Heart
D.D.D Lyrics

I haven't left my apartment in days
I am deeply depressed and have no motivation to do anything, not even to leave my apartment.

Cold shower don't feel the same
Even basic things like taking a shower no longer bring me any pleasure or satisfaction.

I got the liquor to numb my pain
I turn to alcohol to distract myself from the emotional pain that I am feeling.

I'm out of sync with the system
I feel disconnected from the world around me and I don't feel like I fit in with society.

Tell your family I miss them
I know that I am not in a good place and I want to apologize to those who care about me and who I may have pushed away.

I've hit the top of my range now I'm peaking
I have reached the maximum level of emotions that I can handle and now I am on the verge of breaking down.

There's nothing holding me back from binge drinking
I am using alcohol to self-medicate and am at risk of becoming dependent.

I was floating on top but now I'm sinking
I thought I was doing okay but now I feel like I am slipping back into my depression.

I felt your touch on my lips it's tripping season
I am experiencing flashbacks and memories of a past relationship that is causing me emotional turmoil.

And that's my reason
This is the reason why I am struggling with my emotions.

You say you know me but that doesn't make sense
Just because someone knows me through a mutual friend, it doesn't mean that they truly know what I am going through.

You only know me cause my best friend
The only reason you know anything about me is through someone else.

You said ' holy shit, let's go again'
You may be excited about the prospect of getting to know me better but that doesn't mean I'm ready or willing to make that kind of commitment.

How's this end being up such a mess
I don't know how things got so complicated and why we ended up in this situation.

When I close my eyes all I see is us
I am haunted by memories of a past relationship that ended poorly.

Cause the last three months was such a rush
The past few months have been a blur and I don't feel like I was fully present in the moment.

Ended poorly now we're both crushed
The relationship ended badly and both of us are struggling to deal with the aftermath.

It's been a couple of days since we were speaking
We haven't talked in a few days and I miss you but at the same time I know that we need space.

Rip my heart out of my chest it won't stop beating
Even though I am in pain, my heart is still full of love for you.

This pain won't go away it's found my weakness
The emotional pain that I am feeling is overwhelming and is exploiting my vulnerabilities.

And that's your name love
You are the source of my pain but at the same time my heart still longs for you.

Eventually I'll be okay love
I know that eventually I will be able to move on from this pain and find happiness again.

Right after four or five shots love
But for now, I need to numb the pain with alcohol and take it one day at a time.

I'm always caught up in my brain love
I struggle with overthinking and it's difficult for me to get out of my own head.

Catching feelings too quick that isn't real love
I have a tendency to get emotionally attached too quickly and mistake strong feelings for love.

Always gonna have a place in my heart love
Even though things ended badly, you will always hold a special place in my heart.

Place in my heart, love
You are not forgotten and will always be a part of my life, even if it's just in memories.

Place in my heart, love
You will always be a part of me and I will always cherish our time together.

Place in my heart, love
No matter where life takes us, you will always be a part of who I am.

Place in my heart, love
Your memory will never fade and I will always hold you dear in my heart.