If I Could
Denace A.K.A. Nasty Lyrics

Ohh
Introducing the song with an emotional tone.

Ohh oh oh oh oh oh
Reiterating the introduction with more emphasis and passion.

Mmm
Adding a somber and mournful tone to the song.

Yeahh
Expressing agreement to a sentiment, possibly to the idea that the singer is at fault for the loved one's absence.

I can't help but to think that it's all my fault
Admitting personal responsibility for the loved one's absence, expressing regret, and feeling guilty.

That you're not here with me
Expressing sorrow and loneliness for the absence of the loved one.

If I could sell my soul for one more call
Desiring to do anything to hear or see the loved one again, even if it meant putting one's soul on the line.

If I could just say one thing
Wishing for the opportunity to express one's feelings to the loved one.

Oh It's been 2 months since you've been gone
Reflecting on the amount of time that has passed since the loved one's absence.

And she still can't see herself alone
Implying that the absence of the loved one has also affected someone else deeply, possibly a family member or friend.

My mistakes yeah they been eating me alive
Acknowledging that personal errors have caused distress and sadness.

If I didn't make em maybe you'd still be alive
Suggesting that the singer's mistakes might have led to the loved one's death.

Oh I think about that everyday
Revealing that the singer constantly reflects on the idea of personal responsibility for the loved one's absence or death.

Oh It always crosses my mind
Emphasizing the frequent and constant thought about the loved one.

(It always crosses my mind)
Repeating the previous line, used for emphasis.

I would tell you that I'm sorry
Expressing remorse and contrition for personal mistakes that led to the loved one's absence or death.

I would tell you what's been on my mind
Desiring to share inner thoughts, feelings, and emotions with the loved one.

All this shit that I've been feeling is haunting
Conveying that personal emotions and feelings have become overwhelming and affect daily life.

If I could really be honest
Desiring to be truthful and genuine with the loved one if given the chance.

I would tell you I still cry at night
Sharing the emotional pain and exhaustion of personal mistakes and the absence of the loved one.

I missed the family trip cause they ain't want my mom to cry when she saw me
Explaining how others deal with the singer's grief and feelings of personal responsibility in a familial context.

I know it still hurt...
Realizing that the loved one's absence or death still affect the singer deeply.

I mean I... I know it's not literally my fault but...
Admitting a nuanced perspective of the situation, where the singer is still affected by the loved one's absence or death but acknowledging that there may be multiple factors involved.

If I had just handled things differently that day I...
Reflecting on past actions and behaviors that could have affected the loved one's absence or death.

I don't know...
Expressing uncertainty and distress over the situation.

Maybe things would be different you know?
Reflecting on the possibility of changing circumstances if actions had been different.

That's why I... I blame myself
Reiterating the personal responsibility and guilt for the loved one's absence or death.

Oh I can't help but to think that it's all my fault
Repeating the central idea of personal responsibility and guilt.

Oh if I could sell my soul for one more call
Emphasizing the importance of contact and communication with the loved one for the singer.

If I could just say one more thing
Desiring to communicate personal feelings, thoughts, and emotions with the loved one.

I would tell you that I'm sorry...
Reiterating the desire to express remorse and contrition to the loved one.

I'm so sorry...
Expressing intense emotion and regret for personal mistakes that led to the loved one's absence or death.

I miss you like crazy...
Conveying the deep loss and emotional pain experienced by the singer as a result of the loved one's absence or death.

I blame myself...
Reiterating the central idea of personal responsibility and guilt for the loved one's absence or death.