The Gate
David Dallas Lyrics

And somehow say goodbye
Leaving is not easy, but I need to say goodbye.

Pretend I’m yawning
I'm hiding my true emotions and pretending to be disinterested.

The hottest tears in my eyes
I'm crying inside and trying to keep it hidden.

I’m just tired, right?
I'm using fatigue as an excuse to mask my true feelings.

It’s an early flight
I need to leave soon and catch a plane.

I had a late night, packing up
I was up late packing my things before leaving.

Couple files I was backing up
I needed to save important files before leaving.

Guess I’m starting acting up
I'm feeling emotional and acting out of character.

It’s hard enough as it is
Leaving is already difficult, but it's even harder when you have someone else to think of.

If I don’t go, I can’t say that I lived!
I need to leave and experience life outside of my current situation.

And then it will be impossible to forgive myself
If I don't go, I will regret it and I won't be able to forgive myself.

I don’t try to make a better life for us …
I'm leaving to make a better life for us, even though it's difficult.

Is all I’ve got! I wish there was another way!
Leaving is my only option, but I wish there was another way to make things work.

Wishing that the industry was closed and the home,
I wish I could stay home instead of working in this industry.

Cause every other day I set and guessing myself
I'm constantly questioning my decisions and doubting myself.

Asking if I really got it
I'm unsure if I have what it takes to succeed.

My worst fear is that you’ll ever be out of pocket.
I'm worried that leaving will negatively impact you financially.

All I ever wanted to be was a bread winner
I want to provide for us financially and be successful.

For everyday I stick around here my chance gets slimmer
If I stay, my chances of success decrease each day.

My faith gets thinner
My faith in my ability to succeed is decreasing.

And try something that you can’t take with you!
I'm taking a risk and trying something new, even though it's uncertain.

Wish I could take your load, take your load
I wish I could take your burdens away and make it easier for you.

It will be easier to carry this load
If I could take your load, it would be less difficult for both of us.

That’s my plan
I want to make things easier for us.

But it’s boring now, they just call out my name
I'm becoming successful, but it's not as exciting as I thought it would be.

So my feelings won’t change
Even though I'm successful, my feelings about leaving haven't changed.

But it’s just no more I can do for us
I've done all that I can to make things better for us.

If my mind wants to stay
Even though I'm leaving, my heart still wants to stay with you.

Thank God you feel the same
I'm grateful that you understand and feel the same way.

Tell me no tears at the gate!
I don't want us to cry when it's time to say goodbye.

Know that I’ll be back again
I'll come back and visit as soon as I can.

If I try and… alive
If I don't leave, we won't survive.

But if I’ve cut the head off, then we won’t survive!
If I don't succeed, it will be difficult for both of us to survive.

I hope this bond is strong enough to stop the guillotine
I hope our relationship is strong enough to overcome the challenges of my leaving.

Cause I know that you’ll be missing on the little things!
I know you'll miss me and the little things about our life together.

And so I missed them, kissing the morning, missed them
I'll miss the little things too, like kissing you in the morning.

I got the work, mister reassurance talks
I'll be busy with work and trying to reassure you that I still care.

The massage on my shoulders hurt.
I'm stressed and my shoulders are tense from worrying about leaving.

Missed your touch and it’s nothing to replace that
I'll miss your touch and there's nothing that can replace it.

Hope you’re never stupid enough to think you can forsake that!
I hope you never forget how much I care about you and our relationship.

I know you feel the same!
I know you feel the same way about our relationship.

I hear that worry in your voice, I don’t feel the pain
I know you're worried, but I'm not feeling as much pain about leaving as you are.

Promise soon things will be real again
Things will eventually get better and feel real again for both of us.

And we can visit all these places that remain!
We can still visit the places that are meaningful to us and make new memories.

One thing’s for sure is my feelings will never change
Even though I'm leaving, my feelings for you will never change.