So Far Away
Detritus Lyrics

Why, when I'm feeling down do you seem so far away?
Even when surrounded by people who love me, I feel alone and distant from you when I am sad.

Surrounded by love but alone inside my head
Although I have people who care about me, I feel isolated and disconnected from them because of my own thoughts and feelings.

Why, when things go wrong do I run away and hide?
Instead of facing my problems head-on, I tend to avoid them and shut myself away from the world when things get tough.

Life goes on, but I've been left behind
Even though time keeps moving forward, I feel stuck and left behind in my own struggles.

Oh, reach out and touch me Show me that you're there, show me that you care
I long for someone to physically and emotionally reach out to me, proving their presence and love.

I knew it wouldn't be easy, But I'd never be alone, you would always guide me home Then why do I feel so alone?
Even though I was never promised an easy life, I expected to never feel alone with your guidance, but I still do.

Why do I do the things I hate to do? The things I know I want to do I cannot do even for you, I know you want me to It's not me but that within me, that has taken control of me When will be the day you take this wretched man and set him free?
Despite wanting to do the right thing and please you, my own vices and shortcomings hold me back from doing so, and I hope that one day you will free me from them.

I know you see 'Tis I that turn away from thee You're here for me But there's a door I hold the key
I acknowledge that it is my own fault for turning away from your love and help, even though you are always there for me. I am the one in control of my own actions.

Selfish despair, the thing that binds me, hurting all of those around me, Hurting you, the one who saved me, stops your light from shining from me, Give me back the fire that burned in me, and help me be how I want to be, And help me hate the enemy, he got too close to me
My own self-centered despair is not only causing harm and pain to myself but also to the people around me, including you. I want to regain the passion and drive I once had and become the person I desire to be, and distance myself from the negative influences in my life.

Don't follow me, follow the one I follow Don't look to me, look to the one I look to Don't turn away, because of the believers The true one is the Christ, and not the Christians.
I am not a role model or example to follow, but I urge people to look towards the same source of strength and guidance that I do, rather than being disappointed or disillusioned by the flaws of human believers. The true source of hope and love is not in any person or group but in Christ himself.