Torn
Ednaswap Lyrics

I thought I saw a man brought to life
I momentarily believed that I had encountered a man who had come alive, full of vitality and warmth

He was warm - he came around like
He exuded heat and energy, almost like he was a living force of nature

He was dignified
He carried himself with a sense of poise and self-respect

He showed me what it was to cry
He exposed me to the raw emotions of grief and sadness in a way that I had never experienced

Well you couldn't be that man I adored
As much as I wanted you to be that same person, you failed to live up to the image of the man I admired

You don't seem to know - don't seem to care
Your behavior suggests that you lack awareness of your own feelings and motivations, or else you don't care about being true to them

What your heart is for
Your heart's purpose, or what moves and guides you, is unclear and ambiguous

No I don't know him anymore
I no longer recognize or understand the man I thought I knew

There's nothin' where we used to lie
The place where we once shared intimacy and connection is now empty and devoid of meaning

Conversation has run dry
We can no longer communicate effectively or share meaningful dialogue

That's what's going on
This is the current state of our relationship and the reasons behind my emotional turmoil

Nothing's fine
Nothing is alright or normal about how I am feeling

I'm torn
I am emotionally confused and pulled in different directions

I'm all out of faith
I have lost my ability to believe in things, either due to disappointment or disillusionment

This is how I feel
These are my genuine emotions and sensations, which can't be ignored or suppressed

I'm cold and I am chained
I am emotionally numb and restricted, as if I am physically bound by chains

Lying naked on the floor
I am emotionally vulnerable, exposed, and defenseless

Illusion never changed
Despite my attempts to change my beliefs or perceptions, the illusion or false impression I had never shifted or dissipated

Into something real
I am searching for a genuine and authentic experience, something that isn't just imaginary or fleeting

I'm cold and I am shamed and bound
I feel humiliated and guilty, as if I am being punished for something, and I am unable to free myself

And broken on the floor
I am emotionally shattered and unable to pick myself up

And I can see the perfect sky is torn
Even the beautiful and idealized aspects of life are flawed and damaged, indicating the extent of my emotional pain and confusion

You're a little late
You have failed to act or respond in time, and the problems have already manifested and become too severe to ignore

I'm already torn
I am already in a state of emotional upheaval and discord, and your actions or words cannot fix or undo that

So I guess the fortune teller's right
An earlier prophecy or prediction about my fate or future has been proven correct

I should have seen just what was there
In hindsight, I should have been more aware of the red flags and warning signs about this relationship

And not some holy light
I shouldn't have been blinded by idealized or romanticized notions of what the relationship should be, but rather seen it for what it really was

But you crawled beneath my veins
You have deeply infiltrated my psyche, emotions, and identity in a way that is difficult to reverse or undo

And now I don't care
As a result of your influence, I have become emotionally detached and indifferent to the situation

I have no luck
I am unable to achieve positive outcomes or experiences, and instead seem to have a string of disappointments

I don't miss it all that much
Despite the bad luck or missed opportunities, I am not necessarily longing or yearning for something else

There's just so many things
There are many desires, dreams, or experiences that seem unattainable or out of reach

That I can't touch
I am unable to fully grasp, understand, or attain these things, no matter how much I desire them