Pedestrian at Best
Courtney Barnett Lyrics

I love you, I hate you, I'm on the fence, it all depends
My feelings towards you are constantly changing and uncertain, and it all depends on the current circumstances.

Whether I'm up or down, I'm on the mend, transcending all reality
No matter what my emotional state is, I'm going through a process of healing and surpassing the limitations of reality.

I like you, despise you, admire you
My feelings towards you are mixed and conflicted, and I have different perspectives on you.

What are we gonna do when everything all falls through?
What will happen when our plans and aspirations fail or crumble?

I must confess, I've made a mess of what should be a small success
I admit that I've messed up a situation that should have been easy to handle, turning it into a bigger problem.

But I digress, at least I've tried my very best, I guess
But let's not dwell on that, at least I can say that I've made an effort, although I'm not sure if it was enough.

This, that, the other, why even bother?
Why bother with trivial matters or insignificant choices that will not have a significant impact in the long run?

It won't be with me on my deathbed, but I'll still be in your head
Insignificant things that we worry about or focus on won't matter when we reach the end of our lives, but the memory of someone will still linger in their mind.

Put me on a pedestal and I'll only disappoint you
Don't set high expectations for me, or I'll inevitably fail to meet them and let you down.

Tell me I'm exceptional, I promise to exploit you
If you constantly praise and admire me, I might take advantage of you and use you for my own benefit.

Give me all your money, and I'll make some origami, honey
If you give me all your resources or wealth, I might waste it on frivolous or meaningless things.

I think you're a joke, but I don't find you very funny
I might find certain aspects of you ironic or amusing, but I don't necessarily appreciate or enjoy your sense of humor.

My internal monologue is saturated analog
My thoughts are constantly running through my mind, like an old fashioned tape recorder that is full and overflows.

It's scratched and drifting, I've become attached to the idea
My mind feels damaged and disconnected, but I'm still fixated on a certain concept or thought.

It's all a shifting dream, bittersweet philosophy
Everything seems to be constantly changing and uncertain, and there is a bitter sweetness to that realization.

I've got no idea how I even got here
I'm not quite sure how I ended up in my current situation or how my life has led me to this point.

I'm resentful, I'm having an existential time crisis
I feel angry and frustrated, and I'm going through an existential crisis where I question the meaning and purpose of my life.

Want bliss, daylight savings won't fix this mess
I crave happiness and fulfillment, but simple solutions or temporary fixes won't solve my problems.

Under-worked and over-sexed, I must express my disinterest
I feel like I'm not working hard enough, but I'm also caught up in meaningless sexual encounters, and I want to express my lack of interest in both areas.

The rats are back inside my head, what would Freud have said?
I'm plagued by negative or self-destructive thoughts, and I wonder what a famous psychologist like Freud would have thought of my mental state.

I wanna wash out my head with turpentine, cyanide
I wish I could erase my negative thoughts or reset my mind with extreme measures like drinking chemicals.

I dislike this internal diatribe when I try to catch your eye
I don't like the negative self-talk that goes on in my head when I'm attempting to get someone's attention.

I hate seeing you cry in the kitchen
I have an emotional reaction when I see you cry in a certain place, like the kitchen.

I don't know why it affects me like this
I'm not sure why this particular situation or emotion has such a strong impact on me.

When you're not even mine to consider
I have feelings or thoughts about you, even though we're not in a relationship or you're not necessarily part of my life.

Erroneous, harmonious, I'm hardly sanctimonious
I'm conflicted and contradictory, and I don't consider myself to be morally superior or righteous.

Dirty clothes, I suppose we all outgrow ourselves
Neglecting our personal hygiene or appearance is a sign that we're losing touch with our true selves and growing out of our former ways.

I'm a fake, I'm a phoney, I'm awake, I'm alone
I don't feel genuine or authentic, and I'm conscious and aware of that fact, but it also makes me feel lonely and isolated.

I'm homely, I'm a Scorpio
I'm not attractive or beautiful, and I was born under the astrological sign of Scorpio.