Chaos
Deviated Presence Lyrics
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The enemies: myself and everyone else.
I feel drawn out, them to slaughter.
Disdain, the urge for undermination, unseen i proceed.
The farther i get the more i'm drained.
Every victory leaves me defeated
Suffering myself
Turn the lights out in the dusk, snuff the last glow of my candle.
Enforce my blackness, till all of me has turned to hate
No one is here, the panic reaching out and schizophrenic motivations
Hauling me
This world is like a horror vision
Distorted beings in it
Produced by conversion error,
Produced by my own mind.
Bleakness will never end,
Abandonment in my escape weighted down by calamity.
I will defy, strengthen the mental fortress,
Derive what threatens me
Find protection in emotional death.
Descent continues
Grinds me down to nothing
No space, constricted, unable to move
Cling to the last reasons
Strive against losing faith in them
Tormented by uncontrolled fear
Suffering myself
Where's my ally to defy this cursed me?
Turn the lights out in the dusk, snuff the last glow of my candle.
Enforce my blackness, till all of me has turned to hate
Happiness so quickly gone
Moments seem a million years ago
The truth hurts, perception is always something wrong
Cut short my way, kill the future
The lyrics of "Chaos" by Deviated Presence encompass the inner turmoil of an individual's mental state when they feel isolated, oppressed, and besieged by their own thoughts and the people around them. The verses are an emotional narration of how the singer perceives himself as a soldier fighting his own mind and others around him. He describes his chaos as a mental war with no definite enemy. The first line of the lyrics "My chaos is the battlefield of mental war" is the central theme of the song, which emphasizes the internal conflicts of the singer.
The second part of the song shifts towards despair and hopelessness, where the singer finds himself alone and helpless. He seeks an ally to overcome his cursed self but finds no support. He highlights the importance of fighting back and preserving his identity in the face of a hostile world; for this, he wants to create an emotional shield around himself. The last lines of the song reveal the despair and sadness of the singer, where he feels like his life has been cut short, and there is no future left for him.
Overall, the lyrics of "Chaos" by Deviated Presence are an insight into the struggles of an individual fighting his internal demons and the hostile world around him. It is a call for preserving one's identity and fighting back in the face of adversity.
Line by Line Meaning
My chaos is the battlefield of mental war.
The turmoil in my mind is like a battleground where I fight against myself and others.
The enemies: myself and everyone else.
Both I and everyone around me are part of the problem.
I feel drawn out, them to slaughter.
I find myself compelled to defeat those who are causing me stress and pain.
Disdain, the urge for undermination, unseen i proceed.
I proceed with a desire for destruction, but don't show it outwardly.
The farther i get the more i'm drained.
The more I try to fix things, the more exhausted I become.
Every victory leaves me defeated
Even when I think I've won, I still feel beaten down.
Where's my ally to defy this cursed me?
I need someone to help me fight against the negativity within myself.
Turn the lights out in the dusk, snuff the last glow of my candle.
I want to extinguish the only hope I have left.
Enforce my blackness, till all of me has turned to hate
I want to let the negative side of myself take over and become all-consuming.
No one is here, the panic reaching out and schizophrenic motivations
I feel alone and overwhelmed by my own thoughts and emotions.
This world is like a horror vision
The world around me feels like a nightmare.
Distorted beings in it
I see those around me as twisted and menacing.
Produced by conversion error,
I blame myself for creating the problems in my mind.
Produced by my own mind.
The chaos in my life is a result of my own negative thoughts and emotions.
Bleakness will never end,
I see no end to my suffering and despair.
Abandonment in my escape weighted down by calamity.
Even if I try to escape my problems, I feel weighed down by the weight of the negative emotions and situations.
I will defy, strengthen the mental fortress,
I will fight against the negativity and build up a strong mental defense against it.
Derive what threatens me
I will analyze what's causing my suffering.
Find protection in emotional death.
I'll try to protect myself by shutting down my emotions.
Descent continues
My mental state keeps getting worse.
Grinds me down to nothing
My suffering is destroying me completely.
No space, constricted, unable to move
I feel trapped and unable to escape my problems.
Cling to the last reasons
I hold on to the few things that are keeping me from spiraling into madness.
Strive against losing faith in them
I try to keep believing in those things despite my doubts.
Tormented by uncontrolled fear
I'm constantly suffering from uncontrollable anxiety and fear.
Cut short my way, kill the future
I feel like my future is bleak and I can't envision a better life for myself.
Contributed by Brayden H. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@ianharrison5758
@Colby Gordon look, I get Konrad is cartoonishly evil, but he’s not the whiny bitch of a meme many fans seem to see him as. I can understand if you don’t have my sympathy for him, but his motivations were a lot deeper than how you’re making them out to be.
Kurze was fundamentally broken by the scattering. His upbringing broke his mind, long before the symptoms were so obvious. He was driven to madness by horrific visions that always came to be, at first due to chance and later his own actions as he lost himself further and further. He never had any tempering to his nature, his need to punish was never tempered by compassion and empathy, leading to the opposite. Sadism.
He played the role he was designed for, he was the emperors judgment. He was who was sent to those who needed not only to be made compliant, but punished.
He didn’t torture people because he enjoyed it, not at first, he only grew too after his visions broke his mind and he became obsessed with fate.
He was never taught how to interpret his foresight in context. He was never going to be able to prevent the ones that haunted him most, the ones of his brothers fates and his own death.
He alone couldn’t stop the forces at work from corrupting his brothers, guaranteeing the dark future he saw came true, once again reinforcing konrads view of fate as inescapable.
Eventually, the only thing he had left to hold on to was the idea that he didn’t have a choice. His own agency never manifested in a way he could quantify, at least not when he was sane enough to understand that. Part of him desperately wished he was wrong. He didn’t want to he what he was but he had to believe it wasn’t his choice because if he ever did accept the truth, it would make him a monster far beyond the scope of forgiveness. He needed to believe he was made this way or he couldn’t practically function, but deep down he hoped that he had been wrong, that the night haunter was wrong. He knew he was a monster but desperately hoped that he didn’t have to be, or at least could have been better in another life. Curze asked sanginius to kill him, and when he thought his death was coming, we saw one of the only moments he genuinely smiled with happiness, because if he had died there, then there had been hope, even if it had been squandered, for Konrad to have changed. It would mean he wasn’t destined to be a monster. Being killed by the emperors assassin, like he had seen, however, would and did prove that his fate truly had been sealed. By the time he could have made any significant change he was too insane to see it, his agency taken from him, ironically, the hands that bound him were his own, but he’d never be able to see that, but desperately hoping it was true. That’s why I said death is nothing compared to vindication, because Konrad was right. In the most insane sense of the word he was right, and that’s a cruelty he could have been spared should the emperor had healed his mind like he himself said he could before it got so bad.
Curze is a lot more tragic than people realize, his insanity wasn’t his fault and his conflicts weren’t cringe daddy issues, but complex mental health issues, loneliness and self hatred. Yeah his feeling were Contradictory but he’s INSANE, what do you expect? That’s the reality of mental illness on a primarch scale. Selling him short does nothing but deny yourself a compelling character once you understand them.
@Marinealver
I have an idea on how tot lace Hashut the God of the Dark Mechanicus as a minor Chaos God.
Before the birth of the Eldar Hashut was one of the Big 4. However he had competition, the Void Dragon also claimed Machines as his own. Hashut answered this challenged, and pretty much got Obliterated.
Well then the Eldar came and took on the C'tan, then the Eldar fell and a replacement for Hashut came along.
Hashut eventually revives but awakens to be fall less powerful and his spot taken by a younger Chaos God. In the mean time the rest of the Chaos Gods look to him to make their infernal machines. Khorne walks down to the Daemonforge with the desire for Hashut to make 80,000 Lord of Skulls. When Hashut tries barging for payment Khorne simply threatens Hashut in which Hashut cowerlys accept his toil for fear of another battle worse than the one against the Void Dragon.
During his toils Nurgle visits him with the desire for 700,000 Plague Drones. While Hashut claims he would be honored to fulfill the Grandfather's order he has promised the Blood God 80,000 Lord of Skulls and cannot break such a promise. Nurgle nods in understanding and then leaves. When Hashut finishes his 8,000th Lord of Skulls Nurgle visits him again with "Glad Tidings", for Nurlge has had a conversation with the blood God Khorne discussing Hashut's situation, and Khorne agreed to reduce his order from 80,000 to 8,000 freeing him to begin work on 700,000 Plague Drones for the Plague God.
Thus Hashut's fate is nearly sealed as a servant and a bargaining chip for what was once his peers and a single upstart as well. Hashut desires to reclaim his place but for that to happen he needs more strength. So there he created the 3 Vows for all those that enter the Daemonforge who are not the Big 4. All Souls to the forge, all scrap to the forge, and if the forge is under attack by any mortal or immortal force, all will answer call to defend it. Slowly he gains his power.
@onlywar
Great job my friend. It’s been awesome seeing this grow from your first idea to this wee gathering of the community. Warms the soul like The Grandfather’s love.
@Ricky_Nixon
Impossible to not read this comment in your narration voice.
@baldermort
Got you too eh? Lol.
@onlywar
@Baldermort's Guide to Warhammer Aye we better watch him or he'll go full Trazyn
@chosenofkhorne2951
The virgin chaos gods VS the alpha chad Malal
My god malal needs a a 40k army GW make it happen if the elder and imperial can have infinite factions why not the minor chaos gods such as hashut nekowho zuvasin and great horned rat
@SkallKiller
I notice the Nurgle excerpt was credited to you, so I have to wonder, did you write that awesome piece? If so, what was the Primarch of Clavam's Chapter? I'm very interested
@ronnie953
Wow Baldermort, A Border Prince, Vox in the void and last but not least Only war, this is fantastic. Every single creator in this video has great talent!
@baldermort
Good stuff. Well done. Good luck.
@TheAmberKing
Cheers brother! It was awesome to have you onboard!
@Diomedes_XXII
I effin knew it, lol… I've been a sub for a while now, Amber King... you have my Lord Commander with you... and are therefore included under the violent aegis I provide... Great work. Lord Commander Baldermort, my Liege... it's good to see you helping the entire community... you're one of a kind, sir... The Emperor Protects!