Memory Lane
D. Grady Scott Jr. Lyrics

There I go, daydream Johnny once again
I'm caught up in thoughts of the past, lost in my memories

Watching reruns of a show it's called way back when
I'm reliving moments from my past like I'm watching old TV shows

Pages of my life being reflected right on a screen
My past is being replayed like a movie on a screen

I can sit and recite every line scene after scene
I remember every detail of my past and every moment replayed before me

Because I've played it all within my mind probably about a hundred times
I've relived these memories over and over in my mind, unable to let go

Skip the parts that make me cry and keep those highlights on rewind
I avoid the painful memories and focus on the good moments, replaying them over and over

I try to edit from beginning to the end
I try to make sense of my past and arrange it in a way that makes sense

No matter what a traumatic scene keeps on sneaking in
Despite my efforts to focus on good memories, the bad always slips in

Now I'm forced to reminisce and see the dirt under the rug
I'm forced to confront the painful truths and hidden parts of my past

Everything I tried to hide by being strong and acting tough
I tried to bury my pain and emotions, putting on a strong front

See I thought that good things only happen to good people
I believed that only the righteous are blessed, but I faced disappointment

That's what my heart told me man that thing is so deceitful
My heart's desires and beliefs led me astray, deceiving me

With things that I didn't expect, things that I wouldn't accept
Life has thrown unexpected and unwanted challenges my way

All these demonic voices may thoughts that I wouldn't reject
Negative thoughts and challenges tested my faith and beliefs

I mean what else is their for me to say
I feel helpless and unsure of what to say or do in response to my past

Thought I was pleasing God, see I worked hard just to watch everything fade away
I thought I was following God's plan, but everything fell apart regardless of my hard work

That's why I would rather not even talk about
I'd rather not dwell on my past and prefer to move forward

I would rather just move on but his Spirit would not allow it
I feel compelled by God to confront my past and use it to grow

Yea I know that I got to just face it
I know that I can't avoid my past and must confront it

And yea I know, that I can't stay complacent
I recognize that I must grow and evolve from my past experiences

Because this place is full of pain, full of shame and regret
My past is filled with difficult experiences and feelings of shame and regret

All its neighbors walk around with a noose around their neck
Those around me are also struggling with the pain of their past

Now their are some great memories, so let me make it clear
Amidst the pain and difficulties of my past, there were also some positive moments

It's a place to visit, but you should never live here
My past should be acknowledged and reflected on, but I shouldn't dwell on it and let it control my present

Another Day stuck in memory lane
Once again, I find myself lost in my past memories

Just reminiscing putting past events on display
I'm replaying past events in my mind, reliving them again

With all my should of could of would of being thrown in my face
I feel regretful over missed opportunities and wonder what could have been

Somebody get me out of this place, I'm going insane
I feel trapped in my past memories and want to move on from them

I can't stay here in memory lane
I know I can't keep dwelling on my past and need to move forward

I surrender the what if and thoughts that lead me astray
I'm letting go of what-ifs and regrets that are holding me back and leading me down the wrong path

I let them go so I can grow and learn to trust in your ways
I'm working on letting go of past regrets and focusing on trusting in God's plan for me

So no more strolling down memory lane, I'm leaving memory lane
I'm actively choosing to move forward from my past and not dwell on those memories anymore

I've reminisced about everyone who has let me down
I've reflected on those who have disappointed me in my past

Broken promises and blessings that were hand me downs
I've experienced broken promises and inherited blessings rather than earning them myself

See I've dealt with disappointments and resentments
I struggled with negative feelings towards those who have hurt me in my past

Stuck in my past, it's hard to lay hold of my present
Dwelling on my past experiences make it difficult to fully enjoy and engage with the present moment

Struggling to unwrap the gifts that God has given me
I'm having a hard time recognizing and appreciating the positive aspects of my present and future

Full time employee for a company called misery
I feel like I'm constantly dealing with difficulties and pain, leading me to feel stuck in a negative cycle

No benefits or sick time, vacations never mind
I feel like I can't escape my problems and difficulties, leading me to feel burnt out

Imprisoned by my thoughts I'm slap-boxing with the hands of time
I feel trapped and stuck in my negative thought patterns and can't escape them, feeling like I'm constantly fighting against time itself

I can't believe these things have happened to me
I'm struggling to come to terms with the negative experiences in my past and how they've impacted me

In a club of aces for the Lord, thought this was V.I.P
I thought I was living a blessed life and was part of a select group of favored people, but reality was different

Guess that's what happens when you think of yourself higher than you ought to
I realized that my own arrogance and overconfidence led me astray and made things worse

A gravity check to reveal the sequel, a part two
I have been brought back down to earth and forced to confront the reality of my past

Abram to Abraham, Jacob to Israel
Like Biblical characters before me, I've undergone a transformation and growth

Blaze to now Dross, different name but still lyrical
I've transformed from who I was in the past to who I am today, but I'm still a creative person with lyrical talent

Empirical data to show you where I stand
I have evidence to show how much I've grown and how I've changed for the better

Miracles follow me now because I know who I am
Because I've grown and changed, I'm now seeing positive things happen to me and feel more confident in myself

So now you can see me singing my heart out in the rain
I'm embracing my emotions and expressing them in a healthy way, even in difficult circumstances

Though the oppositions great I stay pushing against the grain
Despite facing adversity, I'm continuing to work towards my goals and push forward

It's not numbing to my heart because I'm still feel all the pain
I'm not simply ignoring or repressing my emotions, but rather processing them in a healthy way

I'd rather have outlook than stare through a window that's stained
I prefer to have a positive outlook on life and my future rather than dwelling on negative experiences from my past

I prefer to look ahead than be haunted by what's behind
I'm choosing to move forward and not let the negative experiences of my past affect my future

I would hate to miss my purpose because of a covet eye
I don't want to be held back by selfish desires and miss out on my potential and purpose

No more lies or regrets, God I know I'm your son
I'm choosing to let go of negative thoughts and regrets and embrace my identity as a child of God

Here's my heart and my mind so your will can be done
I'm surrendering to God's plan for my life and allowing Him to guide my path