At age 16, Malakouti emancipated herself from her parents, graduated high school two years early, and moved to Hollywood to pursue her show business dreams. Soon after arriving in Hollywood, Malakouti started an all girl punk rock band called Shut Up Stella, which signed with Epic Records in 2006. Shut Up Stella's music appeared in a variety of media between 2007–2008; "Watch Me Rain" was featured in MTV's "Sweet 16 The Movie" and "Welcome to My Party" appeared in the 2008 films "Girl Positive" and Baby Mama. On March 27, 2008 Shut Up Stella was dropped by Epic and Malakouti decided to go solo.
In 2008 Malakouti's songs "Trash Me" and "Outsider" appeared in episodes of MTV's The Hills. The songs were also independently self-released as music videos and digital downloads. In December 2008 Malakouti signed a publishing deal with EMI and spent two years in London working on dance music with Fred Falke as well as writing for UK production house Xenomania. The result of this time was a single called "Standing Up for The Lonely" which was released on British dance label Ministry of Sound. "Standing Up For The Lonely" also appeared in The Annual 2010 (2009,Ministry of Sound) and Dance Nation 2 (2009, Ministry of Sound) compilation albums.
Jessie and the Toy Boys was launched in March 2010 with the first single "Push It" being released in February 2011 which peaked at 7 on the Billboard dance chart. As well as "Push It", on the same day, "Valentine" and "We Own The Night" were also released. These songs were used by The CW Network in their general promos for the network, as well as the station's written "motto" in their station promos. In June 2011, Jessie and the Toy Boys released an EP titled, Show Me Your Tan Lines, and Malakouti made her network television debut on the Conan O'Brien Show. During this time, Jessie and the Toy Boys was one of the opening acts during Britney Spears' sixth concert tour, the Femme Fatale Tour. During this time she recorded her next single, Let's Get Naughty which was released in October 2011 and performed on Femme Fatale Tour. Malakouti was a main stage act alongside Kaskade, Rusko, Steve Aoki, and Avicii on the Identity Festival. Jessie and the Toy Boys' debut album This Is How Rumours Start was due out in early 2012 but has failed to surface. Although there was no album release, Malakouti released a few YouTube videos of unreleased songs during 2012 as well as a music video for On With My Bad Self but the song was later not released.
On May 2013 Malakouti released a music video for what was originally a Toy Boys song "White Girl Wasted" as "Jessie Malakouti." This sparked rumors that she would no longer be releasing music under the name Jessie and the Toy Boys. On September 27, 2013, Malakouti uploaded a picture via her Facebook page confirming that she had signed a new recording contract with Virgin Records.
On June 2, 2014, Malakouti released her debut single under the name "Eden xo", titled "Too Cool to Dance". An accompanying "homemade GIF video was released the same day as the song premiered on iTunes. On July 23, a lyric video to the song was released onto Eden xo's official Vevo channel and an accompanying audio video was released on August 14. Throughout August and September, Eden xo released a series of remixes of "Too Cool to Dance" on her SoundCloud page. Eden xo released the official music video for "Too Cool to Dance" on September 17, 2014 on VEVO. "Too Cool To Dance" was featured in 2014's 4th annual National Dance Day. So You Think You Can Dance producer and judge Nigel Lythgoe choreographed a special routine to the song and encouraged the public to submit their own dance videos performing the routine. "Too Cool To Dance" recieved praise from Billboard, calling it one of "Tomorrow's Hits" and it also appeared on the American version of Now That's What I Call Music 52 as one of their "Now What's Next" bonus tracks. On February 16, 2015, Eden xo debuted her next single, titled "The Weekend", on JustJared. Later that day, her official Vevo account uploaded live versions of "Too Cool to Dance" and "The Weekend", revealing that she was their next Vevo DSCVR artist. "The Weekend" was then made available for purchase on iTunes and Amazon on February 17, 2015.
Hold Me Now
Eden xo Lyrics
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Pinned in my wall
An image of you and of me and we′re Laughing and loving it all
Look at our life now
We tattered and torn
We fuss and we fight and delight in the tears That we cry until dawn
Hold me now
Warm my heart
Let loving start
Let loving start
You say I'm a dreamer
We′re two of a kind
Both of us searching for some perfect world We know we'll never find
So perhaps I should leave here
Yeah, go far away
But you know that there's nowhere that I Rather be than with you here today
Hold me now
Warm my heart
Stay with me
I want you stay with me
Let loving start
Let loving start
Hold me now
Warm my heart
Stay with me
I want you stay with me
Let loving start
Let loving start
If you ask me to
I will run with you
When you hold me
Baby baby
You ask if I love you
(You know I love you)
But what can I say
(There′s nothing that I can say)
You know that I do and if this is just one of Tose games that we play
So I′ll sing you a new song
(Baby ooh)
Please dont cry anymore
And I'll ask your forgiveness
Tho I dont know just why I′m asking it for
Hold me now
Hold me in your loving arms
Warm my heart
Oh! my cold and tired heart
Stay with me
I want you stay with me
Let loving start
Let loving start
Hold me now
Hold me in your loving arms
Warm my heart
Oh! my cold and tired heart
Stay with me
I want you stay with me
Let loving start
Let loving start
In Eden xo's song "Hold Me Now," she sings about a love that has gone through its ups and downs but still remains strong. The first verse talks about a picture pinned on the wall of her and her lover laughing and loving life together. She then contrasts this idyllic picture to the current state of their relationship: "We tattered and torn, we fuss and we fight and delight in the tears that we cry until dawn." Despite the difficulties, she still wants her lover to hold her, warm her heart, and start loving again.
The second verse acknowledges that they are both dreamers searching for a perfect world they will never find. She considers leaving, but ultimately decides that she would rather be with her lover than anywhere else. The chorus repeats the plea for her lover to hold her and start loving again, emphasizing the importance of connection and intimacy in a difficult relationship.
The bridge of the song reveals the vulnerability and uncertainty that can come with love: "You ask if I love you, but what can I say? You know that I do, and if this is just one of those games that we play..." She then sings a new song to stop her lover from crying and asks for their forgiveness, even though she doesn't know why she needs it. The song ends with a final plea to hold and warm her heart and start loving again.
Overall, "Hold Me Now" is a powerful expression of the challenges and joys of love. The lyrics paint a picture of a relationship that has seen better days but still holds a deep connection and a desire to rebuild. It's a reminder of the importance of intimacy and vulnerability in any partnership.
Line by Line Meaning
I have a picture
I have a photograph that is pinned to my wall
Pinned in my wall
The photograph is firmly attached to my wall
An image of you and of me and we're laughing and loving it all
The photograph is of you and me having a good time together
Look at our life now
Our current life is very different from what is reflected in the photograph
We tattered and torn
We are worn out from all the struggles we have faced
We fuss and we fight and delight in the tears that we cry until dawn
We argue with each other and even enjoy it, and cry all night until the morning
Hold me now
Embrace me tightly
Warm my heart
Make me feel loved and cared for
Stay with me
Be with me always
Let loving start
Let's begin to truly love and appreciate each other
You say I'm a dreamer
You accuse me of being too idealistic
We're two of a kind
We are similar in our desire for a better life
Both of us searching for some perfect world we know we'll never find
Both of us are looking for an ideal world that we may never find or achieve
So perhaps I should leave here
Maybe I should go away from here
Yeah, go far away
Go somewhere very distant
But you know that there's nowhere that I'd rather be than with you here today
However, you know that the only place I want to be is with you here and now
If you ask me to, I will run with you
If you want me to, I will go anywhere with you
When you hold me
When you embrace me
Baby baby
My dear
You ask if I love you
You question whether or not I truly love you
(You know I love you)
(You already know that I do love you)
But what can I say
But there is nothing else I can say to prove it to you
(There's nothing that I can say)
(I don't have any other words to express it)
You know that I do and if this is just one of those games that we play
You know that I truly love you, even if this questioning is just one of our usual games
So I'll sing you a new song (Baby ooh)
I will compose a new song for you
Please don't cry anymore
Please stop crying and feeling sad
And I'll ask your forgiveness
I beg for your pardon
Tho I don't know just why I'm asking it for
But I don't even know why I am apologizing
Hold me now
Embrace me tightly
Hold me in your loving arms
Hold me close with affection
Oh! my cold and tired heart
My heart feels cold and weary
I want you stay with me
I want you to be beside me always
Let loving start
Let's begin to truly love and appreciate each other
Let loving start
Let's start loving each other
Contributed by Madison F. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Jesux
I have a picture
Pinned in my wall
An image of you and of me and we're Laughing and loving it all
Look at our life now
We tattered and torn
We fuss and we fight and delight in the tears That we cry until dawn
Hold me now
Warm my heart
Stay with me
Let loving start
Let loving start
You say I'm a dreamer
We're two of a kind
Both of us searching for some perfect world We know we'll never find
So perhaps I should leave here
Yeah, go far away
But you know that there's nowhere that I Rather be than with you here today
Hold me now
Warm my heart
Stay with me
I want you stay with me
Let loving start
Let loving start
Hold me now
Warm my heart
Stay with me
I want you stay with me
Let loving start
Let loving start
If you ask me to
I will run with you
When you hold me
Baby baby
You ask if I love you
(You know I love you)
But what can I say
(There's nothing that I can say)
You know that I do and if this is just one of Tose games that we play
So I'll sing you a new song
(Baby ooh)
Please dont cry anymore
And I'll ask your forgiveness
Tho I dont know just why I'm asking it for
Hold me now
Hold me in your loving arms
Warm my heart
Oh! my cold and tired heart
Stay with me
I want you stay with me
Let loving start
Let loving start
Hold me now
Hold me in your loving arms
Warm my heart
Oh! my cold and tired heart
Stay with me
I want you stay with me
Let loving start
Let loving start
Emily Johnson
Eden is so underrated and this version is soooo good!
DeRosset Myers
A lot of people probably never heard of her. I'm only here because I Shazammed this watching Scream Queens.
N T
+DeRosset Myers same
Jussara Pires
+DeRosset Myers I listen to her since she was Jessie Malakouti.
DeRosset Myers
Well now I have to look up Jessie Malakouti to see if any songs are still sold with that name on them.
Matt Garza
+Emily Johnson I think it's mainly because of her awful management. I knew her because of Britney Spears' "Femme Fatale Tour" (back in 2011), when her artistic name was "Jessie and the Toyboys" (I still have her EP). Sadly, "This is How Rumor Starts" never saw the sunlight, and after releasing some singles, she vanished. 'Till I saw Scream Queens and researched for this song, I remembered her.
Lauren
love how this has an 80's vibe to it
Just Dance Channel
Ikr!
Jaraydha
+JOBROFAN1583 It's from the 80s the Thompson twins -hold me now is the original
Sarim Zafar
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