L'heautontimoroumenos
Diamanda Galás Lyrics


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By Charles Baudelaire
No rage, no rancor: I shall beat you
As butchers fell an ox,
As Moses smote the rock in Horeb-

I shall make you weep,
And by the waters of affliction
My desert will be slaked.
My desire, that hope has made monstrous,
Will frolic in your tears
As a ship tosses on the ocean-
In my besotted heart
Your adorable sobs will echo
Like an ecstatic drum.
For I - am I not a dissonance
In the divine accord,
Because of the greedy Irony
Which infiltrates my soul?
I hear it in my voice - that shrillness,
That poison in my blood!
I am the sinister glass in which
The Fury sees herself!
I am the knife and the wound it deals,
I am the slap and the cheek,
I am the wheel and the broken limbs,
Hangman and victim both!
I am the vampire at my own veins,
One of the great lost horde
Doomed for the rest of my time, and beyond,




′To laugh - and smile no more'
(Taken from Les Fleurs du Mal, translated by Richard Howard)

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Diamanda Galás’s L'heautontimoroumenos, which is derived from Baudelaire's poem, describe the singer's internal struggle as he contemplates his desire for revenge. He speaks of how he will destroy his enemy, not with anger or hatred but with a cold, calculated approach. He draws comparisons to biblical stories, describing his actions as those of a butcher slaying an ox or Moses striking a rock. The singer believes that inflicting pain on his enemy will bring him satisfaction and quench his own desires.


The lyrics continue to describe the singer's own inner turmoil. He acknowledges that the vengeful side of his nature is at odds with a divine harmony, which he recognizes as his own internal dissonance that stems from a "greedy irony" that permeates his being. With an air of self-awareness and candor, the singer identifies both the beauty and the ugliness within himself. He recognizes the connection between the pain he inflicts on others and the pain he feels within himself. Rather than denying his own darkness, he embraces it as part of his nature, recognizing himself as "the vampire at my own veins."


Overall, the song's lyrics seem to explore the complex nature of human desires and the inherent contradictions within ourselves. It touches on themes of revenge and self-destructive behavior while also acknowledging the beauty that can be found in darkness and pain.


Line by Line Meaning

No rage, no rancor: I shall beat you
Without anger or bitterness, I will defeat you like a butcher slaughters an ox or Moses struck the rock in Horeb.


I shall make you weep,
I will cause you to cry.


And by the waters of affliction
Your tears will quench my thirst for revenge.


My desert will be slaked.
My emptiness will be filled.


My desire, that hope has made monstrous,
My overwhelming longing, fueled by hope, has grown into a terrible monster.


Will frolic in your tears
I will revel in the sight of you crying.


As a ship tosses on the ocean-
Like a boat being thrown on the waves of the sea.


In my besotted heart
In my love-drunk heart.


Your adorable sobs will echo
Your charming cries will reverberate.


Like an ecstatic drum.
Like the sound of a wild, joyful drum.


For I - am I not a dissonance
Because of my ironic and cynical nature, am I not in conflict with divine harmony?


In the divine accord,
The balance of heaven.


Because of the greedy Irony
Due to the insatiable appetite of my cynical self.


Which infiltrates my soul?
Which seeps into my soul?


I hear it in my voice - that shrillness,
I can hear it in my voice, the sharpness.


That poison in my blood!
That venom flowing in my veins!


I am the sinister glass in which
I am the ill-omened glass that reflects,


The Fury sees herself!
Where the wrath sees itself!


I am the knife and the wound it deals,
I am the weapon and the pain it causes,


I am the slap and the cheek,
I am the hand and the face it hits,


I am the wheel and the broken limbs,
I am the torture device and its broken victims,


Hangman and victim both!
Both the executioner and the executed!


I am the vampire at my own veins,
I am the bloodsucker of my own life force,


One of the great lost horde
One of the numerous and wretched lost souls


Doomed for the rest of my time, and beyond,
Cursed for all my time, and even after it,


?To laugh - and smile no more'
To never laugh or smile again.




Writer(s): Diamanda Galas

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Comments from YouTube:

Pyra Barnes

My favorite French poet/poem done by my favorite vocal performance artist. I have always loved/will always love this performance.

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Scary as hell voice and creepy dark atmosphere but so beautiful poetry at the same time. Charles Baudelaire and Diamanda Galas =  just the perfect couple!!

Dominga Doflaminga

I wish he was alive so he could witness how Diamanda makes justice to his poetry. Diamanda's Litanies of Satan is the best homage the poem could have received.

Juan Parrazal

Larga vida a Diamanda !

seeer1978

Morgawse Arth, thank you....! it was amazing to witness this mystery of sound, music and... voice of our Goddess.

aleksandar visantini

DIVINA!!!

Helen Jang

every song by her is so good. every song

Titty France

magnificence ultime 0['-=

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Diamanda💓🌹

MartianMiss

timeless

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