About You
Daisy Gray Lyrics

I led you on foolishly
I gave you false hope and misled you.

Cause I got a fear of you leaving me
I am afraid of losing you and that fear makes me act in a certain way.

Why do I, why do I do that to you
I question my own actions and why I behave the way I do towards you.

This is hell but I love the heat
Being in this situation is difficult, but I still value and want to be a part of it.

You always try, you try but it's killing me
You attempt to make things better, but it is still causing me pain.

I can't lie, when I cry it's not over you
My tears are not related to anything else, but my emotions for you.

But why do I find myself breaking down in front of you
I am vulnerable in front of you and tend to express my true emotions around you.

On the kitchen floor
This is the location where I break down emotionally.

You try to save me but we both know that this is something we can't ignore
You support me, but we realize that the situation cannot be overlooked and must be addressed.

There's no excuses left inside of my brain
I have no valid reasons or explanations for my actions left to give.

So I'm taking the blame
I am accepting responsibility for the situation and its effects.

I guess that I'm not the same
I realize that I have changed and am no longer the same person as before.

Your pure intentions make me feel so ashamed
I feel guilty for not reciprocating your good intentions towards me.

And all my reasons have names
I have specific reasons or justifications for my actions towards you.

This ain't about you (repeat)
The situation is not your fault and is not related to you, hence you should not blame yourself.

I lead you on to find a cure
I gave you false hope to solve or fix something.

Wants you to stay but there's an open door
I want you to stay, but there are other opportunities or options available.

I'm sorry, I know I play with your heart
I apologize for playing with your emotions and leading you on.

And you deserve the best of me
You deserve the best treatment and actions from me, which I am unable to provide at the moment.

But that's been left in my history
My past self or actions would have provided you with the best version of me, which I am no longer able to offer.

Unspoken, but I'm broken
I don't express my emotional turmoil, but it still exists and affects me.

Tearing apart
The situation is causing me to break down emotionally and mentally.

You don't deserve this
You do not deserve to be put through this situation.

I can't be worth this
I do not believe that I am deserving of such behavior or actions from you.

I'm not even trying
I am not actively attempting to provide a solution or make things better.

But you're still here fighting
Despite the situation, you are still trying to make things work and support me.