Molotov
Dead Silent Lyrics

Got a lot on my mind, can't let it go
I have many thoughts and concerns that I can't stop thinking about

Still got a lot that I want, Imma get it though
Despite my current situation, I still have many desires and I am determined to achieve them

Right now I'm at the pinnacle
At this moment, I am at the highest point of my success or achievement

And they always wanna say it gets better someday, I'm a cynic tho
Others often try to reassure me that things will improve in the future, but I am skeptical and doubtful

Turned cold, need a winter coat
I have become emotionally detached and distant, requiring protection from the coldness I feel

I'm a living ghost
I feel like an invisible being, barely existing in this world

Tried, but I never once fit the mold
I made efforts to conform, but I always felt like I didn't belong or fit societal expectations

Lost the map, I'm never getting home
I have lost my sense of direction and purpose, feeling like I will never find my way back to where I belong

Don't give me hope, just
I don't want false expectations or optimism, instead

Lay low, integrate a pay flow
I prefer to stay unnoticed and blend in while finding a steady income source

Only way they get paid, taking out a bank loan
Others resort to borrowing money from a bank as their only means of earning income

Lot of fakes, never entertain those
I don't engage or associate with fake or insincere individuals

Drake clones
Referring to people who imitate the style or persona of the artist Drake, lacking originality

I'm original, your cover stay blown
I am unique and authentic, exposing the shallowness or lack of originality in others

I'm a king, so they call me pharaoh
I consider myself powerful and influential, being compared to ancient Egyptian royalty

And the girls still going feral
Women are still displaying wild or untamed behavior towards me

At your throat like a chain smoke
They are aggressively confrontational, constantly causing conflict and tension

And I came from the dirt like a gravestone
I originated from a difficult and humble beginning, like the earth from which a gravestone is made

Here to ruin your day
I am present to intentionally disrupt or negatively impact your day or mood

This what I learned, isn't how I was raised
The knowledge or behavior I have acquired is not aligned with the way I was brought up

Blue in the face
I am exhausted from repeatedly expressing a point or argument, but not being heard or understood

Making you swerve, you can stay out of my way
Causing you to divert or change your course, you are advised to avoid crossing me

Angel on my shoulder
A metaphorical representation of my conscience or moral guidance

Didn't change when I got older
Despite growing older, my fundamental values or principles remain the same

And he thinks he's taking over
My conscience believes it is gaining control or influence over my thoughts and actions

Told him bye, wasn't great to know ya
I dismiss my conscience, as it wasn't positively impacting my life

I say la la la
I express a carefree or nonchalant attitude

As if everything was okay
Acting as though all is well and normal

Watch me sabotage everything doing great
Witness how I intentionally undermine or destroy everything that is progressing positively

I got a molotov if you wanna get in the way
I possess a metaphorical incendiary device that I can use to retaliate if you obstruct my path or goals

My inhibitions are fighting to keep me sane
My inner fears and doubts are struggling to prevent me from losing my sanity

If I'm in control
Considering my level of authority or influence

Then why can't I get up and go?
If I have the power to determine my direction, why am I unable to take action and move forward?

Am I at the end of my rope
Have I reached a point of extreme frustration or desperation?

Or just getting sat at the edge of my throne?
Alternatively, am I being figuratively pushed to the brink of losing my power or control?

Don't agree with the witch
I don't agree or align myself with a deceitful or manipulative person

She tell me to follow the yellow brick road
She advises me to follow a path towards a seemingly hopeful or promising destination

My life is a movie but I never know when the credits'll roll
My life feels like a never-ending film, where I am uncertain when the end or resolution will occur

Still waiting on a miracle though
I am still hoping for a miraculous event or outcome

Other side greener grass, but it's miracle-gro
The grass appears greener on the other side, but it is artificially enhanced or not as authentic as it seems

Sometimes can't tell if I'm steering the boat
At times, I am uncertain if I am in control of my own life or if external forces are guiding it

Or left dead in the water, and barely keeping afloat
Alternatively, I might feel stagnant and barely managing to survive, without making progress

Villian of the story
I am portrayed as the antagonist or villain in my personal narrative

Think it's better for me
I believe it is more beneficial or advantageous for me

Tried to be the hero
I attempted to fulfill the role of the hero or protagonist

That was getting boring
However, that became uninteresting or monotonous

Let the plot thicken
Allow the story or situation to become more complex or intriguing

Let the anger build
Allow my anger and frustration to intensify

So I can let it out
So I can eventually express or release my emotions

Whenever I'm recording
Usually when I am in the process of creating music or recording my thoughts

Showing up is like half the battle
Merely showing up or being present is only a portion of the challenges or struggles faced

But it turned me bitter, filled me up on ammo
However, it caused me to become resentful and stocked with ammunition or grievances

Old self, left in the gallows
My former or past self was abandoned or left in a state of decay or disgrace

Somehow still caught living in his shadow
In some way, I am still trapped or affected by the influence of my previous self

Showed love but they ain't once reciprocated
I expressed affection or kindness towards others, but they never returned the same gesture

Matter fact, got manipulated
In fact, I was deceived or exploited

Spit on, backstabbed, and humiliated
I was disrespected, betrayed, and made to feel embarrassed or ashamed

Friendliness level got dissipated
My willingness or ability to be friendly or trusting diminished

I feel the hate
I sense or perceive the strong presence of animosity or resentment

Don't think it's better to push you away
I don't believe it is advantageous to distance myself from you

I know it's wrong, mouth has been taped
I am aware that it is incorrect, but I feel silenced or unable to speak up

Holding my tongue, the words still escape
Even though I try to restrain my speech, the words still manage to come out