Drown
D-Sturb Lyrics

Here I come, come to you in the very clothes
I return to you, wearing the same clothes I wore when I killed you.

That I killed, killed you in and now I know I'm alone
I took your last breath, and now, I'm left with my own breaths to take, alone.

I walk to you, rain falls from you
I approach you, and rain pours down from above you.

Can you wash me, can you drown me?
Can you cleanse me of my sins, can you end my life?

I wanna be a lot of things, so much pent up inside of me
I yearn to achieve many things, with an abundance of untapped potential inside me.

I wanna be stronger, too long I've sat here undecidedly
I wish to grow stronger, having been indecisive for far too long.

Planning strategy, half of me know it's all just a fallacy
I devise plans, but deep down I know they are unrealistic.

Failing miserably, drastically and then I crash dramatically
I fail catastrophically, and my defeat leads to a sudden and dramatic impact.

Into a wall I've hit a hundred times before
I collide with a familiar obstacle, one that I have faced countless times before.

And yet I still ignore the dark red blood stains on the floor
Despite the reminders of my past failures, I continue to disregard the consequences.

And I'm back in front of you, Lord, with the blood on the floor
I stand before you again, with evidence of my mistakes staining the ground.

Is the blood mine or yours? Don't wanna do this anymore
I question whether the blood belongs to me or to you, and express my desire to end this cycle.

Back and forth between me and me and who you call me to be
I struggle between my true self and the person you want me to be.

You see a man free who thinks he has to buy a key
You see a man who appears to be free, but feels the need to purchase his liberation.

To a door but he can't 'cause he's poor and he can't
He cannot afford the key to unlock the door, because he is impoverished.

Fall down anymore 'cause he's already on the floor
He cannot fall any further, because he is already at his lowest point.

And his heart is broken and all and this is his scar
He suffers from a broken heart, this being his emotional scar.

But it's warm from crying 'cause he will try nine times
Despite his struggles, he is comforted by the warmth of his tears, and will continue to make efforts to overcome his obstacles.

To realize nine crimes but he has more than nine lives
He has committed many mistakes, but believes he has the ability to keep making progress despite them.

So he picks himself up and keeps climbing for the prize again
He perseveres and continues climbing towards his goal, despite setbacks.

Here I come again to you
I come to you again.

Just to show the blood soaked through
To demonstrate the extent of the bloodshed that has taken place.

Through my bones and all I own
Blood has stained my skin, penetrated my bones, and tainted everything that is mine.

Is there a way for me to grow?
I plea for a way to improve myself.

Every time I feel selfish ambition is taking my vision
Whenever I sense that my self-centered goals are blinding me, overpowering my sight.

My crime is my sentence, repentance is taking commission
My actions condemn me, and seeking forgiveness becomes my priority.

It's taking a toll on my soul, I'm screaming submission and
My soul is suffering, and I cry out for surrender to a higher power.

I don't know if I am dying or living
I am uncertain whether I am alive or already dead.

'Cause I will save a face for name's sake
I will maintain appearances for my reputation's sake.

Abuse grace, take a aim to obtain a new name in a newer place
I exploit the concept grace, striving for a fresh start and new identity in a foreign location.

But my name is lame, I can't walk and I ain't the same
But, despite the relocation and new label, I remain unchanged and incapable of living up to this new identity.

And my name became a new destiny to the grave and
My false name became my final destination, my fate to carry into death.

They say the ocean's blue but it's black right now
Contrary to popular belief, the water appears black rather than blue at this moment.

In the dark, on the sand, looking out at my crowd
Standing in the shadows on the shore, observing the people in my surroundings.

Depression and drowning singing now the full parts
Feelings of despair and suffocation resonate throughout me, consuming my mind and emotions.

A lightning reveals where the ocean stops and the sky starts
A bolt of lightning illuminates the separation between the sea and the sky.

I've been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win
The heavens have instructed me that I will emerge victorious over the sea.

But it's hard for me to see where ocean stops, and where sky begins
However, I struggle to differentiate between the two, and am unable to distinguish where the sky begins and the ocean ends.

A random strike of light reminds me of what is true
An unexpected flash of lightning prompts me to recall what is real.

But right now the ocean is black and black the sky is too
Despite the illumination, the sea and sky remain dark and bleak in the present moment.