Toxin
Donovan Melero Lyrics
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It's a toxin for my psyche
Too nostalgic to breathe
We fuck when he leaves like it's a hobby
Silhouette stance in your kitchen
A brunette dance for me.
Do you think that he knows?
Don't wanna face the times I know I'll have to be forgiven.
For all the things that you and I still have to keep a secret.
Like the way that your mine but I'm not yours.
I burst at the seams to be around you
Walking red eye through your lobby
Getting too high to sleep
We get what we want when we're together
I'm a bad seed and you love it
So you plant me in you.
Do you miss it at all?
Do you think that he knows?
Don't wanna face the times I know I'll have to be forgiven.
For all the things that you and I still have to keep a secret.
Like the way that you're mine but I'm not yours.
Swerving on the freeway I'm heading over now.
Since you're calling this late you must be home alone.
I'll get you back, get you back now.
You'll want me back, want me back when you're sad and alone.
Don't wanna face the times I know I'll have to be forgiven.
For all the things that you and I still have to keep a secret.
But I'll wait.
And you'll wait.
The lyrics of Donovan Melero's song "Toxin" depict a very complicated and emotionally charged relationship. The singer seems to be involved in an affair with someone who is already in a committed relationship. The opening lines "Take back the perfume that lingers on me/It's a toxin for my psyche/Too nostalgic to breathe" suggest that the singer is overwhelmed by the memories of their affair and finds it difficult to move on.
The singer paints a vivid picture of their affair with lines like "We fuck when he leaves like it's a hobby/Silhouette stance in your kitchen/A brunette dance for me." These lyrics suggest that the singer and their lover engage in sexual activities whenever the lover's partner is not around. The singer also acknowledges that their relationship is a secret, as they ask their lover if "he knows."
As the song progresses, the singer expresses anxiety about the future, admitting that they "don't wanna face the times [they] know [they'll] have to be forgiven" for their actions. They describe their relationship as something they "still have to keep a secret," suggesting that they have no intention of ending it. The lyrics "Like the way that you're mine but I'm not yours" further highlight the complexity of their relationship.
The song's chorus features the singer attempting to reconnect with their lover after a period of separation. The lines "Don't wanna face the times I know I'll have to be forgiven/For all the things that you and I still have to keep a secret" suggest that the singer is willing to risk everything to maintain their affair. However, the final lines "But I'll wait/And you'll wait" suggest that the singer is willing to be patient and bide their time until they can be with their lover again.
Line by Line Meaning
Take back the perfume that lingers on me
I want to get rid of the memories we made together
It's a toxin for my psyche
Being reminded of you is poisonous to my mind
Too nostalgic to breathe
The memories we shared are suffocating me
We fuck when he leaves like it's a hobby
We have a casual sexual relationship when your significant other is not around
Silhouette stance in your kitchen
I can remember the way you looked when we were in your kitchen
A brunette dance for me.
You danced for me with your brown hair flowing in the air
Don't you miss it at all?
Do you remember what we had?
Do you think that he knows?
Does your significant other know about us?
Don't wanna face the times I know I'll have to be forgiven.
I'm afraid I will need forgiveness for the things we did
For all the things that you and I still have to keep a secret.
We still have to keep our secrets hidden
Like the way that your mine but I'm not yours.
Even though I belong to you, we both know you don't belong to me
I burst at the seams to be around you
I can't contain my desire to be near you
Walking red eye through your lobby
I am walking through your building with bloodshot eyes
Getting too high to sleep
I am taking drugs to cope with the pain of our situation
We get what we want when we're together
We get what we desire when we are with each other
I'm a bad seed and you love it
Even though I am a bad influence, you still desire me
So you plant me in you.
You keep me close and desire me in your life
Swerving on the freeway I'm heading over now.
I'm driving erratically to get to you right now
Since you're calling this late you must be home alone.
You wouldn't be calling me this late unless you were alone at home
I'll get you back, get you back now.
I want to be with you again immediately
You'll want me back, want me back when you're sad and alone.
You will desire me when you are feeling down and need comfort
But I'll wait.
I'll wait for you even if it takes time
And you'll wait.
You'll wait for me even if it takes time
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Allen Casillas, Donovan Melero, Joe Occhiuti
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@boohooolooi
this album has seriously helped me get through the most gut wrenching break up ive ever experienced. i spend 2 months in and out of mental hospitals because it broke me to the core. thank you so much Donovan. you have no idea how many times your music has saved my life.
@ericanderson4151
Donovan and his diverse emotions conveyed in a song. <3
@DooMedSean
Daaamn Donovan! Another phenomenal track! I already know I'm gonna be jamming to this album on repeat for months!!! Love it!
@LilCstain
This album rocks
@julianiglesias1107
minuto 1:00 ... se me ponen los pelos de punta, simplemente hermoso.
@JuanCruzFabi
The only toxin here are the persons who doesn't smash that like button