feelings about the past
I use background noise to distract myself from painful memories
Here I am lying awake thinking about how things used to be
Despite the noise, I still can't stop thinking about past experiences
I'm sick and tired
I'm exhausted mentally and emotionally
I'm sick and tired of being at the same old place in my head
I'm tired of repeating the same negative thought patterns
Give me peace of mind
I desperately need a break from my worries and fears
I always backtrack to my old self
I often revert back to my negative thought patterns and self-destructive behavior
When I'm holding on to despair and cracks in my life
I struggle to let go of feelings of hopelessness and brokenness in my life
I'm holding when I need to let go
I need to learn to release my grip on negative emotions and move forward
Doubt is the soil that fear grows in
I realize that my doubt and insecurities fuel my fears
I'm dirty from head to toe
I feel stained and weighed down by my negative emotions and past experiences
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management
Written by: Brian Blake, Daniel Lambton, David Knox, Eric Haines, Kyle Fasel
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beadbop
That's my swingin' Dad, Russ Freeman, making magic on the ivories!
He and Shelly Manne were best friends and musical collaborators up until Shelly's untimely, sudden death.
As a child, I spent many happy afternoons playing with the animals at Shelly and Flip Manne's ranch in the Valley.
These witty, talented, and wonderful men may be gone, but their music will live forever!
beadbop
@MJ Bachman Russ Freeman and Bob Cooper both played with Maynard Ferguson and his Orchestra in 1954.
It's on vinyl as "Maynard Ferguson's Hollywood Party," a copy of which is in my collection.
Sadly, I never got to meet Bob or June, but at least I have their recordings!
MJ Bachman
Didn't your dad record with tenor saxophonist Bob Cooper? Did you ever meet him, June Christy and their daughter Shay Christy Cooper?
BC Drummer
@Geoff Nelson That's so cool man. I wa able to go backstage at the Garden State Arts Center and watch Chiz play a Jerry Lewis show (with Barbara Eden opening!) and I also got to hang with him backstage in Atlantic City in the 80's. I always happy to keep these master musicians names alive
:-) Cheers and hey Chiz, we remember you bro!!!
Geoff Nelson
@BC Drummer I knew Chiz through a friend, hung out and, at the wedding reception of said friend, Chiz let me sit in for three songs on a set. Thank you, Chiz!
robert dugmore
@Marks Countless Barks I first heard him on the Charlie Parker with strings track Just Friends, he played as good as Bird on that masterpiece.
Stefano Guarini
More than a drummer: a superb musician and leader... One of the best quintets ever...
BlaydonAces
In my opinion Richie Kamuca was one of the greats of jazz tenor saxophone. Maybe not a player who pushed the boundaries but if you are looking for beauty of tone, sublime lyricism, to be moved by someone's playing, then check him out. His final album 'Richie' with Mundell Lowe, Nick Ceroli and Monty Budwig is one of my all time favourite jazz albums. A gem.
Roly Veitch
Ricardo da Mata
Yes, he is!
Big Swing Face
Richie IS my favorite tenor man, followed closely by another unsung hero of the tenor, the melodic, dynamic and supremely talented Jay Corre. His work with Buddy Rich is masterful.