Never Be The Same
DED STARK Lyrics

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I’m still
Gettin hi by myself every day to numb the pain
Gettin by just enough to justify it in my brain
I’ll be fine I don’t need help even tho I feel insane
Wasting time now I’ve changed my life will never be the same

Ain’t no clean slate, that shit is permanently stained
Like a Cheapskate, I dust it off to use again

Ain’t no Briefcase, I never tried to be a man
Ain’t no free space, it’s a game that I can’t understand

I had a plan
But That shit fell through my hands

Time to adapt
Cuz imma die if I can’t

Gettin hi by myself every day to numb the pain
Gettin by just enough to justify it in my brain
I’ll be fine I don’t need help even tho I feel insane
Wasting time now I’ve changed my life will never be the same

My life will never be the same
My life will never be the same
My life will never be the same

Gettin wasted in my fuckin room again
Fuckin wasted another afternoon again
Can’t erase all the stress and anxiety
Gettin chased by the demon that’s inside of me

I been feelin like a heathen as of recent
It’s hard to even keep believing that I’m decent
I can change up in a day like every season
And I hate to say that I don’t even know the reason

Gettin hi by myself every day to numb the pain
Gettin by just enough to justify it in my brain
I’ll be fine I don’t need help even tho I feel insane
Wasting time now I’ve changed my life will never be the same

Gettin hi by myself every day to numb the pain
Gettin by just enough to justify it in my brain
I’ll be fine I don’t need help even tho I feel insane
Wasting time now I’ve changed my life will never be the same

My life will never be the same

My life will never be the same
My life will never be the same

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to "Never Be the Same" by DED STARK portray a sense of self-destructiveness and desperation. The singer is caught in a cycle of using drugs and alcohol to numb their pain, but they justify their behavior in their own mind. Despite feeling insane, they believe they don't need help and that they'll be fine. However, the realization sets in that their life has changed, and it will never be the same again.

The use of metaphors like "Ain’t no clean slate, that shit is permanently stained" and "Like a Cheapskate, I dust it off to use again" suggests that the singer is stuck in their destructive habits, unable to break free. They acknowledge that they had a plan, but it fell through their hands, leaving them no choice but to adapt or die. This highlights the desperation they feel.

The repeated line, "Gettin hi by myself every day to numb the pain," emphasizes the singer's reliance on substances as a coping mechanism. They try to justify their actions in their brain, indicating their struggle with guilt and shame. The lyrics also touch on the internal battle the singer faces, feeling like a heathen and struggling to believe they are decent.

Overall, the lyrics speak to the depths of the singer's struggles with addiction, self-acceptance, and the realization that their life has changed forever.

Line by Line Meaning

I’m still
I am currently in a stagnant state

Gettin hi by myself every day to numb the pain
I consume drugs alone daily to escape from emotional distress

Gettin by just enough to justify it in my brain
I barely manage to function, convincing myself that it's acceptable

I’ll be fine I don’t need help even tho I feel insane
I convince myself that I can handle it alone, despite feeling mentally unstable

Wasting time now I’ve changed my life will never be the same
I have wasted precious time and my life has been permanently altered

Ain’t no clean slate, that shit is permanently stained
I can't start over fresh, my past has left irreversible marks

Like a Cheapskate, I dust it off to use again
Similar to being frugal, I try to reuse and dismiss my past mistakes

Ain’t no Briefcase, I never tried to be a man
I have not made an effort to fulfill societal expectations of manhood

Ain’t no free space, it’s a game that I can’t understand
There's no room for freedom, life seems like a perplexing game

I had a plan
I once had a clear goal

But That shit fell through my hands
Unfortunately, my plan slipped away from my grasp

Time to adapt
It's now necessary to adjust

Cuz imma die if I can’t
Because if I can't adapt, it feels like my life is at risk

Gettin wasted in my fuckin room again
I find solace in getting intoxicated alone in my room

Fuckin wasted another afternoon again
Another afternoon where I've wasted my time while being intoxicated

Can’t erase all the stress and anxiety
I am unable to eliminate the overwhelming feelings of stress and anxiety

Gettin chased by the demon that’s inside of me
I'm constantly pursued by my internal demons

I been feelin like a heathen as of recent
Lately, I've been feeling immoral or wicked

It’s hard to even keep believing that I’m decent
It's challenging to maintain the belief that I am a good person

I can change up in a day like every season
I have the ability to transform my demeanor rapidly, like the changing of seasons

And I hate to say that I don’t even know the reason
Regrettably, I can't even identify the cause of my behavior

My life will never be the same
My existence will forever be altered