In My Feelings
Derez De’Shon Lyrics

Talkin' 'bout this pain I know I saved niggas
Expressing the pain I have experienced, knowing that I have helped and protected others

Ain't gon' say no names I know I made niggas
I won't reveal specific individuals, but I am aware that I have influenced and impacted their lives

All these fuckin' chains like a slave, nigga
The numerous chains I wear symbolize the feeling of being enslaved, trapped, and controlled

I slaved didn't I?
I worked relentlessly and sacrificed to achieve my success

I was made different
I possess unique qualities and characteristics that set me apart from others

Came from the bottom not the top so I played different
My upbringing in difficult circumstances has shaped my approach and actions in a distinct manner

And that hate different
The animosity I face from others is exceptionally intense and malicious

Uh, wait a minute
Hold on and listen

You the same nigga say I wouldn't make it, say you didn't
You are the exact person who doubted my success and claimed you wouldn't achieve it either

You telling all lies
You are deceitfully spreading false information

They ain't wanna let me in 'cause they knew one day I'd be him
They tried to prevent me from entering certain circles because they were aware I would surpass them in greatness

I'm feeling' like MJ, my tongue out, hangin' off the rim (pause)
I have such confidence and skill that I compare myself to Michael Jordan, sticking my tongue out like his iconic image while effortlessly dominating

Feeling like the G.O.A.T., nigga
I feel like the Greatest of All Time, distinguishing myself as the best

'Member I was broke, nigga
Remember that I was financially destitute

Down bad no hop, nigga
In a desperate and hopeless situation with no prospects

Asking' fo' a short, nigga
Begging for a small amount of money

Never goin' back
Determined to never return to my previous hardships

Knowing that's a fact
Fully aware and certain of this reality

Thumbing through these racks
Counting and handling large sums of money

Thinking 'bout my past
Reflecting on my previous struggles and experiences

And how I use to travel with a trash bag carrying everything a nigga had
Recalling the days when I had so little that I would transport my belongings in a garbage bag

Pain turned a nigga to a beast and I embraced it
The pain I endured transformed me into a fierce and determined individual, and I fully accepted it

Days ain't eat, made me hungry, I can taste it
Experiencing hunger and deprivation for days, intensifying my desire for success and fulfillment

All them days I was weak, wanted to give up, I couldn't take it
During those difficult days, I felt powerless and contemplated quitting, but I was unable to do so

But I couldn't do it looking in my children faces, yeah
I couldn't bring myself to give up because I couldn't disappoint my children

How I still deal with depression
I continue to cope with feelings of depression

All this money I've been blessed with
Despite the wealth I have acquired, which I perceive as a blessing

Really ain't even been stressing
I haven't been overly concerned or worried

My life close to perfection
My life is nearly flawless and ideal

Deep inside all this pain got a nigga addicted
Beneath the surface, the immense pain I have experienced has become an addiction for me

DUI, going crazy, poppin' all this prescription
I indulge in reckless behavior, such as driving under the influence and excessively consuming prescribed medication

It's a very good feeling
Initially, it brings me immense pleasure and satisfaction

'Til I come down, down, down
Until the effects wear off and reality sets in

That's when I get to trippin'
That's when I become agitated and distressed

That when I get to gettin' in my feelings
That's when I become overwhelmed with emotions and sentimentality

That's when I get to missin'
That's when I intensely long for and feel the absence of those who have passed away

All my dead homies dat suppose to be right here with me (yeah)
I mourn the loss of my deceased friends, who were meant to be present alongside me

Don't judge me, no, don't judge me
Please refrain from forming negative opinions and criticisms of me

I get high tryna find focus
I consume substances in an attempt to attain clarity and concentration

'Cause say I'm not, then I'm fighting emotions
Because if I admit I'm not okay, I will struggle with overwhelming emotions

How I still deal with depression
I continue to cope with feelings of depression

All this money I've been blessed with
Despite the wealth I have acquired, which I perceive as a blessing

Really ain't even been stressing
I haven't been overly concerned or worried

My life close to perfection
My life is nearly flawless and ideal

Sometimes I still get in my feelings thinkin' 'bout it, oh (yeah)
Occasionally, I become sentimental and emotional when I reflect on my past experiences

Sometimes I still get in my feelings
At times, I am overcome with emotions and sentimentality

How I still deal with depression
I continue to cope with feelings of depression

All this money I've been blessed with
Despite the wealth I have acquired, which I perceive as a blessing

Really ain't even been stressing
I haven't been overly concerned or worried

My life close to perfection
My life is nearly flawless and ideal

Sometimes I still get in my feelings thinkin' 'bout it, oh, oh
Sometimes, I become sentimental and emotional when I reflect on my past experiences

Sometimes I still get in my feelings thinkin' 'bout it, oh, oh
At times, I am overcome with emotions and sentimentality