Homesick
Derez De’Shon Lyrics

I never thought I'd be this
I never imagined being in this current state or situation

Way or see this day, lately
The path I'm on and the circumstances I'm facing recently are unexpected

Niggas hatin', bitches fakin', crazy
There are people who dislike and envy me, and women who pretend to care, it's insane

Remember days dreaming I'd make it
I recall the times when I had dreams of achieving success

To this day I can't believe I made it
Even now, it's hard for me to believe that I've actually achieved success

I can't even lie, it's unreal
Honestly, it feels surreal and unbelievable

I can't even explain how I feel
It's difficult for me to put into words the emotions I'm experiencing

I don't even know what's really real
I'm unsure about what is truly genuine or authentic

But if I lost it all, baby would you be here?
However, if I were to lose everything, would you still stand by my side?

Or would you leave me like the rest of 'em
Or would you abandon me like others have done?

Do you just need me like the rest of 'em do?
Do you only want me for your own gain, like the others?

I thought you believed me
I believed that you had faith in me

And really felt somethin'
And genuinely had deep emotions for me

Until you treated me like the rest of 'em do
Until you treated me the same way others have treated me

Yeah, I been on the road for days
Yes, I have been traveling for several days

I ain't been home in days
I haven't been back to my home in a while

And I'm missin' home, yeah
And I'm longing for the comfort and familiarity of my home

I'm missin' home, i'm homesick
I have a deep longing and nostalgia for my home, I'm homesick

Ain't answer my phone for days
I haven't been responding to phone calls for a while

Long nights and longer days
The nights feel never-ending, and the days seem to stretch on forever

And I'm missin' home, yeah
And I'm yearning for my home

I'm missin' home, i'm homesick
I have a strong desire and yearning to return to my home, I'm homesick

I can't even lie, it's unreal
Honestly, it feels unbelievable and surreal

I don't even know how to feel
I'm unsure about my emotions and how to process them

I don't even know what's really real
I'm uncertain about what is genuinely true or authentic

But if I lost it all, baby would you be here?
However, if I were to lose everything, would you still be by my side?

If I lost it all would they
If I were to lose everything, would the people around me

Still keep it real? yeah
Remain genuinely loyal and authentic? Yes

If I lost it all would I still be, real
If I were to lose everything, would I still maintain my authenticity and true self?

Lately I'm gettin' calls from people I
Recently, I've been receiving phone calls from individuals whom I

Ain't talked to in years
Haven't spoken to in many years

Cousin just got out of prison
My cousin was recently released from prison

I hit him and asked what's the deal?
I contacted him and inquired about his current situation

He called me and asked me
He phoned me and inquired

How much was my deal damn, what's the deal?
About the value of my record deal, what's the information?

Sometimes, I wish I could go
At times, I desire to return

Back to the times
To the past

When a nigga didn't have a dime
When I didn't have any money

Everybody broke, on the grind
Everyone was financially struggling and working hard

Wasn't poppin' champagne
There were no extravagant celebrations with champagne

Scrapin' up change for a couple bills
Collecting small coins in order to pay a few bills

Since I got some change, a
Because I now have some money

Lot of shit changed, with me and my peers
Many things have changed in the relationships between me and my friends

I be feelin' like fuck the spotlight
Sometimes, I feel a disdain for the attention and fame

I wanna go back to the block light
I yearn to return to the humble beginnings, where life was simpler

Look at everything I don't got right
Reflecting on all the things I lack or haven't achieved

Was it all worth it 'cause since a nigga
Was it truly worth it because ever since I

Made it I feel like somethin' not right
Achieved success, I have a sense that something is off

I can't tell the truth from the lies
I struggle to distinguish between what is true and what is false

In the coupe with no roof and I'm ridin'
In a convertible car without a roof, and I'm driving

Hit the booth, tell the truth, no lie, no lie
Enter the recording studio and express the honest truth, without any deception or falsehoods