Never
Dice Raw Lyrics

Everything's changing around me
The world is constantly evolving and I need to change with it

And I wanna change too
I personally feel that I need to make some changes in my life

It's one thing I know
I am certain about one thing

It ain't cool being no fool
It is not admirable to be unintelligent or foolish

I feel different today
I am experiencing a new sensation that I cannot explain

I don't know what else to say
I am unable to express my thoughts and feelings further

But I'm-a get my shit together
I am going to organize my life and start achieving my goals

It's now or never
I need to make changes in my life right away or I may never get the chance

I'm sick, sick of waiting in vain
I am tired of waiting for something that may never happen

Tired of playing the game
I am exhausted from constantly engaging in life's challenges

Thinking of making a change
I am considering altering my habits or lifestyle

Finally breaking the chains
I am freeing myself from a negative situation or influence

Every phase, every happening craze
I have experienced various stages and trends in my life

When it's said and done
After all is said and done

My head is right back in a haze
I am feeling confused and unsure again

I'm ready for the next chapter and page
I am prepared for the next phase of my life

To start acting my age and part ways
I need to start behaving in a more mature manner and move on from past relationships

With black thought from back in the days
I need to let go of old thought patterns and ideas

I'm stargazing from the back of the stage
I am observing my life from a different perspective

Questioning if who y'all praise is worthy of praise
I am doubting the value of the people or things that others admire or respect

What's the phrase--bygones is bygones?
Is there a saying about letting go of the past and moving on?

Niggas who used to be the underdog is icons
People who were once overlooked or underestimated are now celebrated as heroes

People say the light shines once in a lifetime
Some people believe that we only get one chance to achieve greatness or happiness

Is this mid-life kind of crisis a little bit like mine?
Do other people experience a similar crisis when they reach middle age?

I'm thinking not now, but right now
I need to take action immediately instead of putting things off

I need some kinda sign that the future is bright now
I am looking for a positive indication that things will improve in the future

I fuck around, do the right thing like Spike now
I need to commit to doing the right thing from now on

The quick and the dead--which is my look-a-like now
I must choose between a life of action or inaction

I'm moving ahead
I am progressing forward in life

Yo, opportunities lost because I blew 'em
I have missed out on chances in life due to my own mistakes or negligence

On the sunniest days of my life I cried through 'em
Even during the happiest moments of my life, I still felt sadness

Mom's was out the picture and pops I barely knew him
My mother was not present in my life and I had little connection with my father

And I would pray to God, but I'm tired of lying to him
I have not been completely honest in my prayers to God

Tired of trying to run from the things inside of us
I am exhausted from attempting to escape from my inner demons

Got a lot of fam' and a lot of admirers
I have many family members and people who respect me

Who tell me that I should aspire to be changed
My loved ones advise me to strive for self-improvement

But when I think of changing, it's like why even try this shit?
I am reluctant to pursue self-improvement because I doubt its success

My mind hazy and my thoughts they get distorted
I am unable to think clearly and my thoughts are unclear

I know my good and bad needs both get recorded
All of my actions and decisions are monitored and judged

You do right so your soul can last
It is important to behave morally in order to preserve one's soul

But my role was cast before I even auditioned for it
My fate was predetermined and I had no say in the matter

So I don't really see an end to my vice
I do not believe that I will ever overcome my negative tendencies

It's just false reclamation, no end of my strife
My efforts to change are merely temporary and my struggles will continue

Feel the evil overpowering
I am overwhelmed by negative thoughts and emotions

You can go ahead throw the towel in
You can give up or surrender

'Cause, nigga, that's the end of the fight
That represents the conclusion of the battle

When you can only see the tunnel at the end of the lights
When you are facing a dark and uncertain future

Like (?) it's the end of your life
You may feel that everything will be lost and everything will end

When I look into the mirror and see my own image
When I examine myself in the mirror

It feels like there's something else far off in the distance
I sense that there is an unknown force or presence that is beyond my grasp

Something I wanna see, but something that's resistant
I want to see this unknown entity, but it is resisting me

And every day the haunting is growing more persistent
This unknown force is becoming more prevalent and difficult to ignore

I never noticed it before, but now I can't miss it
I did not realize its influence before, but now it is impossible to ignore

And the constant pounding's driving me ballistic
The relentless pressure is causing me to feel extremely agitated and irrational

I ran from it for years, but it's still next to me
I have been trying to avoid it for a long time, but it remains close to me

And it's growing stronger take and leaving less of me
This force is becoming more powerful and it feels like it is diminishing my own identity

I can't fight it now; I know it's just destiny
I cannot resist it any longer, as it seems to be my fate

And I just wonder what's gonna happen when it catches me
I am curious about the ramifications when this force inevitably overtakes me

Will it leave me face down in (?)
Will I be defeated and humiliated?

Or will it just start bringing out the best of me?
Or will it stimulate the growth of my best qualities?

But is the best of me really just the worst of me?
Is it possible that my best qualities are simply lesser versions of my worst qualities?

And if so yesterday could be my anniversary
If this is true, then it could be considered a milestone in my life

In sinners' court it's important to have church with me
It is important for me to have faith in my beliefs, even when I make mistakes

I'm trying to get rid of these ghosts that's cursing me
I am attempting to rid myself of the negative influences and emotions that are plaguing me

I feel that change is an absolute certainty
I am certain that I must change in order to overcome my obstacles

'Cause what's going on is a state of emergency
The current situation is a serious and urgent matter