Novocaine
DempseyRollBoy Lyrics

Every night the light fades, my happiness goes with it
As the day ends, my joy and contentment vanish as well.

When your heart broke and you′re scarred and you can't stitch it
When you've been hurt so badly that fixing yourself seems impossible.

There′s something missing in me, a space that I can't fill in
I feel incomplete as if a significant part of me is absent that can never be fulfilled.

There's got to be an answer out there but what is it?
I know there must be a solution to my struggles, but I don't know what it is.

I'm second guessing everything I feel inside within
I doubt all of my emotions, and I'm uncertain about my inner self.

I'm insecure, I'm sad, I'm not comfortable in my skin
I lack confidence, I'm depressed, and I don't feel at ease in my body.

I never chose to be me or live in this life of sin
I never had a say in how I turned out, nor did I choose the sinful world I inhabit.

Some say better days are ahead, but I'm not convinced
Some people claim that things will get better, but I'm sceptical.

I lost everything I had, there′s nothing left to obtain
I've lost all my possessions, and there's nothing left for me to acquire.

I'm followed by grey clouds, I'm over this shit, I'm drained
I am always surrounded by gloom, and I'm beyond exhausted by all of this.

Drowning in emotions, I'm drenched in December rain
My emotions are overwhelming me, and it's as if I'm submerged in rainwater.

I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine
I'll find a way to dull my agony, even if it means using Novocaine.

Pathetic but poetic, I'm irrelevant to most
I may seem pitiful, but my poetic side is something most people overlook.

All I need is anaesthetics then I'll be okay to go
All I require is an anaesthetic, and I'll be able to move on.

Give me everything you got, I don't care if I overdose
I want everything you can offer, and I'm unafraid of overdosing.

Cuz I'll be a lost cause until I'm decomposed
Because nothing will change until I perish.

Time is ticking, what's the difference If I wanna end it sooner?
Since my life is limited, what's the point of waiting to end it?

Losin' interest, I don't listen, I don't think about the future
I'm losing excitement for life, I don't pay attention, and I'm failing to plan for the future.

I'm psychotic, real talk, I got a twisted sense of humour
I have some serious mental health problems, and I have a dark sense of humour.

Man, I wish that I was cooler but I'm just a fuckin' loser
I wish I was more likeable, but in reality, I'm a total failure.

Quit misleading me repeatedly and tricking me with words
Please stop deceiving me over and over again with your words.

They deceive me, now they leaving me, they kick me to the curb
They cheat me, and then they abandon me, disregarding me entirely.

If I cut myself cuz of them, they won't even be concerned
Even if I harm myself because of them, they won't care in the slightest.

That is no exaggeration, I just speak what I observe
I'm not exaggerating; I'm only speaking the truth about what I'm experiencing.

God I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live
I might be approaching the end of my rope, and I don't believe I want to continue living.

I wonder what my purpose is, I wonder what it is
I'm questioning what the point of my existence is.

I'm a disappointment, I got nothin' left to give
I'm a major letdown, and I have nothing more to offer.

You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same
You haven't experienced what I'm going through, so we're not comparable.

I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine
I'll seek a method to eliminate my anguish, even if it's using Novocaine.