Nowadays
D. Sabella Lyrics

My eyes get red when i tell this story
I become emotional and teary-eyed when recounting this experience

I found one girl thats for me
I believed that I had found the perfect girl for me

But this mix aint covered in glory
However, our relationship did not turn out well and there were many problems

It ended bad nowadays are stormy
Our relationship ended in a negative way and now my days feel turbulent and tumultuous

Nowadays i'm wondering who you're talking to
Currently, I am curious about the people with whom you are having conversations

Nowadays i hope you know i'm missing you
In the present, I wish for you to understand that I am longing for your presence

Nowadays i hope you're really missing me
These days, I hope that you truly feel a sense of longing for me as well

Even though you probably don't cause of the things i did to you
Even though you most likely do not miss me due to the negative actions I took towards you

Now it's like everyday is something about you
Now, it feels like every day is consumed by thoughts and memories of you

Can't even get through a day without thinking about you
I am unable to go through a single day without constantly thinking about you

Losing you was something that i never thought i'd do
I never expected to lose you and it is something that deeply hurts me

I was wrong, now you telling me to go find someone new
I made a mistake and now you are advising me to seek a new romantic partner

Now you say i should give up. you say im wasting time
You now suggest that I should abandon my pursuit of a relationship with you as it is futile and time-consuming

But what we had was true love and i just want you to be mine
However, our relationship was founded on genuine love and all I desire is for you to be in a committed relationship with me

Yeah i know i made a mistake, i wish i could take em back
Yes, I acknowledge that I made a mistake and I deeply regret my past actions

I know i left you hurt and i wish i never had and
I am aware that I caused you pain and I sincerely wish that I had never hurt you

Thought that we were meant to be, yeah
I believed that we were destined to be together

Maybe it was just a dream, yeah
Perhaps it was only a fantasy or illusion

Nowadays all i really think about is you with me
Currently, all I can think about is being in a relationship with you

But i'm trapped thinking that i'm losing my mind
However, I am mentally stuck and constantly feel like I am going insane

When i know thats its only you on my mind
Even though I am aware that you are the only person occupying my thoughts

And i wish there that i could go backward in time
I deeply desire to travel back in time to correct the mistakes and regrets of our relationship

To make things right then maybe you'd be mine
In doing so, I hope to rectify the past and potentially reignite a romantic connection with you

But now i'm stuck to rapping about all my feelings
However, I find myself limited to expressing my emotions through rap music

Would you even care if i disappeared or was missing
I wonder if you would even show concern or care if I were to disappear or be absent from your life

An hour is a decade a minute a whole year
Time feels extremely elongated, with an hour feeling like a decade and a minute seeming like an entire year

A second like a day when i still don't have you here
Each second feels like a prolonged day when I am still missing your presence

And i'm just so afraid but i can't hide from fear
I am filled with fear and anxiety, but I am unable to conceal or escape from these emotions

And it's getting harder every day holding all these tears
Day by day, it becomes increasingly difficult to hold back and contain my tears

Yeah i know it's been a while since we last spoke
I am aware that it has been a long time since our last conversation

I had a couple questions i wanted to ask you
There are a few inquiries that I wanted to pose to you

Do you ever think of me, do i cross your mind
Do you ever contemplate about me? Am I ever present in your thoughts?

Even though i prolly don't that's my fault
Even though I most likely do not occupy your thoughts, this lack of presence is my own fault

Nowadays don't care who you talking to
Nowadays, I do not care about the individuals with whom you engage in conversation

Nowadays i ain't really missing you
Currently, I am not genuinely longing for your presence

Nowadays i hope you ain't missing me
Recently, I hope that you do not have a strong desire for my company

Even though you probably don't cause of the things i did to you
Although it is likely that you do not miss me due to the negative actions I took towards you

Nowadays don't care who you talking to
Nowadays, I am indifferent towards the people with whom you converse

Nowadays i ain't really missing you
Currently, I do not genuinely long for your presence

Nowadays i hope you ain't missing me
Presently, I wish for you to not have a strong desire for my company

Even though you probably don't, but i'm busy forgetting you
Although it is likely that you do not miss me, I am preoccupied with trying to forget about you

I took the blame for everything that happened
I accepted responsibility for all the events and outcomes that occurred

Then i realized that you were keeping me distracted
Subsequently, I came to the realization that you were intentionally diverting my attention and focus

Trapped in all your love and you knew what you were doing
Your love held me captive in a way that you were fully aware of and intended

You couldn't let me go so you lied, it was abusing
You were unable to release me from your grasp, so you resorted to deceit, causing emotional harm and manipulation

But now i'm doing better and i finally let you go
However, I am currently in a better state of mind and I have finally released myself from your influence

But why does it matter when you never cared before
But why does it hold significance now when you never showed care or concern in the past

You treated me like shit and you broke my fucking heart
You treated me poorly and shattered my emotional well-being

And now i'm finally happy cause we will always be apart, uh
And now, I have found happiness because we will forever remain separated from each other

My eyes got red when i told this story i thought that girl was for me
My eyes became teary when I recounted this narrative, as I truly believed that this girl was meant for me

Now this mix is covered in glory. it ended bad but nowadays it's funny
Now, this situation is looked upon with a sense of pride and triumph, despite the negative outcome it initially had

Eyes got red when i told this story
My eyes became teary when I recounted this narrative

I thought that girl was for me
I genuinely believed that this girl was meant to be with me

Now this mix is covered in glory
Now, this situation is seen as a source of pride and triumph

It ended bad nowadays its funny
Despite the negative result, it is now seen as amusing or ironic