The band, Steven Eagles (guitar, vocals), Nicholas Millard (drums) and Rachel Lavelle (bass), were all just 16 years old when they signed to Shifty Disco after playing just eight gigs as Crackout (named after Brian Krakow, a character in American TV teen drama My So-Called Life). Within four weeks of the label first seeing the band live, they had recorded and released their debut Chuck single. An album was also recorded around this time but was never released. Lavelle was shortly replaced on bass by Jack Dunkley.
Crackout toured with Sick Of It All / 28 Days in late December 2000, where they sold a self-released tape containing early recordings of Breakout and Joey Lost His Mind (both later re-recorded and included on debut album This Is Really Neat). EP1, a 500-limited edition CD with four songs showing early promise, and EP2 shortly followed in 2001. Both EPs came with a free sticker and in a hand-numbered cardboard sleeve, finished with a wax seal (red on EP1, green on EP2). Their debut album, This Is Really Neat, was released that October featuring artwork by Jane Wooster-Scott.
In 2002, plans to release old favourite Volume (the b-side to their first single, later re-recorded and featured on This Is Really Neat) were scrapped when I Am The One was used in an advert for Salomon Sports. Volume was therefore the only Crackout song not released as a single with it's own music video.
After long delays, the band's follow up to This Is Really Neat was released in March 2004. However, the promotion for Oh No! was ended abruptly due to EMI deciding to close down Hut Recordings shortly after the album's release. Whilst making plans for a third album, their producer friend Clive Langer asked them if they were interested in playing on a film soundtrack which he was scoring, which ended up with them being cast for small roles in Brothers of the Head, the 2006 mockumentary based on the 1977 novel by Brian Aldiss.
In 2005, Crackout toyed with the idea of adding an extra member to provide them with options with guitars, keyboards and backing vocals live. This lead to a few low-key gigs with additional member Simon in October that year. After playing these gigs, however, they felt like too much time had passed since their last shows and decided to disband Crackout.
However, 2006 saw Steven, Nick, Jack and Simon now playing in a new group called Blackholes, who released The Alcohol EP themselves through their MySpace profile, featuring a couple of tracks played at their last few Crackout gigs.
Eagles, Millard and Dunkley have also played in French pop act Vanessa & The O's on a few of their live shows.
It was announced in 2007 that Dunkley had left due to 'creative differences', with Alex Szrok replacing him on bass. In September, it was announced that Blackholes had decided to regroup, renaming the band 'Out Of The Afternoon' and that they had brought in Anna Sales on keyboard and vocals. The newest project at present has a more jazzy sound than previously, with "Alcohol," a slow jazz song being the only 'Blackholes' track used on their myspace profile.
In March 2008 the band signed to Leeds Label 'Tip Toe Records' and released there first EP in April
Barricaded
Crackout Lyrics
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Looking right, I look around and see that everyone is seeing sound
Get away you looked at me and it was everything it should have been
Feeling sick and want to die, I talk my shit and then I say goodbye
If I could
What I can't be is everyone
A part of me has come undone
If I say
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
And walk away
Get like me is every thing I want to say
Barricaded in my own delay
Getting back would be a lie, cause every thing I do is hindered by
The way I talk and who I am, the way I think about this fucking band
Anyway I want to know, what we've really got and where we go
I feel alive but in the way, is every single thing I want to say
If I could
What I can't be is everyone
A part of me has come undone
If I say
If I say
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
Don't look at me
And walk away
Get like me is every thing I want to say
Barricaded in my own delay
I can't be this every thing is pain
I can't see this every single day
I can't be this every thing is pain
I can't see this every single day
Barricaded, barricaded in
Barricaded, barricaded in
Barricaded, barricaded in
Barricaded, barricaded in
The lyrics to Crackout’s song Barricaded express the difficulty of being oneself while feeling isolated from others. The song’s protagonist seems to be struggling with feelings of alienation and loneliness, and is struggling to find a way to connect with others. The first few lines of the song convey the idea that the singer’s desire to be themselves is causing them to push others away. The line “Getting what I want to be, is getting every one away from me” suggests that being true to oneself is leading to a sense of isolation, which is a difficult and painful experience.
The lyrics in the verse “Get away you looked at me and it was everything it should have been, Feeling sick and want to die, I talk my shit and then I say goodbye” seem to be describing a situation where the singer has an opportunity to connect with someone, but ends up feeling overwhelmed and scared. The line “Feeling sick and want to die” suggests that the experience of being vulnerable around others can be extremely anxiety-provoking for some individuals. This may be due to an underlying fear of rejection or a fear of not being worthy of acceptance.
The chorus of the song is repeated twice and emphasizes the singer’s desire to be understood and accepted for who they are. The lines “What I can't be is everyone, A part of me has come undone, If I say, Don't look at me” suggest that the singer is struggling with a sense of identity and feels like they cannot conform to societal expectations. The repetition of the phrase “Don’t look at me” reinforces the idea that the singer is experiencing feelings of shame and self-consciousness.
Overall, the lyrics to Barricaded convey a sense of isolation, anxiety, and a desire to connect with others while feeling like one does not fit in. The song’s emotional core is one of vulnerability and self-doubt, and the singer’s struggle with their sense of identity and worth is relatable to many individuals who may have felt the same way at some point in their lives.
Line by Line Meaning
Getting what I want to be, is getting every one away from me
Achieving my goals means pushing everyone away from me
Looking right, I look around and see that everyone is seeing sound
Observing my surroundings, I notice that others are experiencing things differently
Get away you looked at me and it was everything it should have been
When you looked at me, it felt familiar and satisfying
Feeling sick and want to die, I talk my shit and then I say goodbye
When I'm in a bad mental state, I lash out and cut ties with others
If I could
If only I had the ability
What I can't be is everyone
I cannot be everything to everyone
A part of me has come undone
I feel like a part of myself is falling apart
Don't look at me
Please don't stare at me
And walk away
Just leave me alone
Get like me is every thing I want to say
I wish others could understand my perspective
Barricaded in my own delay
I feel trapped and held back by my own doubts and fears
Getting back would be a lie, cause every thing I do is hindered by
I cannot return to my past self because my actions are limited by my mindset
The way I talk and who I am, the way I think about this fucking band
My identity and thoughts related to my music are affecting my interactions with others
Anyway I want to know, what we've really got and where we go
Despite everything, I still want to know where things stand and what our future holds
I feel alive but in the way, is every single thing I want to say
Although I feel passionate about my ideas, they are holding me back in some way
I can't be this every thing is pain
I cannot continue to live like this, as everything feels painful
I can't see this every single day
I cannot keep going on like this, day in and day out
Barricaded, barricaded in
I feel trapped and stuck in my own mental barriers
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@theseasoniscalling
I'd really appreciate it if you'd make this available on mobile
@adamskylark
miss this band
@methodicalsubjective
there was a version of this song on youtube that had a cool video with it, like the Animatrix or something...does anyone know what I'm talking about, or know where to find it?
@KublaConn
Darren Bivens Yes, I remember that video, I favorited it, but it seems to have disappeared.
@methodicalsubjective
Surprising. I'm guessing they took it down due to some kinda copyright infringement thing with the Animatrix. But it was cool
@GorillaPHX
+Darren Bivens It was a very cool video, the scenes were from the Animatrix. It was removed for copyright infringements.
@SchizoidPersonoid
That was a really good video. Sad it got taken down.
@DudeTed
I made that video. It has been blocked worldwide, but it's still on here
Glad you liked it :)
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@SchizoidPersonoid
Thanks, bud.