Footsteps
Crypt & Joey Nato Lyrics

I hear your footsteps
I am aware of your presence

I hear your footsteps down the hall
I hear you approaching closer to me

Staring at this mirror and
Looking at myself deeply

I'm questioning myself
I am doubting myself

Am I worth it? Am I worthless?
Am I valuable? Am I without value?

I can no longer tell
I am unsure

Been surrounded by these demons
I have been constantly confronted by my inner demons

I've seen the climate of hell
I have experienced a state of immense suffering

At the moments I'm at the lowest
During times when I am feeling my worst

And I needed most help
When I needed assistance the most

But I'm scared of reaching out to people
I am afraid to ask others for support

So many of them said they would be
Numerous individuals claimed they would

There for me if I need 'em
Supportive when I required them

But when I happen to need 'em
But when I actually need them

They happen to laugh at these evils
They seem to find joy in my struggles

'Cause there's nothing to be sad about
Because they believe there is no reason to be sad

And that is lethal
And that is harmful

I wish I could change the way
I desire to alter the way

My brain views the world
My mind perceives the world

I wish that I could take pain
I hope to relieve the suffering

Away from all these girls
Experienced by all the women in my life

That ever broke my heart, be here regardless
Who have caused me heartbreak, yet still be with me

I deserved it
I acknowledge that I deserved the pain

If they didn't leave for no reason
If they did not depart without cause

I know I earned it on the surface
I understand that I contributed to it

I always act like I'm the victim
I consistently portray myself as the one who is wronged

Refusing that I have some
Denying that I possess any

Flaws and awful symptoms
Imperfections and negative traits

I never showed enough love to my first love
I failed to demonstrate sufficient affection to my initial romantic partner

We'd argue all the time about it
We would frequently disagree regarding this matter

And that would make it rough
And it made our relationship difficult

So when somebody came along to show
Therefore, when someone else arrived to demonstrate

Her she often jumped in
Love and affection, she readily embraced it

I'd complain all over myself
I would constantly express dissatisfaction

And that's a kick to the gut
And that painfully affects me

And that's a tough pill to swallow
And that is a difficult truth to accept

But even then I know
However, I am aware

That I should've been better
That I should have improved myself

But now I drown in sorrows
But now I am overwhelmed by my grief

'Cause I knew the whole time
Because deep down, I always knew

How to make it work
How to make our relationship succeed

But I had people in my ear
But I allowed others' opinions to influence me

Telling me no more worth
Convincing me that I possessed no value

So I let it slip by, thinking I was better
So I allowed it to fade away, believing I was superior

But little did I know that
However, I was unaware that

I'd be givin' up forever
I would be sacrificing something permanent

And now she's happy as can be
And now she is content

While I'm sad on this beat
While I express my sorrow in this song

Rappin' bout the things that happened
Rapping about the events that transpired

Lookin' back on memories
Reflecting on past memories

I always think of her
I constantly think about her

But she never thinks of me
But she never has thoughts of me

And that's the way that it
And that is the way

Goes down the road, rinse and repeat
Things unfold, repeating the same pattern

And to my last one, I'm sorry
And to my most recent love, I apologize

I know you'd hear this
I know you would listen to this

I was obsessed over the
I was consumed by

Sex and your appearance
Physical intimacy and your looks

So when you told me you love me
So when you confessed your love to me

There was interference
There were complications

'Cause my heart still had a part of
Because a part of my heart still belonged

It there and it wasn't sharing
To someone else and wasn't being divided

But little by little
Gradually

You start to push her out the way
You began to prioritize her less

Makin' room for yourself
Creating space for your presence

Because you were there to stay
Because you intended to remain

And I latched on tight
And I clung on firmly

'cause I didn't want you to go
Because I didn't want you to leave

But I suffocated you like I
But I smothered you as though I

Was squeezing your throat
Was compressing your throat

And now I know that I'm the
And now I realize that I am the

One to blame for my past
One responsible for my previous actions

I made a couple songs about it
I created a few songs regarding it

Treating them like they were trash
Regarding them as insignificant

But in fact, I'm the reason that it failed
However, in reality, I caused its failure

I'm the one that made it worse
I am the one who worsened it

And went and tipped the scales
And proceeded to imbalance the situation

I'm the one that made the
I am the one who initiated the

Seperation and blamed it you
Separation and placed the blame on you

'Cause if the tables were turned
Since if the roles were reversed

I probably would leave you too
I most likely would also abandon you

I'm hard-headed
I am stubborn

I always want to be the one that's right
I always desire to be the one in the correct

Even if that mean you going
Even if that means you becoming

To sleep mad every night
Angry before going to sleep every night

Now I lay in bed at night
Now I lie in bed during the night

And look to my left knowing that you left
And I turn to my left, aware of your absence

I'm left with nothing but regret
I am only left with feelings of remorse

And it kills me knowing
And it pains me to know

I could've stopped it and to be honest
I could have prevented it and, honestly,

I know you left me because I
I am aware that you left me because

Left you with no options
I left you with no alternatives

I feel you inside my walls
I sense your presence within my surroundings

I hear your footsteps down the hall
I perceive the sound of your steps approaching

Know what you're headed for
I am aware of your intentions

Get up and lock my door
I stand and secure my door

Hope it can buy me time
Hoping that it will provide me with more time

'cause I need a little more
Since I require a little more

You're now inside of my room
You have now entered my room

You haven't found me here, but soon
You have not yet discovered me here, but soon

I'm underneath my bed
I am hiding beneath my bed

Trying to hold my breath
Attempting to hold my breath

No, I can't make a sound
No, I cannot produce any noise

I know you paint houses red
I am aware that you leave a trail of violence

And I never understood why
And I never comprehended why

Why you're walkin' out the door
Why you choose to leave

You're missing out on a good guy
You are overlooking a decent man

You won't ever find another one like me
You will never find someone else like me

'Cause the gold in my craft, yo I might be
Because I potentially possess great talent

Then you shook your head and
Then you disapproved and

Said that I was cocky
Claimed that I was arrogant

Then I told you, nah you don't get it
Then I responded, no, you do not understand

And you said that you don't get it
And you replied that you don't understand

You're pathetic
You are pitiful

You're so stuck up in your rap
You are so absorbed in your music

And you forgot about the present
And you neglected the present moment

And after that yo, you never came back
And after that, you never returned

I was so stubborn that I
I was so obstinate that I

Couldn't learn a lesson
Could not grasp the lesson

I thought you could come around
I believed you would eventually change

Or whatever I want i gave you all the signs
Or whatever I wanted, I provided you with all the indications

To walk like a pedestrian
To leave like an ordinary person

I feel like I lost you
I feel as though I have lost you

You feel like I crossed you
You believe that I betrayed you

You can't buy love but
Love cannot be purchased but

It'll still cost you
It will still require sacrifices

Looking back now, I can't even be mad
Reflecting on it now, I cannot even be angry

That I heard another dude on the
That I overheard another man on the

Night that I called you
Night that I contacted you

'Cause I finally woke up and
Because I finally realized and

Realized that I'm the issue
Understood that I am the problem

I guess I had to be alone
I suppose I had to be by myself

And I swear sometimes I hear footsteps coming
And sometimes I swear I hear approaching footsteps

Down the hall when I'm home
Down the hallway when I am at home

I remember every message that I
I recall every message that I

Sent you on your birthday
Sent you on the day of your birth

Saying let me get back with you
Expressing my desire to reconcile with you

And you sent me laugh emojis
And you replied with laughing emojis

And it shattered my heart
And it broke my heart

But nowadays, it's funny that
But nowadays, it's ironic that

I laugh with you, damn
I now laugh with you, damn

Guess I never locked my door
I suppose I never secured my door

I think I'll let you in
I think I will allow you to enter

'cause I need a little more
Because I require a little more