Homesick
Derez Deshon Lyrics
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I never thought it'd be this way to see this day, lately
N*ggas hatin' bitches fakin', crazy
Remember days dreaming how I'll make it
To this day I can't believe I made it
I can't even lie it's unreal
I can't even explain how I feel
But if I lost it all baby would you be here?
Or would you leave me like the rest of 'em?
Do you just need me like the rest of 'em do?
I thought you believed me and really felt som'n
Until you treated me like the rest of 'em do
I been on the road for days
I ain't been home in days
And I'm missin' home
Yeah, I'm missin' home
I'm homesick
Ain't answer my phone for days
Long nights and longer days
And I'm missin' home
Yeah, I'm missin' home
I'm homesick
I can't even lie it's unreal
I don't even know how to feel
I don't even know what's really real
But if I lost it all baby would you be here?
If I lost it all would they still keep it real?
If I lost it all would I still be... Real,
Lately I been getting calls from people I ain't talk to in years.
My cousin just got outta prison
I hit him and ask "what's the deal?"
He called me and ask how much was my deal?
Damn, what's the deal?
Sometimes, I wish I could go back to the time
When a n*gga didn't have a dime
Everybody broke on the grind
Wasn't poppin' Champagne
Swiping up chains for a couple bills
Since I got some change a lot o' Shit changed
Wit me and my peers
I been feelin' like "fuck the spotlight"
I wanna go back to the block life
Look at everything Ion got right
Was it all worth it 'cuz since a nigga made it som'n not right
I can tell the truth from the lies
In the coupe with no roof when I'm ridin'
Hit the booth, tell the truth, no lie
No lie
I been on the road for days
I ain't been home in days
And I'm missin' home
Yeah, I'm missin' home
I'm homesick
Ain't answer my phone for days
Long nights and longer days
And I'm missin' home
Yeah, I'm missin' home
I'm homesick
I can't even lie it's unreal
I don't even know how to feel
I don't even know what's really real
But if I lost it all baby would you be here?
If I lost it all would they still keep it real?
If I lost it all would I still be...
I been on the road for days
I ain't been home in days
And I'm missin' home
Yeah, I'm missin' home
I'm homesick
Ain't answer my phone for days
Long nights and longer days
And I'm missin' home
Yeah, I'm missin' home
I'm homesick
I can't even lie it's unreal
I don't even know how to feel
I don't even know what's really real
But if I lost it all baby would you be here?
If I lost it all would they still keep it real?
If I lost it all would I still be...
Derez Deshon's "Homesick" is a heartfelt and introspective song that speaks to the dizzying highs and crushing lows of success as an artist. The song opens with a contemplative mood as Deshon reflects on his journey and how surreal it is to have made it to where he is today, amidst all the haters and fakeness around him. He feels conflicted and unsure about what is real and who he can truly trust, wondering whether those who claim to believe in him will still be there if he lost everything he has. This uncertainty culminates in a nostalgic longing for home, a place where he can be himself and find solace in the simple things.
The chorus of the song is a repetition of the phrase "I'm homesick", which conveys an intense longing for the familiar and comforting feeling of home. Deshon is currently on the road and has not been back home in days, which is taking a toll on him emotionally. He feels lost and disconnected from his roots, wondering whether he has lost himself in the pursuit of money and fame.
Towards the end of the song, Deshon reflects on how much his life has changed since he started making money and how he sometimes wishes he could go back to the simpler times when he was broke but happy. He expresses a desire to return to the "block life", where he feels more grounded and in touch with his real self. However, he also acknowledges that success has its perks, such as being able to tell the truth and not having to lie to get ahead.
In summary, "Homesick" is a poignant reflection on the emotional and psychological toll of success as an artist, and how it can make one feel disconnected from their roots and long for the simple things in life. It also touches on the complexities of trust and loyalty in the music industry, where everyone seems to have an agenda.
Line by Line Meaning
I never thought it'd be this way to see this day, lately
I never imagined that I would be experiencing this kind of life lately.
N*ggas hatin' bitches fakin', crazy
People around me are hating and women are fake, it's crazy.
Remember days dreaming how I'll make it
I remember the days when I was dreaming of making it big.
To this day I can't believe I made it
Even today, I still can't believe that I have made it this far.
I can't even lie it's unreal
I can't even deny that this feels unreal.
I can't even explain how I feel
I can't accurately describe how I am feeling right now.
I don't even know what's really real
I am not sure what is truly real in this situation.
But if I lost it all baby would you be here?
If everything falls apart, would you still be here with me?
Or would you leave me like the rest of 'em?
Or would you leave me like everyone else?
Do you just need me like the rest of 'em do?
Do you just need me like everyone else does?
I thought you believed me and really felt som'n
I believed that you had faith in me and truly felt something for me.
Until you treated me like the rest of 'em do
Until you started treating me like everyone else does.
I been on the road for days
I have been on the road for a long time.
I ain't been home in days
I have not been home for days now.
And I'm missin' home
And I am feeling homesick.
Ain't answer my phone for days
I haven't been answering my phone for days now.
Long nights and longer days
Days are long and nights seem longer.
But if I lost it all baby would you be here?
If everything falls apart, would you still be here with me?
If I lost it all would they still keep it real?
If everything falls apart, would they still be genuine with me?
If I lost it all would I still be... Real,
If everything falls apart, would I still be true to myself?
Sometimes, I wish I could go back to the time
At times, I desire to go back to a time in the past.
When a n*gga didn't have a dime
When I was broke and had no money.
Everybody broke on the grind
Everyone was broke and hustling.
Wasn't poppin' Champagne
We weren't celebrating with Champagne.
Swiping up chains for a couple bills
We were stealing chains to earn a few bucks.
Since I got some change a lot o' Shit changed
Since I became wealthy, a lot has changed in my life.
Wit me and my peers
With me and my friends.
I been feelin' like "fuck the spotlight"
Lately, I have felt like ignoring the spotlight.
I wanna go back to the block life
I wish to return to my old life on the block.
Look at everything Ion got right
When I see everything that I have achieved, I know I did something right.
Was it all worth it 'cuz since a nigga made it som'n not right
But was it all worth it, because now that I have made it, something feels off.
I can tell the truth from the lies
I have learned to differentiate between the truth and lies.
In the coupe with no roof when I'm ridin'
Riding in the convertible with the top down.
Hit the booth, tell the truth, no lie
When I get in the recording booth, I speak only the truth and don't lie.
No lie
No lie, I only speak the truth.
Writer(s): Inconnu Compositeur Auteur, Derez De Shon Lenard, Derez De'shon Lenard
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