Separation Anxiety
Desolate Lyrics

I'm scared to death without you around
The absence of you is causing me extreme fear to the point of virtual death

I'm scared your feet won't ever touch back down
The sheer thought that you may never return to me is causing me panic

Come down, come down
I am urging and pleading for your safe and swift return

Visions in my sleep; A fragile face, a grave for two
In my sleep, I see haunting images of you along with grave indications for us both

Now this room's a terrible place. Terrible place, just refuse
The space that surrounds me is so unbearable as you aren't here, it may as well not exist

This space is a terrible place. Terrible place, without you
The presence of this space without you is a desolate wasteland of torment

Dear God I, never thought I'd. Lose this much this time (this much this time).
Oh, dear God, I never fathomed that I would suffer an immense loss yet again

It's a living hell tonight. But only in my mind
The anxiety and despair I am currently experiencing is purely in my thoughts and feelings

My god I, can't justify. These old fears despite. When worlds apart, one lone heart. Still beats in unison with mine
Oh, my God, although I cannot justify these reoccurring fears, despite distance, our hearts still beat as one

I see your ghost. Everytime my eyes close (I feel your bones). Will you stay if I never wake? I'd really like to know
I see you in my mind's eye every time I close my own eyes. I can feel you so close to me that I can even imagine tracing your outline. May I ask, will you forever remain by my side even if I pass away?

Separate, isolate me
Isolation is a consequence of separation

"One person's happiness. Comes from another's misfortune"
Someone's joy can be born at the cost of causing hurt or agony to someone else

I will drown in myself, if it helps you sleep at night. As the memory of you fades into the light. And I, into the dark
If it will ease your mind, I will sink into a deep, dark place as my memories of you continue to dissolve in the light

Let me die in only your happiest of dreams
May my death be truncated in the happiest memories of you and me together

For the hundredth fucking time
Once again, for about the hundredth time

You were the tourniquet that kept my heart in time. Can't even bear the weight that's mine. Now I'd just rather not be alive
You were the stability that regulated my heart's tempo. I cannot bear my current emotional agony, and death seems like a more pleasant alternative

Striped fingers crossed. A girl forever lost
Her fingers are crossed, and she is utterly lost

Why do I get like this?
What is the reason behind me feeling like this?

I am a self inflicting, life crippling, natural disaster
I am growing to become a natural calamity, inducing pain unto myself and causing my life to deteriorate

I'll find peace when I'm held only by the rafters
I will have found serenity when my lifeless body is suspended from the ceiling rafters

"Pathetic"
Labeling myself as worthless

Vapid dreams, come calm every frayed nerve. Soothe my broken heart to sleep. Despite the pain I deserve
Even though I deserve the emotional distress, my empty dreams ease my nervousness and provide some reprieve for my broken heart