Turmoil
Disciple Lyrics


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They wrap me up for comfort
When behind my back they stab
Little old man creeping up again
I'd like to smack him up side his head (Romans 6:6)

I don't need you I don't care what you say takes me nowhere
Pony wants to ride, supposed to ride him
Eating from the cat bowl on the outside
Looking in intoxicating fragrance
Filling up my nose where it stops nobody knows

I beat my chest I beat my chest (Luke 18:13)
Words come out so easily
But I can't even show it (Matthew 21:28-31)
Is a sin really sin when I don't even know it? (Luke 12:48)

Free set my heart free (Romans 8:2)
Break, break the chain that's over me (Galatians 5:1)

Why do I do the things I don't want to (Romans 7:15)




Who will save me from this death (Romans 7:24)
Thanks be to God it's Jesus (Romans 7:25)

Overall Meaning

The song "Turmoil" by Disciple explores the internal struggle and confusion that one may face when trying to live a life of faith. The opening lines convey the false comfort that some people offer, pretending to be supportive while secretly causing harm. This is likely a reference to the hypocritical nature of some religious authorities who offer support on the surface, but behind closed doors stab their congregants in the back. The line "Little old man creeping up again" could signify the return of inner demons or the temptation to sin leading to frustration and anger.


The lyrics continue with a sense of desperation and confusion as the singer struggles to find their place in the world. The metaphor of the pony represents the need to take control of their own life, while the cat bowl symbolizes the temptation to indulge in worldly pleasures rather than focusing on spiritual growth. The line "Filling up my nose where it stops nobody knows" suggests a lack of control over where one's desires will take them. The frustration and guilt are evident in phrases like "Words come out so easily / But I can't even show it" and "Is a sin really sin when I don't even know it?"


The chorus emphasizes the desire for freedom from the chains of sin and the need for Jesus to save them. The lines "Why do I do the things I don't want to" and "Who will save me from this death" express the internal struggle and the acknowledgment of one's own inability to overcome it alone. The song ultimately ends on a note of gratitude, with the lines "Thanks be to God it's Jesus" expressing the belief that only through faith in Jesus can one truly be set free.


Line by Line Meaning

They wrap me up for comfort
People may try to make me feel better, but they hide their true intent to attack me.


When behind my back they stab
Even though I don't see the harm they cause me, their actions hurt me deeply.


Little old man creeping up again
My inner struggles and weaknesses keep coming back to haunt me.


I'd like to smack him up side his head
I feel angry and frustrated with myself for being unable to overcome my weaknesses.


I don't need you I don't care what you say takes me nowhere
I won't listen to those who try to bring me down or discourage me from my path, as their criticisms are unfounded and pointless.


Pony wants to ride, supposed to ride him
I have desires and passions that I feel compelled to pursue, but may not be socially acceptable or supported by those around me.


Eating from the cat bowl on the outside
I feel like an outsider, consuming what's left over and neglected by others around me.


Looking in intoxicating fragrance
I'm attracted to certain things, such as pleasure or power, without knowing their true nature or dangers.


Filling up my nose where it stops nobody knows
I'm indulging my senses without knowing the limits, leading me towards possible harm or addiction.


I beat my chest I beat my chest
I'm expressing my emotions, but they're not enough to bring me inner peace or resolution.


Words come out so easily
It's easy to say things and make promises, but it's hard to actually follow through with them.


But I can't even show it
I struggle to express my true feelings or intentions to others, even though I'm capable of doing so.


Is a sin really sin when I don't even know it?
I'm ignorant or unsure of my actions or beliefs, leading me to question the morality or validity of my choices.


Free set my heart free
I want to be liberated from the constraints, doubts, and insecurities that hold me back emotionally and mentally.


Break, break the chain that's over me
I want to break free from the negative patterns, habits, or influences that have chained me down and limited my potential.


Why do I do the things I don't want to
I struggle against my own desires, impulses, or temptations that go against my better judgment, making me question my self-control or discipline.


Who will save me from this death
I feel trapped or doomed by my own flaws or circumstances, needing salvation or hope to overcome them.


Thanks be to God it's Jesus
I rely on my faith to find forgiveness, comfort, and strength through Jesus Christ, as He represents the ultimate sacrifice and redemption for my sins.




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