I Don't Wanna Die
Eightball Lyrics

Gloomy days got my head twisted
I am feeling down and negative

Mystic visions of a razor blade
Thoughts of self-harm are consuming me

Cut my blunt with precision
I carefully prepare my marijuana for consumption

Stuff it till it's bustin'
I fill the blunt to maximum capacity

Sippin' on some Tussin
I am drinking cough syrup to get high

Imagine it, gothic hustlin'
I picture myself as a gothic drug dealer

Men tusslin', women fussin'
There is constant fighting and conflict around me

And they babies in the corner cryin'
Even the babies are affected by the chaos and violence

Young niggaz bang, and they ain't afriad of dyin'
Young people are willing to engage in gang violence and not afraid of the consequences

Pistol keepers, mobile phones and beepers
People carry guns and communication devices for their illegal activities

Cars and hoes, and plenty dust for the geekers
People are interested in materialistic possessions and drugs

Me, I'm a break beater, microphone eater
I am a skilled rapper who can freestyle and perform well on a microphone

Weed leader, siizlin' like a fajita
I am a prominent figure in the drug community who is on fire like a fajita

But it's so hard for me to stay out the streets
It is difficult for me to avoid getting involved in illegal activities

Behind tint blowin' cheap
I smoke marijuana inside my car with tinted windows

Fuckin' with freaks
I am engaging in sexual activities with random partners

What kinda role model, I'ma be?
I am aware that my actions are not good examples for others to follow

Don't get it twisted
Do not misunderstand my message

Gifted, linquistic. graphic and realistic
I have natural talent for rapping and my lyrics are vivid and accurate

God, deleiver me from harm and arm me with,
I am asking for God's protection and guidance

Sense enough to know when to quit
I want to have the wisdom to stop engaging in harmful behaviors

I don't want to die
I am afraid of death

Thinkin' about what my eyes witnessed
I am reflecting on the things I have seen

Thinkin' about what my kids gon' see
I am worried about what my children will experience in the future

when they get grown and independent
When they become adults and live on their own

What you doin' baby?
I am questioning what someone is doing with their life

18, strippin' daily
An 18-year-old is working as a stripper every day

A small ass apartment, tryin' to flip a Mercedes
The person is living in a tiny apartment and trying to sell a Mercedes for a profit

I don't knock shit, unless you a fiend
I do not judge people unless they are addicted to drugs

Tryin' to hock shit
Trying to sell illegal items for a quick profit

Protectin' myself
I am defending myself from potential harm

I gotta grab the gock and pop shit
I need to take out my gun and shoot if necessary

I guess that's the problem with the world today (what?)
There are many issues in the world today, including violence

Black, white, asian
People of different races and ethnicities

So many people think this way
There are many people who have negative thoughts and opinions about others

Fuck with me and I'll shoot ya
I will use my gun if someone provokes me

We live in, what used to be the space age, future
We are living in a time that was once imagined as the distant future

To acid droppin' hippies
In the past, people used to consume LSD that was sometimes called 'acid'

Now they run the country
People who were once hippies are now leaders of the government

Drug smugglin' with my tax money
The government is involved in illegal drug operations using tax money

Bomb makers, nuclear, death creators
People who make bombs and work in the nuclear industry are creating the potential for destruction and death

White power, skin head, Jew and nigga haters
There are people who have prejudiced beliefs and actively hate others based on their race or religion

All of this, plus I gotta watch the nigga next door
I have to be careful and aware of the people around me, including those who live nearby

Life ain't nothin' but preperation
Life is all about preparing for things

For the angels and the demons that we all gon' face when,
We will all face angels and demons at some point in our lives

The soul and the body separate, that's death
Death is when the soul and body are no longer together

Nothin' left but darkness, after your last breath
After we die, there is only darkness

Well, all of that shit is in the past
All of that negativity is in the past, and we should focus on the present

Enjoy it while you got it, cause you can't take it with your ass
Enjoy life while you can, because you cannot take any material possessions with you after you die

Where I'm from, any day can be your last
In my neighborhood or city, anyone can die at any moment

That's why them thug niggaz live life hard and fast
That is why some people involved in criminal activities choose to live recklessly

Slowdown, and find yourself surrounded by the lowdown
If you slow down and stop engaging in illegal activities, you will find that you are surrounded by people with negative intentions

Unaware, a showdown's about to go down
Without being aware, a violent conflict could occur

Why we gotta clown instead of bein' kinfolks
Why do we have to mock each other instead of being supportive and loving family members?

Why do white folks, think all we know is sellin' dope?
Why do some white people think that all black people are involved in drug sales?

Some can't cope, and got out hangin' from a rope
Some people cannot handle the challenges of life and commit suicide

Slit wrists, found shakin' from an overdose
Some people die from drug overdoses or self-harm

Tupac and Biggie got they life snatched away
Tupac Shakur and The Notorious B.I.G. were both murdered

Nobody knows when they gotta go, mayne
Nobody knows when they will die, my friend