Liar
Cryptic Wisdom Lyrics
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And I don't know which side that I'm gonna feed (oh, no)
I tried to be somebody good for you
For me, for them, it's true
But I get so misunderstood
I lose my cool, when I get blue
I start to bargain with angels
I noticed that you were stable
He says to me as I go
And I'm back right where I started from again
It's the way I cope with pain and find my head
I'm a liar and I'm angry, I'm so mad
I'm a liar, I'm a liar
Locked up in the room, energy feels like a tomb
There's a knock at the door and I just can't answer
I'm lit and I don't wanna move
How much did I just consumed
Cause I can't breathe and I can't see truth
Am I gonna die? Am I gonna lose my mind?
If I keep this up undo
Is it your fault? Is it my fault?
Who do I blame when I can't think right?
Is it cause I can't find love and I'm too damn selfish
And anyone close I fight
Am I that tight? That I'll see things go well
And just wanna mess it up and take a bite
All I really know right know is I can't find light
And rhymes are giving me... a fright
I tried to be somebody good for you
For me, for them, it's true
But I guess it's all misunderstood
I lose my cool, when i get blue
The lyrics of Cryptic Wisdom's song Liar communicate the inner battle and conflict that the artist experiences inside himself. The artist ponders the side that he's going to feed; he's caught up between being the better person that he thinks he is and the vicious part of him that threatens to take control. The artist has attempted to impress the people around him, to be the good guy that he believes he is, and not only for himself, but for them as well. However, he becomes misunderstood, and his effort to be the better person is not rewarded the way he had hoped. The artist loses his cool and becomes angry when he is down, and he then starts to bargain with angels, hoping to battle the devil.
The conflict within the artist creates a disconnect between him and the world. He chooses to keep everything to himself rather than share his deepest thoughts and fears with others. He is sinking deep into his own thoughts, and it feels like he is in a tomb. When someone comes to bring him out of his world, he's too overwhelmed to react or leave. He's consumed too much, and his mind is clouded, Which makes him wonder if he'll lose his mind, and ultimately die. He's blaming anyone around him and is questioning his attitude as he journeys through life. He fights anyone close, and he's so tight that he will do anything to mess things up and just take a bite. In the end, he gets misunderstood again, and he loses his cool once more.
Line by Line Meaning
There's a war inside of me that runs so deep (yeah)
I'm struggling with inner turmoil that is consuming me
And I don't know which side that I'm gonna feed (oh, no)
I'm unsure whether to listen to my positive or negative inner voice
I tried to be somebody good for you
I wanted to be a good person for you
For me, for them, it's true
And for myself and others as well
But I get so misunderstood
However, people often don't understand me
I lose my cool, when I get blue
And I struggle to maintain my composure when I'm feeling down
I start to bargain with angels
I try to make a deal with my better self
Devil won't leave me alone
But my negative inner voice won't stop talking to me
I noticed that you were stable
I realized that you are secure and grounded
He says to me as I go
My negative inner voice speaks to me
And I'm back right where I started from again
I'm stuck in the same cycle of negative thoughts and actions
It's the way I cope with pain and find my head
This is my way of dealing with emotional pain and regaining clarity of mind
I'm a liar and I'm angry, I'm so mad
I'm angry at myself for lying to others and myself about who I am
I'm a liar, I'm a liar
I can't seem to stop lying to myself and others
Locked up in the room, energy feels like a tomb
I feel trapped and suffocated in my own space
There's a knock at the door and I just can't answer
I'm unable to face the outside world, even when prompted
I'm lit and I don't wanna move
I'm under the influence and too lethargic to change anything
How much did I just consumed
I'm questioning how much I've taken
Cause I can't breathe and I can't see truth
I feel suffocated physically and emotionally, which is hindering my perception of reality
Am I gonna die? Am I gonna lose my mind?
I'm worried that my behavior will have long-term consequences on my wellbeing
If I keep this up undo
If I continue to behave this way, negative outcomes are inevitable
Is it your fault? Is it my fault?
I'm questioning who is responsible for my current state
Who do I blame when I can't think right?
I'm struggling to rationalize my own behavior and actions
Is it cause I can't find love and I'm too damn selfish
I'm wondering if my inability to find love is due to my own selfishness
And anyone close I fight
And I tend to push away anyone who gets too close to me
Am I that tight? That I'll see things go well
Am I so controlling that I can't let things go well?
And just wanna mess it up and take a bite
Do I have a self-destructive tendency to ruin good things?
All I really know right know is I can't find light
I'm struggling to find hope or positivity in my current emotional state
And rhymes are giving me... a fright
Even writing and expressing myself through music brings up fear and anxiety
Contributed by Camden S. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@rachaelthomas5688
I first learned of this song when my son posted it on his fb page earlier this year. Sadly my son lost his battle with his demons and took his life 7 weeks ago. This is a very powerful song for me and I played it at ha memorial service.
@jvstin1980.1
I am sorry to hear that @rachaelthomas5688
ur not alone, I lost my nephew whom this song reminds me of. It's tough losing someone to suicide, and I hope u are keeping the good memories of ur son in ur thoughts and just taking it one day at a time. I never had kids so losing my nephew @ just 27 is a hard knock for his old unc, but get by one day at a time. Cryptic Wisdom - Liar is def in my top five songs of all time. I wish Cryptic Wisdom would do some collaboration with a friend of mine, and Family to my fiancé. He goes by Endzo.. I played a song of his at my nephew's funeral. If u would, please listen to this song by him called: Love me still by Endzo. I will post the YT Music link in hopes it's not disrespecting Cryptic Wisdom! Just trying to reach out to u so this song can touch ur heart as it did mine April 9th, 2023. Again I'm so sorry for ur loss, I am. If u feel u ever need to just let it out, I am here for u.
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=NHtV8ggCD4U&si=pao8Uf2cELga1EaY
@willm3742
Omg will be praying for you ❤
@youtubesiscool
8m so sorry please believe me when I say he can finely get his peace it just so unfortunate that he also had to hurt the one who loved him so much to get it he knows and understands the selfishness he did to the ones who never deserved that kind of pain he caused them but he just knows that he couldn't do it having to feel the emotional pain of this very hard broken world because that pain is something that you can't manage like you can with physical pain I don't know your son but yet I actually do he is part the very sensitive souls that are here in time where the world is not ready to know and understand us and we will never get to be ready to have to deal with them because we will never understand why they r the way they are the way they are it is impossible for us to understand what we all know as a corrupt way of thinking and playing out to be it can't and never will be able to make sense is very unreal to us when it comes to sense of souls like us it is very unnecessary and we don't receive why they have to be that way so sitting on my prayers and love to you guys in hopes that you can hopefully find peace bless you be
@zacha7403
Im so sorry to hear this, love you stranger!!! As a father i couldnt imagine the pain. Just cant. Keep your head up 😢😢😢😢
@rachaelthomas5688
@@zacha7403 thank you. Your name caught my attention. My son’s name was/is (don’t like saying past tense) Zachary.
@justindufresne5805
My dude with the chills. That tone, and grit. Undeniable. Simply amazing.
@ShanePsycho-wj5uw
At that moment it takes you in a lost moment😮
@kellenholland5851
Why does this not have 50 million views 😮😮😮😮😮 this is amazing
@HazKofi
He'll get his awards in heaven... current American culture gatekeepers do not want this.