Epilogue
Danielle P. Roger Lyrics

I rewatch the same old shows
I find comfort in familiar things, so I often watch the same TV shows again

Read the epilogue first just so I know
I like to read the ending of a book first to know what will happen

What to expect
So that I can anticipate and prepare for what's to come

I like books cause they're tangible, romantical
I enjoy physical books because they have a special and romantic quality to them

An Imaginary cast on an empty movie set
Books create a vivid world in my mind, like a movie set with imaginary characters

And I'm here to direct
I want to be in control of my own story

I keep the same group of friends
I maintain my friendships despite their repeated disappointments

Even when they disappoint time and time again
Even though they consistently let me down

Cause it's bad luck to break instead of mend
I believe it's unlucky to end friendships instead of trying to fix them

So I try to reach out, people I care about
I make an effort to connect with the people I care about

Just to get left on read
But sometimes they ignore or disregard my messages

Is this loneliness real or all in my head
I question whether my feelings of loneliness are genuine or just imagined

Oh If tears left scars I'd be one with the stars
If the emotional pain I feel manifested physically, I would be covered in scars, like the stars in the sky

Maybe it's not so bad on Jupiter or Mars
Perhaps being in a different place, like Jupiter or Mars, would make the pain more bearable

And If I could be okay with being constantly afraid, maybe I'd make some of the pain go away
If I could accept and embrace my constant fear, perhaps it would alleviate some of my emotional pain

There's no way to gain control
I feel powerless and unable to take control of my life

There's no way to feel whole
I struggle to find a sense of fulfillment and completeness

There's no way let things go
I find it difficult to let go of things and move on

I don't like what I don't know
I feel uncomfortable and uneasy when faced with uncertainty

If comparison is the killer of joy
Comparing myself to others only brings me sadness

I guess my brain built to destroy
It seems like my mind is wired to bring me down and destroy my happiness

Cause I wish to look like you instead of me
I have a desire to be someone else instead of embracing my own identity

Trust me I wish i didn't give it so much power
I truly wish I didn't allow these negative thoughts and insecurities to have such control over me

But the nerves grow fast like petals to flowers
However, these feelings of anxiety and self-doubt keep multiplying and growing rapidly

And the expectations are getting louder and louder
The pressure and expectations from both myself and others are becoming increasingly overwhelming

What if I grow up to be a criminal
I worry about the possibility of becoming someone who does wrong and breaks the law

Cursing out neighbors who think I'm cynical
Imagining myself angrily arguing with neighbors who perceive me as negative and distrustful

Imagine the worst case scenario
I often dwell on and envision the most negative and disastrous outcomes

I can't let it go
I struggle to move past these negative thoughts and fears

What if I grow up to be too critical
I fear becoming someone who excessively judges and criticizes others

Annoying kid making everything political
I envision myself as a bothersome person who turns every situation into a political debate

The worst possible case scenario
I constantly imagine the absolute worst things that could happen

I can't let it go
I can't seem to release my grip on these negative thoughts

What I don't know
I have a dislike towards things that are unknown or uncertain

I don't like
I have a strong aversion to

I don't like what I don't know
I feel uneasy and unhappy when faced with unfamiliar situations or information